First Lucid: WBTB, Failed FILD, backup WILD Success!
Ok so after grabbing the air several times and sending my body from nearly sleeping to wide awake the night before last with Malac's Grab induction technique, I decided FILD would be easier to try because of its more subtle physical movements.
I awoke after my first random dream of the night and the first thing on my mind was using the restroom(1st mistake, but you gotta go when you gotta go)......it's just not the same as waking from a dream and immediately attempting FILD(how do I know this if this is my first time? Because I read well and know my own body).
After getting back in bed and trying to relax, I gave FILD a go, failed the nose RC. Relaxed even more than before, attempted FILD, and failed the nose RC. I knew I would have had success had I not woken up and gone to the bathroom, so I decided to try again later. I'm tired and want to fall asleep immediately so I can attempt FILD again, and I know if I try and think myself to sleep I will only stay awake, so I just focus all intent on relaxing as much as possible, possibly focusing a little on breathing. My body becomes heavy/fully relaxed and all of the sudden I am hit with SP sensations, what I was doing allowed me to consciously fall asleep(WILD)! First time I felt them so clearly and suddenly.
I feel like my bed has tilted to the left and my arm slides off and dangles from it. This is where the falling sensations kick in. Immediately after that my legs give way and feel like they are falling hundreds of feet sinking right through my bed. Then my upper body begins to plummet, and then I feel as if my full body is in the same place, and possibly a quick lifting feeling and some strange noises. It is done.
I instantly realize "This is it! I must be dreaming". I lift my left hand from under my covers and plug my nose, "I can breath! I am dreaming. I am lucid." I force my eyes open and get up from my bed but dizzily teeter over. Instantly I assert that I am dreaming, I can control this, and I slap my hands together hard and rub them all in a matter of split seconds, this works like a charm and I am walking around my room in my newly discovered dream body in no time. I decide I want some light because it is dim. I try and flick the bathroom light switch on but of course it does nothing(at the time I had forgotten that this is one of my reality checks), so I step over and try the ceiling fan(this is habit in action guys lol). I pull the cord to the ceiling fan, and it complies, but does nothing. I realize that I pulled the fan string instead of the light string, but when attempting to pull the light string it does nothing but sound a peaceful deep wind chime bell noise. I thought "wtf? I pull the light string and I hear bells??" I then remembered that light switches often don't work properly in dreams and because of that people use them as reality checks. So I go over to my bedroom sliding glass door and slide it open and step out, surveying my house. It is quite dim as well. I then quickly decide what I want to do with the rest of the lucid. I decide I want to enter a bright peaceful garden with a fountain in the middle, sounds good to me. I walk forth into my room and look around and notice a flashlight beam hovering above my bed following my movement(well, I got my light I wanted, but it's kind late for that - I want to enter the garden now). "Doh!", I remembered something about having to close doors and open them, walking in expecting to be where you want to be for it to work. So I step out of my room, close the sliding glass door, think, and open/walk in. It is still my room. I decide to try it on my regular bathroom door in my room, but still no luck. I am puzzled, and then feel myself returning from dream body to physical body, wake up and record this log.
I am reminded of a prose from my favorite author of Astral Project who talks about the differences between experiencing AP and LD in very close proximity.
Quote:
After only a few seconds, I popped directly into the dream I'd left earlier. The transition was
breathtaking. There was a full continuance of waking consciousness. I did not fall asleep and then
wake up within the dream, but projected directly into it from the full waking state.
Everything looked and felt real, stable, and
solid. It was simply mind-blowing! I jumped up and down few times to feel the weight of my body, then
pinched myself, "Ouch!" This hurt just as it would in real life, and my body weight felt normal. I was
fully dressed and could even feel the texture of my socks when I wiggled my toes inside my shoes. I glanced at my hands. They looked normal and did not melt(AP). I tried creating an apple in my
hand, but nothing happened. The dreamscape I was in did not waver in the slightest. Curious, I
thought, in a normal lucid dream the environment can be altered and anything can be created by
imagining it. Regardless, I was fully aware that I was dreaming.
I will have to do more research on this, if anyone has any about non-wavering dreamscapes please share.
I give my thanks to you guys for showing me this community and allowing me to have my first of many lucids to come:banana:!
