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sry... i dont know what to name this, thus the name---no title---

recently i took a nap and like almost instantly i was inside the world of dreams as if i started off lucid (been happening alot lately). I was at this park/playground thing where i found out that skinless ( name of dc) hangs out alot. i dont know where this park is exactly, never seen it before but its abandoned and alot of things are broken and skinless just sits on a bench and looks at it. He summoned me or something (so he sayz) to try to make me remember something. I dont know, i couldnt remember anything he was saying but he said from exactly 10 yrs ago today and im like well dude i cant remember what i was just doing 5 minutes ago. he said that its coming back or something... something i ran away from along time ago is coming back.

He says he wants to help me get better so i can defeat it this time. He tried to teach me to completely "seperate" from my physical being and live fully in my mental mind. I got quite skeptical about that, thinking he meant die or something. but he brought up a past dream in which i did, he went on to say he could see my new power i should master. he said here in this world you do not need anything to live, anything u believe you need here is just a waste, and told me that i should stop breathing. Its not a problem as long as im not tired but if i happen to become short of breath in the dream i get weak ((he should know ....trust me...))

trying to stop breathing in the dream was kinda hard but i could do it for a few minutes at a time b4 thinking omg im gunna faint. but im still unaware to this memory he brought up. 10 yrs ago i was 6...... the only dreams i can remember where i was afraid of something involved a giant that would chase me home and eat my family alive and the only way to get out of the dream was to run to my room and dive into the bed which woke me up. There is also this lady i dont remember when i encountered her in my dream, Caucasion very pale and wears a black wedding dress and she had some type of octopus/squid darkness thing going on under the dress and would try to surround me in the darkness by capturing me with the tentacles. there was also this dark room i felt was torture because at the time i was very afraid of the dark, things would morph out of the darkness and scare me or chase me and i was always lost, a path that i just took was completely different if i tried to run back.

<<<<<is really thinking if there was any other dreams that i should remember that i should prepare for. there was a roller coaster dream too but it just gave a queasy feeling i wasnt too afraid. And i had dreams of my sister's cat morphing into a humanoid and kicking my ass.

im just going to have to go back to that playground and talk some more with skinless about this past enemy/fear