*NSFW text* Worst. Dream. Ever......

Alright, since this morning im in a HIGHLY depressive state, or more like, berserk, but the inability to do anything throughout the day drives me insane...

But let's start with "why".

The dream i had yesterday was one of the worst dreams i could ever possibly have. It was VERY complex (loads of scene shifting etc., but i will go over STRAIGHT to the point). I write it in a script-way, because its very hard for me to write it normally, and i want to share the thing completely.

<First scene>
I see a fleet of turtleish dropships and battlecruisers invading the planet, they looked like this:

http://www.toutlemanga.com/lohina/tama2.jpg

massive flying versions of that turtle (note, in Love Hina, Tama [the turtles name] could actually fly)

REASON THIS APPEARED:no clue, i finished watching Love Hina around a month ago

<Scene shift - second scene>
I suddenly am in my room, with some people i don't know (they're supposedly my friends) we're sitting at my PC and watching some vids in the internet, then the "friends" disappear (for no reason) and i sit in front of my pc alone, i see that WMP (windows media player) is in the task bar, i bring it up, and i see a movie version of "Karin" (another anime), now, i hear the voice of my unlce for no reason, and then i accidentally skip a whole scene, and land at a point where i see Karin getting raped by some old guy (probably earthren fleet commander) and her resisting at all costs. I quickly jump the scene back to where it was when i first maximized WMP, then i started watching it (pressed play) to get an idea WHY THIS HAPPENS LATER ON.

<Scene shift - the main scene>
I suddenly find myself seeing the video as i see the world, so it's something like i am a ghost in that ship.
I get a zoom-in to karin and that old faggot, i could not see that old guys face because he was turned with his back to me, i could only see Karin's face in tears and her telling him to stop because she has friends etc. (she probably meant me since she was looking over to me, though i should be invisible!), anyway after a while i got a jack-in (weird term but that how it felt) i suddenly started seeing subtitles like in a movie, in my normal sight.

What was written, was terrible, i have these words grinded into my mind and i can't get them out, but they sound so stupid that its emarrassing to write it here -.-
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Anyway, the whole terror was in the part where she was getting raped and she was screaming for him to stop doing this and let her go, and i couldn't do anything... ic ould only watch, i couldn't move, even getting insanely angry didn't wake me up, i just wanted to rip this guy into pieces, and... i don't know what
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Now, don't think that im somesort of hentai idiot or stuff, and ignore the fact that it was an anime character, the fact is, that this was all happening in my world, and i couldn't do ANYTHING against it...

And this is why i swear, i will rip this fuckers every single atom out.

I've NEVER had something like this... and i will not leave this like it, i won't be able to rest at peace until i exterminate him...

I HAVE TO BECOME LUCID TONIGHT GOD DAMMIT

Sharing this dream was hard by itself... because it sounds stupid, but it was terrible

Well, aside from what you noted, I wouldn't ignore that it was an anime character.
I imagine it would have been a far worse dream if it was realistic...

But, aye, good luck on the retribution.
(I want a lucid dream tonight too. -.-)

seems i said it in the wrong way, it's not like i didn't give a sh*t about that DC, or the fact is an anime char, i actually gave ALOT because if i wouldn't, i wouldn't be in my current state...

Still, i have to get a fully powered lucid dream tonight AT ALL COSTS.

No, you said it correctly. You misinterpreted what I just said, heh.
What I mean is that as bad of an impact as the dream had on you, it could have been worse if it wasn't animated.
Animated dreams just typically lose their impact over time while dreams about real people (especially close people, which appear most often) could be far worse, so don't dwell on it once your retribution is complete.

You could try examining your life to see where you are watching someone being treated terribly that you feel powerless to stop.

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Originally Posted by Omnius Deus

You could try examining your life to see where you are watching someone being treated terribly that you feel powerless to stop.

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I agree.
I think this goes a bit deeper than just some DC that got raped.


Remember that it was a all a fabrication of your mind. No matter how "real" it seemed when it was happening, it never actually happened at all.
Try to view this dream in a logical way: it was just a dream, nothing that happened inside of it was affected by an outside force; you created what you saw, thus you shouldn't let it emotionally hurt you.

Yes, but its the fact that it happened in my mind, and i am mentally scarred now because i wasn't able to do anything dammit, and unless i defeat the fiend, i won't be able to stop thinking about this experience.

I have to kill this memory, and im quite sure that my subconscious will do a nything to make it impossible for me, dammit.

Haha, what a stupid dream!

I don't blame you, all rapists should be tortured.