Just an introduction.
I have met my sub conscience, and now fully recognize (him) when he appears. usually its to get me awake, so he can have control back or just get me out of the dream. The first time I met him I didn't even see him, but i caught him in my hand, I possessed strength 100x and held on.
It pretty much stopped after a certain dream patterns, of actually being awake when i sleep. Those in my dreams reflected the reaction of those in real life, (you crazy girl). I would awake in normal stage here to see people or things and be amazed. "i'm awake!!!" i would tell everyone. Everyone seemed closed off. I got sick in my dreams, the sickness was awaking in my normal stage, which left my body helpless and unconsciousness in the dreams. People where there, doing there own thing, i couldn't scream loud enough to tell them, I'm awake, finally!, then i fell asleep again to wake in normal. Thats the last time I was there.
I have done it all, breathed underwater, flown on my own command, exploration, discovery, been killed, avoided plane crashes, sometimes pools (literally) of blood in the stone castles, sometimes just the blurr out the corner of the eye coming for you.
Normal stage life is not normal to me, dreaming life is. When i do not get enough rest, my dreams become active, I enjoy this. It is another reality in which to be in, to waste my brain on figuring it out. It matches better with me, then this normal stage one. If i can only find a way to dream forever, I would be happy. (not that my sub conscience would)
Thanks for listening.
Saiph
