Terrified to sleep tonight!!!!
I had some dreams where I realized I was having dreams and mentioned the work Dream in them. This is mainly what happened. Sorry about the mess, but I typed myself an email when I woke up so I would remember and then found this site directly afterwards.
"It started out where I was talking to a friend about life in his basement. This friend was Nick S. He asked me if I had apologized to my mother for all the things that were going on as of late. I got confused and asked him what he meant, he said about the bike thing and graffiti and being crazy. I got confused and realized I was having a dream. I then tried to tell him I was having a dream, but the word Dream would not come out. My view of the dream came into a slow motion closeup of his face while it became dark, grainy, and showed no characteristic.
I then woke up in bed and rolled other to my girlfriend, Mana, in bed. I tried to tell her what had happened but I wasnt able to speak correctly. I started to fall off the bed in the same slow motion manner and finally woke up from my dream within a dream.
I had several other dreams that night entailing me telling someone, usually Mana, while in bed, or my mother, that i was having these dreams. And whenever this would happen, whenever the word dream would be mentioned. Like the first dream, they would all start to disintegrate into a grainy darkness of slow motion. They would all end with me falling off the bed and then waking up in my normal position of sleeping on my side while facing the edge of the bed. I hadnt really fallen off my bed.
The only difference seemed to be that I had been forced to peek under my bed in the last, i think it was 5th, dream where my head would continue to peek below and come back ontop of the bed. While my head was peeking under I would see nothing and only hear the sound of a hissing snake in near proximity."
Now Im sitting here afraid to go to bed because of what has been happening. I cant seem to tell the difference between a dream and reality at this moment and Im scared to go to bed in chance I might get stuck in a dream forever.
BTW, Im going crazy I think, regardless of all the great things someone might say about me.
/rant