LDman
My lucid comeback!

I'll start with the dreams and then I'll give a quick thought about my current status and progression regarding LDing.

1. The escape

I'm on the run from the police and have to leave everything behind, currently I'm traversing through France and have to make my way to England because for some reason I'm safe there.
Most of the dream is walking/running around/away and the only scene I can remember is some sort of harbor area, very clean and empty with a large ship-like object that I have to go over but really it's all very blurry.

2. Pick your poison

I'm playing some sort of game and reached the end level, which seems to be a storage area with warehouses and such. I can choose from two types of bosses. While one boss probably is already hard I decided out of curiousity to pick them both, one boss that stormed out of a warehouse was a green dragon which doesn't play a major role in the dream. The other boss however is kinda creepy, a large man with a mask I think that looks like a butcher slowly walks towards me, I run away and make some distance but he keeps following me very relaxed and I start getting nervous. I enter a garage and decide to put up an ambush using some tools and machines around, I try to lure him into a trap in which two walls with spikes close in on each other, and while the trap is succesfull it only takes his 'health' down very little.
3. I don't even know

Reading over my notes I for once can't actually recall the dream itself so I'll leave the keywords that I dotted down so you can maybe give it a try:

Exam, Retry, Bathroom, Second part


As you might've noticed my recall lately has been EXTREMELY VOLATILE, one night I almost had the best recall I ever recorded and the next it was zero. This has happened several times now and I've never had this problem before. First, I decided to stop the DEILD alarm for now in hopes of archieving a steady recall and considering my main induction technique used to be DEILD/WILD I'll have to find other ways of waking up before a REM-cycle to archieve lucidity.

But I'm affraid simply stopping an alarm won't suffice, the roots of the problem are burried much, much deeper. The very mentality itself.
It's dark, the little candle flame that represented my motivation and imagination when I started this LD-session again is unfortunatly extinguished, in the past when I had steady recall over multiple weeks and although it was a short period I had frequent LDs, it was back then when that little flame was a raging fire of excitement.
I honestly don't know how to solve this and hope it is something that solves itself, I think the main reason I was so excited back then was the fact I discovered something new, had very little free time and saw results but right now I lack all of these things, or rather have them in abundance like free time. Thoughout the day I don't really care about dreaming nor do I think about it so really, it is my mentality.

The only cure I could think of is having an LD just like that, spontanious DILDs are what usually attract people to the practice of lucid dreaming and it's exactly what I need now.

As far as I can say, maybe a distant dream-fragment but it's too blurry so it could actually be a thought that I had when I woke up.

Zero!

Second night with, what I can describe as an abundance of dreams which I'm content with. I woke up a first time at 05:20 and decided at that moment to cancel the DEILD alarm set at 07:00. I think the main reason why I could remember all of the dreams for those wondering, I just spend over half an hour after I was awake just laying in bed and repeating all the scenarios over and over in my head to remember as much as possible when I start writing down. And even then I think I lost atleast one dream, the last one in the process of writing cause it took over 10 minutes dotting down the key-words.

1. The burial

I'm looking over a strategic map of what I think is scandinavia during the middle ages and it feels as if I'm the king of small country up north that is quite isolated from the rest of the world. Suddenly I'm outside in a brutally cold norse landscape near the rough sea on some hills. The land looks barren with only poor grass covering the almost moon-like earth. A peasant has died and I'm the one and only person attending his burial here in the middle of nowhere, although I'm a king and he's a peasant I feel deeply sad for the man who looks to be still quite young but has been dead for a while. I think his corpse has only been found after a long period but the cold climate turned him into a mummy and thus preserved his humanlike look.

I feel a lot of respect for him and there in the middle of nowhere with just me and him I decide to honour his death as good as I can, suddenly I see a grave and the corpse seems to have teleported in it. I grab the man's hands and put them on his chest, creating a bowl-like shape with his hands. Then I grab a green apple and put it in his hands, thinking about how a tree will grow in many years at this place. Suddenly I notice how the apple has been put in a small wooden structure that is now carried by the hands of the corpse and at that point I decide to close the grave.

2. The Italian isolation

I'm in a large hotel room alone, somewhere in Italy, we're on a school trip and it's already quite late, I'm busy unpacking my bags and settling in while also hurrying cause everyone is already out of the hotel enjoying the nightlife I guess and I don't want to miss it. I change my clothing and put on my expensive pants from Boss, when I notice that somehow a lot of the jeans fabric has been torn away and it has uncovered the orange looking fabric underneath, I decide that this is unacceptable and I can't leave like this. Feeling quite alone I find a note on my bag from a girl but I forgot what it said, suddenly my sister is there asking me what's wrong. From this point the dream gets blurry and I can't remember much but I think I went into the hotel lobby and played some pool with myself.

