During the day (Tuesday) i was coming down with something, towards the night it was getting worse. Took a few flue meds and went to bed, woke up around 4 am becuz of my loud brother, but I was still able to find sleep again, although I felt really sick for the few minutes I was awake. The dream begins now: I’m at work, minutes away from my performance review with my boss. And actually I have performance review coming up this Thursday. But anyways, so in my dream I’m sitting there, really afraid and nervous, and I’m trying to go home early cuz I’m sick, but my boss gets angry becuz of this and I have an axiety attack and storm out the workplace, I go home. After an unknown period of time, I recover and my family decides to take me out to dinner to help me unwind. They take me to this bar/restaurant, in the middle of it all I get up to go to the restroom and I excuse myself. I go through the door of the restroom and I’m suddenly somewhere else. I don’t even know where. (And I don’t like telling this part at all, cuz I’m not that kind of person, but here it goes..), I’m in a place where random men and women are touching, kissing,…each other. And this one beautiful woman comes up to me and starts to talk. It doesn’t take long before we’re kissing and touching, even though we started a verbal fight a minute into our conversation. She leaves suddenly, I still manage to give her a card with my number on it, I remember begging her that we keep in touch but I’m a in a panic mode, I’m asking everybody I come across on my search for her if they have seen her or know her name. I didn’t know her name.



This is where it got twisted for me. I want to go back to the bar/restaurant cuz I realize I’ve been there for a long time, I find a door and I go through it, and I’m suddenly in a haunted house. I just felt it was a haunted house cuz the inside of the house looked condemned, abandoned for at least decades, and you just feel the aware stare on you the minute you set foot in that house. The walls, everything is grey or black or darkish, nobody cleaned for decades..well you get it. I see this lil stool in the center of the room with a device in front of it. It looks like one of those big walkie talkies. But I hear voices coming through it, and I see parts of legs creeping away behind the corner of whatever room I’m in. I push the button on the thing and start talking, basic things like “hello”, and sometimes I get responses, like you would play back evp’s or something, cryptic responses that have no meaning at all. And then this female voice comes through, but this one’s different, she doesn’t just speak words or broken up sentences, but she speaks full sentences, dialogues if you will. She starts talking: (these weren’t her literal words, I don’t remember everything, what I’m writing down here is all I remember) “There is no honour in this, you need to let go, find a way. I know there’s a lot of anger, confusion, despair and pain you have. But this isn’t the way, taking your own life isn’t the answer if you don’t find a way you’ll end up like me, away from me. She talked pretty clearly and straight forward but I don’t know why she said these things, I have been suicidal in the past, but the past few weeks I’v been feeling good actually. I ask her who she is, she tells me her name is “Mess” (or something that sounds like you pronounce “mess”), and she starts telling me random (bad) events that happened in my life, like she was there or something and I start crying cuz how could this dead person/woman know so much about me, and why does she tell me this? But at the same time I feel …comfort…a familiar feeling, like somehow I know her. Then she’s gone, and I start asking questions. The random voices come again and then there’s a male/almost demonic kind of voice that comes through. I ask him where “mess” went to, who she is, where she is?....all he says is that “Mess” her name is Kim and she’s in an unknown place by herself cuz she took her own life. And that’s when I’m forced to leave the house. I go through the door again and I’m back in the restaurant, and my family is angry cuz I was away for so long. And I start crying and throwing things at them and yelling that I’m sick of this and sick of that,…and then I wake up in a complete state of panic and exhaustion at the same time.



The dream doesn’t sound like all that much but..it made such an impression on me, normally I’m always aware even that I’m dreaming, but now it was like…so real, and it didn’t make sense at all, but at the same time it did. Cuz when Kim/Mess talked I felt like…I was talking to someone I had known for a very long time but somehow I forgot her and she knew..And no I don’t know any kim in my life. When I woke up it was like…if anyone has experience with fainting and suddenly opening your eyes and gasping for air…that’s what it was like. Im wondering if I was visited by a spirit..it felt so much more than a dream.