FryingMan
DVA Teacher

+ in bed with [deceased] wife E, she sits up, facing me, I tell her in her native language "I miss you ... I missed you" over and over. I'm rubbing her left leg with my right hand while I say this She sits up, I look at her, she is young and beautiful, really radiant, her black hair super deep shiny black. I examine her face closely, her eyes, it seems to be her, I get a close up on one of her eyes, then we're lying in bed togther I'm holding her close, I'm on my right side, she's shaking uncontrollably and very strongly, she calls (or she just comes in) her mom who comes in to try to calm her down

+ talk to wife E's [deceased] parents in their room through a screen door on a porch [I'm outside], they're lying on the bed, father B asks me where I've been all day (in foreigng lang?) I answer [in foreign lang] I've been doing my "doings". he's lying on his stomach [watching a TV?] with his head on the foot of the bed and his feet back towards the head. He's closer to the door to me. Then there's suddenly a young woman sitting in a chair close to me betweed bed and outer wall of room, her name is something like Nina, she says something, and pulls up her shirt with two hands cross-wise revealing her tan colored bra and her light skin, holding it up for a second then putting it back down and I say "Well, NOW you have my attention!"

+ picking up son S2 (young) at kindergarten, ask how was his day, he answers "really great!" and crawls on the floor, has no shirt(?) and has water dripping from an armpit(?), he tells me how he's been playing (shooting spit wads?) all day with this friend, I think what kind of school is this, and how I need to be reading to my kids at night, this will teach them to read

+ riding on back of car facing backwards driving through city streets inflating a very long (red or blue) balloon, I'm using my breath and blowing hard to do it [first breath awareness!]. It's getting longer and longer, there 's a guy following me who's also blowing a balloon (the other color, blue or red) that's getting longer, but mine is longer. I'm blowing up mine towards him, and he's blowing up his towards me. Then the balloon turns to the side (perpendicular to the direction of travel) and pops and I'm thinking about how the material might get inbetween the cars [of the train?] and gum up the machinery.

+ walk into neighbor's yard, observe differences [false], they've paved it to remove sand/gravel. The paving paths are made up of paving stones and bricks of different colors, mostly brick red/brown. It looks neat in the yard, I look close up and see that they have nonetheless not removed all of the sand, there is sand in between gaps in the paved areas.
but I see they didn't get it all, it's very ruffled and textured and I think this means it will be nearly impossible to sweep or keep clean, new people move in, someone's (new lady owner?) on the 2nd floor, then on the ground floor are a lot of young women, one of them is in her room, which is openly visible (no walls?) getting undressed, they are taking showers, a view into a kitchen with more young women, lots of nudity upper and lower body, I'm looking on with interest as I walk through the scene.

+ thinking how I'm going to meet my wife E at the airport, the intl flights from [country] usually arrive around 12pm or 1pm, and I left my [local make La. Lar.] car at the long-term parking lot at the airport. I look through several keychains and the piles of keys there, look closely at one of them, and stuff them all into my pocket

+ playing a chess position, thinking about possible pawn push discovered attacks on my king, think my king is much less safe, and that king safety is all about whether the opponent's pieces can successfully mount an attack. I see the pieces on an overhead representation of the board, then I see letters instead of piece figures on the board, then I'm at an outdoor professional chess tournament, one player makes a move, then going to examine a huge computer screen showing the analysis for the move he just made, lots of moving video on the screen of pieces shuffling while he's watching it, and I'm wondering how he could be looking at the analysis while the game is still in play because it will give him a good next move. One player loses, there is a close - up of his solumn face (beard?), he gathers his things and goes without congratulating his opponent. [just like a scene at the end of a tennis match in a stadium]

later after WBTB

+ [DO] overhead view of toy-scale race-track, a testing ground for medium sized (trucks / toy trains?). Sound effects of racing engines. After one train makes a circuit, the engineers get busy making modifications to the track course and they start runing a different trian/truck

+ with two guys, we want to (test out?) some sort of large vehicle (train, tractor?) in some sort of testing/maintenance station, but a locamotive whch is right in front of us pulls in to the station right in front of us, and puts on its right turn signal to indicate that it will be staying a while. we go talk to the station attendants and we determine the price of getting out vehicle outfitted to use the station, like $400. My companions indicate they want to come back tomorrow. Go out into street and I try to blow to inflate a (bicycle?) tire? with my mouth.

