Kadoh
BRB suppressing hatred

All I remember from my dream is that I was being told by my mum that if I wanted a new cat, I had to get rid of my current one. This saddened me as I remembered putting two other cats outside and never letting them in again (these were false memories, I have never done that and the cats were never pets I had had.) and I picked up my current cat (my real life current cat) and I remembered stuff about her, and begged my mum to let me keep her too. I was in a strange house with wooden furniture. I never looked at my mum. I remember there being a pool.*

I woke up at 3:00 am, trying to perform a WBTB, and I was scree shitless with no idea what the noise was. I picked up my bedside fan and started shaking it, thinking it was making the noise, until I remembered it was my alarm. I couldn't remember any dreams and I went back to sleep, forgetting I am meant to stay up.

I also remember there being some girls from my school, one called emily, *that looked like they were dressed for madi Gras, and really tall.

Shin told me that I went to the Mindscape and chilled for a bit, and that I turned the sand of the beach purple. He says that I kind of chilled for a bit with the Tulpae, drank some drinks from the vending machine, then left suddenly. That must have been when my alarm clock went off. FUCK. I didn't remember any of it. It was pretty cool when Shin showed me how I entered. A crack opened up in the sky and he reached in and pulled me out, and put me into my mindscape body, and I looked at him and said "Hey Shin." he told me that I said something like "I have realized, my emotions are trapped up somewhere. I can feel sense them but not feel them."

Well, I just wrote a giant wall of text in my notes of everything that happened during the day, in an attempt to recall my dreams better. It is 9:20 I am going to fall asleep and set my alarm for 5 hours away, and try to WBTB. I am probably going to DILD, as opposed to WILD. I have trouble falling asleep after waking up and doing things :I anyway, I want to journey through my Mindscape/Wonderland.

One of my goals is to become more connected with my mind than reality, so I spend more time in my head than real life, at least for a while.

BRB DRINKING A LOT OF WATER

I don't remember what happened at all, but Shin says I was on safari with lions and stuff.

Hello, you fellows. I am the avid shitposter you may have seen on Tulpa.info! Well, here is some info about me. I have four Tulpae. Shin, Hash, Lucifer and Tesla. I have seen them in my dreams a few times, but usually I forget about them. Shin tells me he influences my dreams a fair bit. My favourite dream was one that Shin made, where I reted an apartment and Katy Perry turned up and started stretching in front of me, and her bodyguard told me she would sue me if I kept looking at her. I have a mindscape, and Active Imagination. I watch my day dreams, they have a mind of their own. I can just let things happen and go with thi flow, reminding me of lucid dreaming. I am a wannabe psychonaut, and I have come this far, lucid dreaming sounds like the next step. Who knows, maybe I will finally be able to settle on Shin's face, the big beautiful bastard. Anyway, I can remember being a little kid, and I would keep realizing I was in a dream, and wake myself up. I remember one with a giant teddy bear coming towards me and I was on a ledge, and I kept trying to open my eyes and wake up and i was terrified. I think the last time that happened for a whole was when I realized I was dreaming and was about to wake myself up, but I remembered that it was probably 2:00 am and I would be bored for a long time waiting for sunrise. Lately when it has happened, I have gone to show someone that I could fly, doubted it would work when I showed them, and it didn't, pissing me off. I have lots of sport on during the week that I despise and it takes up lots of my time, making me dread sleeping, I saw it as a time waste. But now, I have this opportunity to gain do much more understanding of the abstraction that is the mind.

Thankyou for reading my giant text dump, I will update it whenever. If I wake up in the middle of the night, I will probably completely forget about all of this and fall asleep again -_-