Thread: Conscious of Murder?

Hi, I'm quite new so I don't know if it's the best place to put a thread here but, here we go anyways.

Now I sometimes lucid dream and when I do, I usually do stuff like flying or shape shifting into animals, it's quite fun. However, I recently had a lucid dream that really disturbed me. I was fully conscious of me killing someone.

I did some research about murder and death and it usually means that you have built up anger or have some problems with the person. I'm not quite sure if this applies my dream because most of the experiences people had of murdering someone was when they were not conscious... and I actually don't know who I killed because the person doesn't exist in real life...

Here's the story:
When I first started this dream, I wasn't lucid dreaming. I was with my family and friends, (and some classmates), in a small but very modernized-looking apartment with a plant garden which I was growing Venus flytraps in. We were there for a while until this man, (the one that doesn't exist in real life), comes in our apartment and threatens us. He looked kinda crazy but he claimed that he had a professional job, and so my family and friends thought that what he was doing was necessary. He said that he was going to take away our home and all our belongings, (I had no idea why), and I felt fear and anger towards this person. He stayed there for a while and examined my garden. He ripped out one of my flytraps, squeezed it, and starting drinking the green juice that was being pushed out of it in front of me. I felt so much anger but I had to let it slide that moment. I instead, complimented him by saying, "I have to admit, that's pretty impressive." He said something back to me but I don't remember. At the end of the day, he left the apartment and was just standing outside of it, adjusting his clothes. (he wore something like a white lab coat with jeans). When I looked at this man, it reminded me of my family and friend's suffering. Before I left the apartment, my friends and family were crying about how they didn't want to lose everything. They accepted the fact that were, indeed, going to suffer. I didn't want to accept it, I wasn't going to let a random guy steal everything. I had a giant meat hammer, (the one you use for softening meat with spikes at the ends), close by and I was thinking about using it. I dragged it from the ground since it was huge, and was about to hit him with it. I then stopped, unsure if I could do something as risky as murder. In real life, I'm a very peaceful person, and I would never harm something out of blue. Until I remembered, that it's only a dream. That's when I started to lucid dream, and was fully aware. I now was in full control of my actions, so I was deciding what to do. I then said to myself, "It's only a dream, there are no consequences." I continued to drag the hammer and hit the man multiple times with it. It was a very horrific scene as I witnessed the transformation of a man to a big mess of grinded flesh. There was seriously no man anymore - it was really disturbing to look at. The police started to come, and my friends and family were shocked of what I done. They were screaming, "Why?" I simply told them that we had no more problems, and we weren't going to lose anything anymore. I suddenly felt guilty as my classmates looked at me like I made a huge mistake. I had to keep telling myself that it was only a dream, and that no one was real here. But their emotions and reactions felt so real, as if I really did make a huge mistake and ruined my own life forever. They even said that the man didn't deserve to die, and was doing his job. I felt extremely overwhelmed that I could not use any lucid dreaming to escape the dream. I still was aware of me dreaming, but I had to let the policemen take me away to court, because that's how wrong I felt. The dream ended from there, (I never even went to court or jail), but I still felt so shocked.

As I said before, I am a very peaceful person and would never harm anyone or anything. In my opinion, I thought this dream meant that I have some personal issues with my behavior or that I am very protective of the people I care about. I'm not an expert, but I just wanted to share this dream so I can get some perspective on it. Any ideas?