bedtime 23:15-30?
final waking: 09:00?
out of bed: 09:20
wine at dinner
watched some video before bed

first waking 01:50?
didn't look at clock for intermediate wakings
waking 05:50
some trouble getting back to sleep -- performed TMI meditation prep steps (motivation, golals, expectations, diligence, distractions, posture) and relaxed and fell asleep eventually

earlier:
+ Son S2 taunts guy on bike right to left girl in middle, guy gets mad chases S2 left to right, I go there. He's hitting S2 with some large sack. I'm trying to defuse some contraption with live 220V thick wires, I take one wire out and am trying to put it carefully to the side, I'm concerned about being electrocuted. Later we're riding in the back of a vehicle on a highway, the back is open and I'm fumbling with a bag, and I see my favorite blue&yellow (University) shorts fall aout onto the road, they're gone and I can't get them back

+ walk by the windows of an indoor facility, I think it's early morning, there are a number of people inside, point at guy "you've been here all night!?" looks grizzled. There are 3 service windows, as I approach the left one the man there closes it, I get upset and complain that he did this just as I approached, he asks me what I want to do, and I'm surprised, I don't know at first! I "remember" that I want to send three things/letters that I'm holding in my hand, I look at them and try to decide what they are.

+ pizza restaurant, earlier, we're all glad that they're opening a ("Pizza Hut?" "Pizza World?") restaurant right across the street from us, I'm thinking "we can drop in there any time we want for a fresh slice!". Then I'm thinking "I (we?) could become the (manager? owner?) of this place. <discontinuity, more dream content> I'm back again at the pizza place, this time on the inside of the complex in the hallway, at first it appears like there's only counter service, but I eventually see some inside high table/counter seating. I think what I want, at first I think sausage, but then I decide to ask for Pepperoni with extra cheese.

late:

+ weird vending machine: I want to buy something, put in money, and push a bunch of buttons. I think I need to push all the buttons leading to the item I want. But instead, this buys *all* the items at each of the buttons that I've pushed. I'm thinking what to do with all this stuff I don't want. There is a small pack of bread, and containers/baggies of various pills. There are people around me. I offer to sell these unwated things to them, and somewhat to my surprise, they're all interested. First I sell the bread to a guy, I'm inspecting the package to look for the price, and eventually I see it is "45 <local currency>". I see that peopple have bought and taken a lot of my stuff but not with interacting with me, I say "hey, wheres' my money?!" they point out that it is on a counter, I look there and see a pile of coins, so it's OK.

+ [DO] I'm on a list of people giving a presentation at graduate school. I see my name about 3/4 of the way on the right, Since I've finished grad school I'm not sure what the point is of me being on this list.

+ in car outside (steep driveways?) talking with (former colleague?) about a conference?

+ on bus, stand up and get off, thinking about clothing, there are other people there, I exit at the back

+ outdoor large parking lot, huge van shows up, older man is cajoling his (son?) for not giving him enough money for his business: "$6,000, is that all?! I need more!" he says. His business is apparently buying & selling large bags of dog food. I see one of the bags on top of the truck and it is spilling a bit of the kibble around. It is a long large truck, he has a ton of inventory I think. There is a car in the parking lot farther on with two women, one middle-aged and one younger (wife & daughter?). They get out of the car. I'm focusing on the younger one. She has very attractive and shapely breasts apparent through her top. I'm watching her intently and she turns from side to side and I continue to try make out the shape of her breasts, and I'm definitely enjoying this and appreciating the view.

+ at my laptop at home, I'm looking at some pictures of females, they're not terribly risque, but my wife is there and I become self conscious, and so when she comes by I close the lid of my laptop. I hope she won't notice but she does, and insists that I show them to her. I open it to show one and briefly close it, hoping that will resolve the matter and she'll move on, but she won't drop it. I start getting a sinking feeling that I'm really in for it.

