lacerup808
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2-8-10 Dream about the Host (by Stephenie Meyers). I was “Wanda” and the “souls” were taking over the earth, I was accepting it, except for the fact that they were hurting/killing my friends and family. I tried to remember the book, and I’m pretty sure they were not violent in the book. I was stronger than my “soul” so I could be myself but still pass as one of “them” I tried getting my people off the planet in a spaceship, but my plan was foiled over and over again. I kept waking up and going back into the dream trying to fix what went wrong the last time.

Also back in the 5th home, but it was very different. Again I was in some book. The description of everything was very book-like. Apparently people were dying (my friends and their boyfriends) and maybe I was the killer.

Dream from my blog 2-12-10:I’M ON THE LOST ISLAND. MARIE’S THERE AND KNOWS ALL THE SECRETS AND KEEPS SAYING THINGS LIKE “SHOW HER THE BARN” I’M IN THE BATHROOM AND I’M VERY UNCOMFORTABLE, TOO MANY CLOTHES. I OVERHEAR A CONVERSATION OF BEN’S. WE’RE TAKING CAMERON TO ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW. WE’RE BUYING PARTY FAVORS. I LEAVE THE RESTAURANT ONLY TO HAVE SOME VERY CREEPY GUY TRY TO APPROACH ME, I SAY “NO, LEAVE ME ALONE” I GET OUT MY MASE AND START SCREAMING. MY VOICE IS WEAK AND HIGH PITCHED. I WALK BACK INTO THE RESTAURANT AND SOME PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THE LOBBY HEAR ME AND COME TO MY AID. THIS LARGE BLACK MAN ATTACKS THE CREEP WHO HAD FOLLOWED ME INTO THE RESTAURANT. YAY! I’M SAVED. OK BACK WITH THE LOSTIES AND MARIE. THEY TELL ME THE ANSWERS ARE IN BEN’S BIG TOE “BEN’S BIG TOE HOLDS THE KEY” I THOUGHT IT WAS SOME SORT OF METAPHOR BUT THEY LITERALLY WANTED ME TO PUT A KEY IN BETWEEN HIS TOES AND TURN IT. I PANICKED, GOT ALL LIGHT HEADED AND FAINTED. BEN SAYS “SHE’S FAKING, SHE ALWAYS DOES THIS. GET THE KEY.” MARIE COMES TO HELP ME OR SO I THINK BUT THEN SHE HOLDS ME DOWN UNTIL SOMEONE TAKES THE KEY. BEN USES IT AND THEN DROPS IT BACK IN MY HAND. I’M UP AGAIN NOW I AND SAY “HEY THIS ISN’T THE SAME KEY” HE JUST SMILES AND KEEPS GOING. NOW WE’RE GOING TO FIND OUT THAT THIS WAS ALL JUST… AND THAT’S HOW LOST ENDS.

3-28-10 (Preface: brother had given me this memory/dream pill [galantamine] and told me to set an alarm for 1 1/2 hours after I go to sleep because no one wants to wake up after sleeping for 1 1/2 hours, and it makes you angry and you just want to go back to sleep, so that's when I should take the pill and go back to sleep. the pills give you very vivid dreams and help you practice lucid dreaming. so 1 1/2 hours after I fell asleep I woke up to my alarm and because he said I would be I was angry and mashed all the buttons on the alarm, but didn't actually take the pill, but remembering what he said it would do had very vivid and lucid dreams, so basically it was like taking a sugar pill)

At our old house on D. Brother's baby was a tiny white mouse with red eyes. I was giving her a bath and she was so slippery. The mouse jumped on my shoulder then onto the sink then on the floor then into the toilet. PANIC! but then it jumped back out. i get her all dresses and she's a baby again. I bring her to my brother and lay her down next to him on the bed. He says "Watch how fast her hair dries" and starts rubbing her head.

Cut to me waiting for Matt to pick me up to take me to my first dr appt (apparently I'm pregnant) and after I put the baby (brother's baby maybe?) in the car seat I climb up to the front seat of the mini van and matt's gone. I see him get into a black sedan and drive off. WTF? So I'm crying and I cant' get a hold of him so I call my dad who comes and gets me. Finally i talk to Matt. I tell him I missed the appt, and this is really important I want him there with me. He says he'll make another appt. I have him feel the bump in my belly and I hope it's not a tumor. Later I see him in the back yard (at D) and ask him about the appt. "He says I'm going to later" I say "Never mind I'll do it!" Meanwhile we're at a dance club/clothing store and I keep running into people from my old schools. The next day we all end up back at my second HS. I've been taking classes there for the last 9 years and have graduated twice? There are all these people from my past there for this weird assembly where we're doing relay races

3-28-10 (nap time after getting up and writing the very vivid dreams from the night, i saw the pill was still lying there and thought about it's effects again. I got up and tended to my dogs, ate some food, watched tv, then decided to try it again and take a nap. I turned the tv on white noise and felt myself dosing off)
My brother is sitting on the hope chest at the end of the bed telling me about this dream pill and his lucid dreams, but I'm dosing off, can't stay awake, and he gets mad that I'm not listening. I get up out of bed and walk down the hall I look to the left and see a lounge with a huge fish tank I'M DREAMING!!!! I turn back to brother who is still sitting on the chest, his eyes light up with the same awareness, but he can't see me because he's still awake. He looks at me lying in bed asleep and starts to say "dreaming, you're dreaming." A total out of body experience, reminded me of Freddy Kruger, but not scary. I'm totally lucid and try talking to brother about what I'm supposed to do, but what I really want to do is fly! I open the door and whoosh out and up the brick wall. I could smell the brick and feel the wind and it takes away my stomach like a roller coaster.

