Redrivertears beat me to the punch, but I thought I'd chip in a few more cents. I registered just now so I could reply to this thread and hopefully bring some more feedback to the issue of returning DC's and a relationship with them.
I am one of several people that I know who have encountered reoccuring dream characters, more specifically a "romantic" match. This began when I was quite young--young enough that there was zero possibility of finding a real-life component to this relationship. I was naive enough to believe in a theory of my own invention--that one could share dreams with one's "soulmate"--a real life person somewhere out there who might be dreaming in parallel. Inspired, I sought out this figure during my LDs. I met many different people on the way, had several different "flings", etc. I would talk about these dreams, and write them down, which allowed them to propagate into ongoing storylines. What better than a personal fantasy one may involve themselves in? But eventually my search for a protective, loving aspect within the oftentimes frightening dreamworld was answered by a figure who was, unfortunately, just as disturbingly violent. As embarrassing as it is to admit, I had a thing for the "bad boy". I had many dreams of a melodramatic nature--being chased down or being enslaved to this person--but as I grew older (and matured, hopefully) they began to wear off. As exciting as they were to experience for all their action/adventure/romance, there was never any sense of fulfillment. But the foundation had been built, I suppose. When I became old enough to have romantic liasons, all of my relationships seemed to involve men who I discovered had similar qualities to this childhood "dream boyfriend"--almost as if I were unconsciously seeking them out, since they had not been so apparent in the beginning of the relationship. You can imagine how badly they played out . . .
It was only when I was at my lowest point that I stumbled upon him--that dream character where everything seemed right. Not lucidly, mind you, but with just as much of an overwhelming feeling of clarity both visually and emotionally. There was a sense of meaning to this dream. I knew that I had tapped into something much deeper than fantasy.
More importantly, I was coherent enough to recognize this figure not as any real life person, but as the evolved form of my animus--no longer a self-destructive psychopath (I had been plagued by self-loathing for most of my life), but full of the love and acceptance I had been missing both in my real-life partners and in my attitude towards myself. It took me a long time to accept that I could find something that mirrored that emotion in the real world, much less that I should go looking for it. But I did, and I found it. It's not all happily-ever-after, but it is a step in the right direction. And I feel I have my dreams to thank for it. Not just for trying to warn me that I was going into life with my heart all misdirected, but giving me the hope to recover from those first follies.
So what I am really trying to say is, know your animus. That means, have a relationship with it--and try to make it a positive one. I am sure many of you already know what an anima/animus is, but if you do not it's better explained here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anima_%28Jung%29
Which also means being able to recognize your shadow:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_%28psychology%29
I still encounter my animus in many different forms, in both LDs and non-LDs, but I don't consider having a relationship with them to be an inhibition to my waking lovelife, obviously. The only caveat I have is to not become obsessed with this figure--which I can admit to having done when I was younger. Don't try to find them manifested in the real world.
Approach your relationship with it with an openness not only to the insight it might give you on your own self-image but also what you are looking for in another person. Recognize that both will and should change throughout your life, as your needs and personality grow. Depending on your current state this relationship might be healthy or unhealthy, but the wonderful thing about it is that you have control over it (unlike most real-life partnerships). There will still be surprises, trust me. But by dealing with them I think you mentally and psychologically prepare yourself for more fulfilling relationships in the real world.
Sorry for my longwindedness but I felt I needed to make up for all of the downtalking/mockery of Never's support of the LD GF concept. I know the intentions were good in most cases (escapism is never the solution to a deficit in reality) but I do want other LDers to know that such efforts can be healthy.
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