+ (vague) something about friends from our student's house at college. I see CL (guy) there, he's among people speaking a different language? I'm also with DD, and we have some goal, using a mobile phone, to block or interfere with something that we don't want to happen.

meta:
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bedtime ~23:30
video before bed
ate two muffins while watching
waking 02:20?
waking 04-05:00?
BTS not hard
snoozing 07:00-08:00
spend fair amount of time reviewing dreams during the night
out of bed: 08:15
feel a bit groggy in the morning like not completely well rested

dreams:
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earlier

+ I'm putting on a pair of white summer-style white pants. I'm not wearing underwear. I put them on and they stretch around my legs, and since the weave is not very tight, the tan color of my leg skin shows through. My wife mentions this and says that these are completely inappropriate. I am not convinced and want to first put on underwear before deciding.

+ In (mexican?) restaurant, I put on mariachi robes

+(f) close-up view of son S1's face/mouth while eating two candies at once, I tell him slow down eat one at a time

+ in room with my young kids with bins of candy like in candy store, I think this is too much candy

later:

+ [fairly vivid, moderately present] on boat turning counter-clockwise, sitting on edge legs over side, two othes to my right concerned falling pulled under chopped up or left floating alone in ocean. boat's going forwards over ocean, pass over sunken crashed boat/plane shallow, see (dead) pilots in cockpit, ~3 of them clearly. imagine govt sends team to recover black box, a panel of enemy govt officials are laughing because the material of the plane is too hard to open and there's no info left anyway

+ [fairly vivid, moderately present] arrive to parking lot in car, get out, and roof is gone, oh, it's convertible, but I need to close it now, inspect remote, people walk past, find a joystick on remote and press the joystick and it closes the roof, press lock and the car locks, walking to store, get shopping cart? inside store entry way long corridor turn towards food section. in food section very long large section fairly dark, there are many empty bins, I'm amazed how empty the produce section is. The produce I want is not here. I find a pack of thai chilis, I'm pretty sure. There is a clerk unloading produce and tells me I should wait for the <???> because they're being unloaded fresh right now and will be out shortly. I ignore her because I do not want to wait. The produce looks really sad, a lot of it is visibly moldy (fuzzy mold growing all around it). there is very little attractive in the produce section. turn to go, and pass a display with blueberries packaged in flexible plastic "squeeze" containers, orange colored package, I put two into my cart.

Some close ups of girls <ahem>s area, blurry can't tell if they're still dressed or not

At some point I'm trying to find my way back (?) to the produce section to get more blueberry packages but can't find the way?

+ young girl's birthday party, there is a single prize balloon, two girls are trying to get it and only one succeeds. view of young girl's drawing book, with flip-page animations, very colorful

+(f) scene with a driving instructor in a car driving down the street

+ restaurant counter scene, chinese restaurant, middle aged white man is standing up to leave, he didn't have to wait he says and was in and out very quickly, it was not busy. the cook is standing behind the counter, I approach the counter and sit down

meta:
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bedtime: 23:00-30?
waking: 01?
waking: 03?
shocked awake 03:30 neighbor cutting firewood
Not making progress falling asleep , get up & sit in other room.
final waking 08?
Long time recalling dreams
get up: 09?
Fairly tipsy at dinner time, several glasses of wine. Steak & salad for dinner, plus remainder of our desserts (cheesecake and a chocolate cake thing), then our apple pie while watching a video
Watched video before bed

dreams:
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early:
+ motorcycle ride on highway, turn right onto highway, a guy riding a fast (black) motorcycle streaks by me, weaving in and of traffic. I'm riding along and I come up on a guy riding a standard, I like the standard style and think about this. I think it's a Honda, and I'm weaving left and right of him to get a look at the model name on the gas tank but can't quite see it, but I think it's a Honda. The highway veers off to the left and I take the off-ramp to the right, I think I'm heading to city "A" (next to home city of B), the landscape is empty low hills. As I come to a stop sign I try to remember where the breaks are, on the left or the right handle. I remember the right handle, and squeeze the right handle bar break lever and push the right food lever. As I come to a stop I remember at the last minute that I need to downshift to first and quickly push down my left foot on the shift lever and click it a bunch of times to get to first gear. I start again and go slowly, this is not a powerful bike, but I feel like I'm holding up traffic and pull back on the throttle and speed up. The road goes up and to the right, then heads down, these are tight turns, very twisty, and I get the impression this road is not heading to a city but out into the wilderness. I have a feeling that I won't be able to make it back if I continue (I forget I'm on a motorcycle? I'm worried about the uphill portions on the return trip). I stop on a landing and look around, and a guy on a bike zooms approaching from the other direction up the hill, not visible because of the sharp elevation change, and jumps into my vision in the air and continues off, from my right to my left. I look around and see vague collections of orange-ish blurry dots in the distance. All around, spread out among the hills all around me, I think these are camp fires.

