Sex demon

[LucidJuggalo]

I've had this entity appear to me in both lucid and non-lucid dreams, but 90% of the time in lucids. It has never assumed the same form but as always appeared to me as an alluring woman (with the exception of a small girl once). I have a weakness when it comes to sexual desire and it is at the point of intimacy that this 'demon', as I've coined it, manifests its true form and/or intentions, and suddenly becomes a ravenous, malicious entity that seeks to take hold of me (physically) and crush me. A long time ago in a lucid I stopped running from it and instead tried to 'bond' with it instead, overcoming my fear of what would happen if I lingered. This thing tried to crush my body under its grip but I didn't give in and fought with it, trying to bond with it in a sense. In a previous lucid it had told me that it represented all the negativity inside of me so I thought perhaps I could solve the problem by doing this. I never saw it again after my 'bonding' experience. That is, until today. I've been on and off with lucid dreaming for the past year, but as of yesterday I began a serious journey again. I've begun writing down my dreams again and am actively trying to get lucid. In a lucid this morning, this alluring blonde woman appeared to me twice, retaining exactly the same form and over the course of 2 false awakenings and 3 'dreams', if you would even call them that (non-lucidity in between the 1st and 2nd false awakening). In every encounter there was an enticing sexual desire for her in which I gave in. The first time constituted in a false awakening into non-lucidity and I was an observer of somebody who wasn't me, talking to this woman. The 2nd time was in lucidity; I noticed this exact same woman standing in the background (after picking up another chick to get frisky with), and as such wanted to know who she was, so I told her to come with me. We walked for a short duration without any conversation, but as soon as we were in an enclosed area she advanced upon me and came across to me as a sentient being with more independency than your typical dream character. I don't remember what she said to me but it was her manner of speaking that brought me to this conclusion, and from her words alone she made me have an orgasm (completely randomly), then she moved in closer until she was close enough to breathe on me. That was when everything about her changed. She adopted this wicked and malicious smile and gripped on to me with inhuman strength and I fought desperately to break free. I could feel this strong temptation to just give in and let her, this thing, crush me completely, but I didn't. I didn't even run away or wake myself up like I would normally, because this time I was in a state of mind where I didn't exactly fear this thing. I was just going to try to win over it. But this didn't work and it was like a game of tug of war, both sides completely equal in strength. It got to the point where everything else faded to black and I was left furiously holding on to a penis (that she had transformed into), knowing that if I let go she would be set free. Trippy stuff, right? Well it had exactly the same energy and smile as the previous encounters with what I call my literal sex demon. I want to know if anybody has experienced anything similar to this, and any thoughts as to what is actually going on. I don't really believe in things like ''astral vampires'' and stuff but I'm open to suggestions.

[Dthoughts]

Just recently, i came to the conclusion there's a demon inside of me. I don't want to sound melodramatic, but i do not see it as entirely a joke either. I am carefull not to be overcome by it. Although it makes attempts. I do not think it is too important as to what it is, or how it came to be. Although, curiousity yearns for me to know since when these experiences started for you, and how this "demon" became a part of your dream world. Whether it is a demon or a figment of your imagination. There is a way to deal with this. Unfortunately, i do not have a clue as to how. Since i am myself struggling to find a way to deal with this demon in my world; i'll give you some extra information how i view this experience, so you can decide for yourself. It made it's way into my heart when i was in a state of heightened awareness. Drug induced, alas. Since then, it tried to wreak havoc on my dream world. When i would imagine a scene of talking out problems with friends and relatives, my imagination spurred a will of it's own and resulted in excessively violent imagery, of me kicking the shit out of dear friends i would never try to hurt. Then after a sleepless night i finally napped for about an hour. I had a dream in which i was perceiving a "magician" , in third person. and it was talking down to a person. I felt like the magician was 'me' but on further investigation, i realized. the person who was being talked down on was actually a part of me. I think the magician is my way of perceiving a force/entity that has the ability to use magical tricks on my dream world. The reason i mistook a seperate part of my ego as ME in that dream is because it is actually inside me, and thus a part of me. Your non-lucid dream of someone who was not You (but in my mind, definitely a part of you) was talking to this woman, this reminded me of my own non-lucid dream. The biggest problem i face in dealing with this force is my non-lucidity. I am working hard to gain lucidity in dreams. You have an advantage here. My goal is to engage in communication with this entity. Wether it is a part of me or an external source, asking questions of how and why can possibly give me some answers. This could help for you as well. I hope to bond with this 'demon' and eventually turn it into a positive thing. The most useful lesson i have learned is to never be overcome by negativity. Positive fearlessness, and realizing i am in control of my own dream world. Because it is MINE and not his. Is an empowering thought. I would consider asking for 'archangels' (look it up) for help when things get rough. I don't want to spread fear. Quite the opposite, actually. This is just my take on all this. Based on my own experiences. I try to be careful with my words here because i realize i do not understand it so much myself. So take it with a grain of salt. From the looks of it, you have a healthy view on this not based on fear or negativity. Which is nice. A good sense of curiousity is also helpful and down to earth thinking. Less spiritual mumbo-jumbo, more reality. I am however curious from my own thirst for understanding how this will develop in you, and hope you will keep me/dreamviews updated on your experiences. If you need any help, i'm glad to offer a hand. But there are probably others on this forum who know better how to deal with this situation. But again, i do not think you need any help. You seem to have the situation under control Oh, and another tip: Humor is a good defense. In these situations, from what i have heared. Like when you where holding on to a penis. This is an attempt to create a nightmarish situation. But all in all, you could see this as a hilarious thing. Seeing the humor in these things can gain you a lot of energy to stay in control of the dream scene, i think.

[insideout]

I've had scary things appear in my lucid dreams that seem to want to take over my dream, not quite the same as your experience, though. Usually I just try to ignore them and they go away, because I've realized that fighting with them just gives them strength to continue to be a nuisance. Not sure if this would help in your situation. Have you tried making friends with the entity? One time I was being chased by a wild animal of some sort. It was quite scary, until I finally attacked it. As it lay dying, it was as if we had become friends, I said goodbye to it as I woke up, hoping we could meet again someday. Not sure this is helps with your situation. I suppose the sexual nature makes it more complicated. It seems like she/it/part of you just wants you to pay attention to it. I would try not fighting with it, even if it tries crushing you again, just tell yourself and/or her that it can't hurt you. That's what I would do, anyway.

[LucidJuggalo]

I definitely want to interrogate this entity when I next encounter it. I was thinking earlier and it hit me... these are MY lucids and I have the final say. I've known that anyway but it really hit me earlier. The problem has been the apparent sentience of it in the past... it has been impossible for me to control it before, but then again, all I'm really doing is struggling with it and trying to escape. I think I should use a little more force next time and demand a response as to what is going on and what it represents, as I'm a believer that various dream elements represent parts of our sub-conscious minds. I just need to remember that during the heat of the moment. I think it might be worth mentioning that things like experience tend to happen mostly when I'm having a night time lucid, as well; this lucid began at the dead of night. I've come across some... suspicious... entities in my time, and usually mostly during the night. There is also always this really eerie feeling to the world I'm in.

[HoldOrFold]

Hey LucidJuggalo, I'm curious if this entity represents some emotional element of your waking life. What's your relationship with women like if you don't mind me asking? Do you feel oppressed in some way, or is there some kind of obstacle/trauma surrounding relationships/sex in your life? My first guess was that the demon represents a fear of being consumed/overpowered by the feminine