I wake up, still in bed, brother still sitting on the hope chest. I start telling him all about it! He's elated and we're hugging! but then he gets really mad and says "there's no way I could have seen you or you could've talked to me if u were really dreaming!" I her (Amanda from grade school?) put on this dress which she says it's so old fashioned. My room is like it was when I was a teenager (pics of Gavin and what not) so it must be 1998 the dress is perfect for 1998. but she's all mad and storms out. So I tell brother "WTF?" as I write the same thing in my dream journal (remembering I wrote that about a dream I had the night before) "first you're all happy and hugging me and all of the sudden you're mad. Take your stupid dream pill back! Apparently I don't need it!" I through the pill on the floor, but then put it in my bed side table so the dogs dont' eat it. Outside Mom is moving cars and hits dad's. Dad is driving my car and I start to cry knowing that if he wrecks it he won't fix it, he'll just lie and take the ins money like he did with grandma's car. Mom gives her car to an Asian Rapper kid who can't hear us because he's wearing head phones.

Ok, haven't got online in awhile, but I write most of my dreams in a notebook when I wake up. So here are the dreams from the last couple week (if I can read my own, half asleep handwriting):

3-15-10 Corn feild colonizing a planet? or some sort of undeveloped land. A nurse to be on our staff gets skewered on this long pole used in harvesting. We can't remove it because she'll die but we can't just leave it because she'll die so we try to save her but she gets very week and suchable(?) wants to talk to John C Grims and Kevins. She still has feeling from the waist up and wants a kid.

I'm at school in the shower go back to class with no pants. Decorating lockers in a very El from legally blonde way. The school was a combo of my grade shool and two high schools.

3-20-10 Stealing a car pop start... gas pedal stack... crash through theater... taken to basement. Godspell like people (a commune, cult?) big dogs (like the size of grizzlies) Time travel... crime destiny... collections of stuff forgotten... shhhhh don't talk about it.

The Office party Michael Scott sitting Jan's baby. Pam and Jim MIA for the whole episode.

3-27-10 We "stole" / "borrowed" a flower van for a company I worked for. We out up to no good (girls partying) Amy collapses and i have to save her. She's not breathing! I took first aide, gimme a pen! We've got to get a trachea line, I put the air bag thing (from the first aid kid) on the tube in her trachea and start pumping, and pretty soon she's ok, breathing on her own. We gotta get her to a hospital. But no one else agrees Amy sits up and takes off the breathing bag thing and pulls out the tube and puts a band aid over the hole in her throat and says she's fine. Some how it was drugs we did that hurt her so if we went to the hospital we would all get in trouble.

Dad's ex girlfriend (T) was pregnant with my new baby brother or sister. She's like 52 and I feel her belly. Weird. We were all living back on 5th.

Yay Lucidity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't remember much up to the moment I became lucid, but at that point I was climbing out a third story window telling myself "I am dreaming, I am in control" I falter just a little, but after reminding myself again that I'm dreaming, I start to float. As I'm floating on my back across the field, I feel the warm sun and I think "I created this, what should I do? What is it Zac says to try to do?" Can't remember so I just fly up to the roof where there is a nest of baby gargoyles, the mom is regurgitating food for them, and I go to pet one, but he snaps at me, and I say "No, I created you!" and he backs off.

Next a large number of women are called together for an unknown reason. We all have cancer/known people who've died/have died themselves/dance (I wasn't very clear on that part) it started out as Brian from Family Guy and he made some snarky comment about some famous person who showed that explained the relationship between all these ladies (something like: "You too Karen Carpenter" therefore the common denominator was anorexia) anyway the scene reset and it was Peter and of course he's an idiot and couldn't make the same explanation, so I was just very confused. I remember telling one on the women that I wish I had cancer because I'm so hairy and the chemo would help that. We all end up driving to a graveyard, still not really knowing what's going on, am I supposed to date these women (Oh yeah, btw, I'm often a lesbian in my dreams) Dad's there he's organized a meetup, there's a fat pit bull in a cage at a zoo, I ask a police officer if there's anything we can do to help him. Everyone's dancing and watching the show. A girl from my high school died and this is the memorial, but no, she's not dead, is she? I go to the wall and see all our faces in icing. I smash my face into in and run around showing everyone my icing covered face, hilarious.