+ I'm playing basketball. I can't make a shot, and even layups won't go in. I'm playing with a cabbage instead of a basketball? I can't even make a simple layup. My opponents are goaltending and just blocking all my shots, really dominating me. The cabbate is in a large bucket of water/brine and a big leaf separates from the head and floats in the water.

later:
+ [epic, long, vivid, fairly present, two lucid moments]: I arrive to a new job at company N, I'm really happy and proud to be here. I'm walking in the corridor between cubicles in a large indoor office space. I show off my new badge on my right hip one of those id badge roller things. It is a sort of brownish mottled looking design without a picture, I think it's just a temporary badge. I soon come to a cubicle where a young guy is, blonde hair, (name of "Claus?"), I have a long technical conversation with him about the C model he's been working on (for 3 years?), he's finishing up this work.

I walk about some more, I see boyhood best friend MR and my mom approaching me down a corridor between offices (the wall) on the left and cubes on the right, there are people in front of them and I try to catch their eyes from a distance. I feel like MR meets my eyes and that we will have a mutual recognition, but it will be a surprise for him. My mom comforts a woman in front of her, a widower who lost her husband recently, my mom hugs her from the back but the woman doesn't want the comfort and shakes her off, the woman has a very pinched, bird-like face, it's an old, wrinkled face, 80+ years old. Her husband, someones [narrator?] says [or I remember?], was the man who saved Ev.McW.'s father [boy scout friend] [false].

Walking among the cubes, I see a tray of cookies, and I pick one up and take it with me and eat it. It is a medium size, circular, with a moist chocolate filling center, and surrounded by a ring (about 1/4 inch) of sprinkled seeds like sesame seeds.
I come across a guy and see his face clearly. At first I think it is RoWh, but Rob was fairly fat and this guy is thin. He's standing facing me, and I'm looking close at his face trying to place him. I say "I'm sure I've worked with you before." He and some other woman comment on the "tatoo" on my lip and this confuses me. They're talking about the cookie crumbles on my face and I'm a bit ashamed of this. Standing among the cubes, these people are now in their cubes and are wearing masks. I say that "I've been away from the workplace so long that I forgot that people wear masks now," and I'm concerned about the fact that I forgot to bring a mask and wonder where I'll get one.

I'm wondering now about the day's schedule, and if there will be an orientation. I find (or she finds me) my HR person managing my first day and she hands me a schedule. I look at it and see a number of hand written notes, and think the first entry is about 2pm, and I feel relief that I haven't missed anything because it must be far from 2pm still.

The HR lady brings me to a demonstration that a team is putting on on an open floor area. There are tons of little lego pieces spread evenly out over about a 1-square meter area. I step over this and try to avoid stepping on any of the pieces. The word "minefield" is spoken by somebody behind me. The demonstration begins, and little active "AI" pieces that look like flies, with ltitle moving legs, are gathering all the loose pieces together into a single flat area/pile so that there is no space left. This is using AI technology. That's the whole point: to gather up the pieces and bring them all together into an area with no space between them. The HR lady is also watching, she's wearing a white tank top and shorts, and she squats with with her knees out widely to watch the AI presentation.

+ [different scene?] I'm in mall walking among stores. I'm nose pinching to determine if I'm dreaming. The air seems blocked, but not completely. I can't tell if I'm dreaming or not. I keep repeating the nose pinch 3, 4, 5 times. Each time it seems like some air gets out but it's not flowing easily like it should. I concentrate on the feeling of my fingers on my nose, and it feels completely solid like a waking nose. I know that the nose pinch in a dream should feel like my airway is not connected to my dream body nose, but it seems in this case that it is. Unclear results of the RC [but I'm counting this!]

