Um, went lucid at the very end?

I had such a weird dream last night.

I'm fairly new to learning how to have lucid dreams, although I've been having a lot of them but just didn't know what they are. I am fascinated by the idea and determinded to improve my lucid dreaming skills.

So, last night I fell into bed, and decided to try something. I imagined a random scenery, that of a beach. I closed my eyes and focused on that whole scene. I imagined myself running around it, my feet touching the sand..Of course, I couldn't stay entirely focused on this scene, so I ended up thinking of a scene where the sea wasn't calm at all, there were a lot of waves and rocks and it looked a bit frightening. I tried to think about the other scene more, but I guess I thought about the other one more than I had planned. So, after a bit, I fell asleep.

The dream I had started off as non-lucid. It was close to a nightmare, although for some reason, even at the start of the dream, I was thinking that this is not normal. So, I really don't know whether I was aware that I was dreaming right then. I saw that my grandfather killed himself with a gun. I was shocked, and immediately txted my boyfriend about it. I don't remember much from afterwards, but then I was in that very scene I was thinking of before going to sleep.

I was swimming into the sea, the wild one, with the waves and everything. I watched everything around me and I thought that it looked familiar. Then, I teleported or something, and I was in a cafe, with my father. It was very crowded and I was wondering what I was doing there, while thinking about the previous events. Suddenly I was forcing myself to look somewhere for reality clues. I randomly picked up the catalog from the table, and stared into it. I could see letters and everything, and I kept looking each page for clues. In the end, I think I figured it was a dream. But it was more like, I was trying to proove it to myself in the dream. I woke up right after though.

So, do you think that I was lucid the whole time, even if I wasn't in complete control of the dream? I really have no idea what to think, it confuses me.

I wouldn't really call that a lucid, but it is definitely the right mindset to become lucid. I've had dreams (two that I can think of) where as part of the dream I have to complete some task in order to become lucid. Even though as part of the dream I know it is a dream, I'm not aware of that fact. It's just another part of the dream.

It can be confusing, but I feel there is a definite separation between being conscious in a dream and being in a dream situation where your dream self knows it is a dream.

I hope that makes some sense. It's hard for me to put it into words. :?

Don't worry, it does make sense.

Hmm, well, you're right. I suppose I wasn't really aware myself that this was really a dream. I was just thinking that it could be a dream. Or, um..something. x_x; Though I do think I went lucid at the very end, but that's when my mom's screaming voice woke me up.

Yeah, frustratingly DreamingAway I'd say you were at the doorstep of a lucid, you knocked but you didn't go in. You recognised it was a dream but before you could be lucid in any kind of useful sense you were awake. At no point were you 100% sure it was a dream, and at no point were you in control in any way, so I'd say it wasn't really lucid.

Still, seriously close - like 95% there! So keep it up :)

Just keep trying this eventually youll get it, Btw i use the same Technique.