+ [back to the work dream] It's time for lunch now for the new hires, mingling with the employees. Standing in some corridor among the cubes, leaning up against a wall on a corner between hallways. The cost of lunch is $1.75. I'm not sure if the new hires are supposed to pay or not. I bring out my wallet and prepare three $1 bills. I'm trying to be coy about this and get somebody to say "no no new hires don't need to pay." A very large (tall and wide) screen across the open area on a far wall is displaying the two major lunch groups, with the names of long-time employees [so we can decide which group we want to be in?]. I go in. I see meet a guy I think I may know. He shakes my hand. He makes a gesture like "woah, your hand used to be all the way out here when you shaked before, you've lost a lot of weight." And then Ne.McK. (grad school friend) is there, I recognize him, he pulls up his shirt to show his abdomen, that he's lost weight, too.

I'm now thinking about someone else I knew, Jo.Sa. from high school. I can imagine his face, but have forgotten his last name. I think he's a colleague here, too. I'm wracking my brains trying to remember his first name, even though I know he worked at company A [true], he works at this company N now I think? I finally "remember" his last name, "PUSHKIN!" I exclaim. I ask the guys "hey, does he have Russian roots?" They say yes, "his family were landholders." I am excited to learn this information, and pump my first in the air and exclaim "Yes!"

+ I'm standing [still at work] at a printer(?) station. There is a young woman there, and a colorful scene/patch of sky across from me even though there's no window, and I'm looking at the quality of the colors and the clarity of her face, because I know it's a dream, and I want to examine how things look and feel in a dream.

[wake]

+ I'm in a vague indoor area with slanted floors on different levels. I'm carrying something and I put in in a shopping cart to bring it along with me. My old boss from comany P (in NY) is there, riffing on a guitar. He's quite good and the music is interesting. I think he's going to come with me on my walk through these rooms and he'll keep playing his guitar.

bedtime 00:30?

wakings: 02:00 , 04:14 (bathroom), 04:35 can't fall asleep get up sit chair telescope/stars, 04:55 back to bed, relaxation techniques, fall asleep

04:14

+ In some (University?) setting, I'm offering a friend to play (handball?), there is a vague (transparent? grapefruit-sized malleable "ball" in my hands, we're walking (to the court?) and talk about a volleyball team, I think I should join because that's a good way to meet young people (girls?) , we enter a dinner/cafe and sit at tall long table in the middle of the room, the tables/counters all around are strewn with leftovers, it's dark-ish in here, I think we're going to drink beer (and wonder if we'll be OK to drive after that) and eat (pizza?), look on counter next to kitchen see piles of food (pizza with melted cheese) covered with newspapers all along the counter, I approach the counter and think about hot links sausages go to look and see vague wrapper on counter, can't see anything not sure if it's a hot links package or not.

+ [DO?] (younger) dad in garden pulled up by his collar (instant replay) with a look of pain on his face

+ keys to the boy scout troops equipment rooms, the rooms are spread out across different towns

+ standing in line approaching service counter, crowd of people, line is unruly, some women in line jump in front of me I believe

+ scary corridor the room is lost hear friend but can't reach, there is no path any more, I'm scared/panicked, pacing back and forth in the elevator landing looking for the door to the room I remember being there before where my friend is, hear voice but can't get to her, to prove that she's there, I (put?) a mirror on the wall and she wacks the wall with her hand from her side and breaks the mirror, she's yelling/screaming for me

+ [DO] sleeping bags dual entry I think for serious cold camping but g/f L thinks its for animals, I wonder about washing them, g/f L says you need to wash them after (30?) days. They look like two smaller sleeping bags that are sewn together at the foot, sort of a "sleeping bag for two." One side (the left side) of each pair is a bit shorter than the right side. They look too short for me.

+ how to get out of the garage? Lots of debris, get out, pile of construction garbage nearby, workers comment on the driveway of neighbor we're standing in, owner won't like it that we're there.

08?

(weaker recall)

+ (f) lion? (new d/s) in distance / riding bicycle old time handles

+ (f) crossing intersection at busy road, waiting for light

+ football play (instant replay?) View from on-field sidelines I'm standing on the right hand side of the offensive team's direction, there is a wide receiver set up on the right side, the play starts, he runs out after a delay, the defending side I think holds/pushes him too much, he gets out and runs his route but the play goes to the left side of the field, it's a short pass, and after a little maneuver to avoid a tackle the receiver doesn't make much yardage.

+ wife on vacation? in Paris?, I want to returnr immediately stay a day or two more I think, she offers a whole month

+ scene indoors with my old dog L, he is standing there and snapping at flies as they pass by his face. I think this is amusing. He keeps snapping at them but never seems to catch any of them.