3. WHERE IS IT!?!

I'm sitting in a study or library, my world isn't much larger than the desk I'm sitting at, so the location is unknown, I see a lot of paper lying around and maps, different parts of the world mapped out in detail. When I examine one for some reason I know it's the coastline of Puerto Rico, then I notice a white dot moving around slowly in the sea, it stops and leaves a large cross somewhere infront of the coast. I didn't think much of it and went through the other files studying them for no reason when an old teacher who gave German at my school comes towards me and asks me where the submarine is. She seems very angry and annoyed with my lack of knowledge about her request, she screams again asking where it sank. At that point I realised she wanted the map with the white dot! I start quickly searching through the stacks of paper but can't find it, it seems almost like it vanished from reality completly!
She becomes more and mores enraged the longer it takes and after a while I start breaking down shouting it's near the coastline of Puerto rica! She just won't stop screaming and it goes on like that until the dream ends.

4. Mission failed

I'm playing a game in which you have to infiltrate houses and spy on people or something but quickly the perspective changes and the person entering the house is me. Suprisingly I'm infiltrating my own house, but it seems now a couple lives there who are into a gang, I heard the name blood-gang somewhere in the briefing. It's the first mission of 'the game' and actually a tutorial so I'm very relaxed and don't worry cause it's a game after all, yet I'm there like for real. My mission is to instal a number of Phone-taps in wires running along a wall in several places of the house. I'm just looking around when I notice a timer in the corner of my eyes displaying I have 20 seconds left to put up all the devices before the inhabitants come home. I start running around in panick searching for the wires and succefully tap one in the bedroom, then I go down and find another in the kitchen, in the haste I have to kick a box out of the way. I can't finish the tap and hide under a table, IRL you should easily see me but for some reason it worked.

The woman came in first and put the box that I kicked out of the way back in it's place without much thinking and she just walked around, it seemed like normal behaviour for me but thinking about it now, it seemed robotic. I move around under the table to make sure she doesn't spot me, I decide to escape and begin with stunning her using a non-lethal ammo called sticky shocker which acts like a tazer and should just stun her so I can run away but somehow, it killed her.
I'm shocked (pun intented) to see what happened and when other people come in the dream ends.

5. The American redneck-land

I'm running away from a house (may be the one from previous dream) somewhere in a very rural area, the buildings are very sparse and large open fields dominate the landscape as well as a large lake. I get in a jeep and start driving around fast with no real purpose other than just leaving this place. After racing over some hills in the end I almost make a large circle and end up far away from the house I first ran away from but I could've been much further away at this point, had I gone in a straight line. Anyway, behind a hill I pass two houses from which I hear redneck music coming and the houses look very poor. I go on further and get out of the car, walking towards a larger looking farm house a woman comes out with a rifle and tells me to back of which I do and I walk towards a large lake which seems to stretch to almost infinity. There's a pier extending more than a 100 meters out into the lake.
Out of nowhere there's a party going on and I have to throw a peeled egg at a large unpeeled egg and somehow break it, of course the small egg just bounces of it and we keep trying until we decide to throw it up in the sky and somehow we manage to throw it up so hard that it reaches space. Shortly after the egg comes crashing down and lands in the water where it is fished up by a guy in a small kano. Then everyone goes nuts and it's a massive redneck party!

6. The return to Venice

I'm walking around in a mediëval looking city with my mother and wonder where exactly I am, she tells me we're in Venice but I don't believe her because I had been there months ago with the school trip (IRL), then we come accross a fountain in which I threw a coin back when I was here with school and the fountain didn't have any water in it. Unlike then it was now completely filled so I believed we were back. We find the rest of our family and I feel very tired, we're heading for the airport a day early because it's 'better that way' I think my father said.
I found the fact we came with an airplane weird cause we all hate flying and Italy ain't that far away so we could've used a car but then I rembered shards about us arriving in Italy using an airplane.

7. Hard landing

I'm in the cockpit of an airplane, it's a small and old passenger airplane that's about to land on an extremely small airport that has a weird runway that has a bridge and a lot of bumbs in it. After multiple attempts of me landing the plane but every time not being lined up with the runway I just say fuck it and bring it down. After a lot of fumbling around with the control I nearly land the airplane verticaly on it's wheel and we land with a large bang but that's it. Another person in the cockpit tells me it was a hard landing but a landing after all.

Sorry to put this one up a day late but yesterday I totally forgot about it so today we have extra work putting this entry up as well as the next, both are quite long so let's get right into it.

1. Better late than never

I enter a large room that is supported by multiple pillars scattered around, most of the structure is made of smooth concrete and it all has a bunker-feel to it. Lighting is limited to area's where people are seated making their entry-exam, I'm late and very stressed when one of the supervisors who looks annoyed leads me to my place. I begin filling in the exam like a maniac to make up for the time I lost and notice just how dark most of the room is, we're seated in the middle of this large space but you can't actually see the walls because it's pitch black around us. Most of the exam itself I don't remember but in the end I thought I had a slim chance of passing but was going with the mindset that I failed. (Which is how I left the exam IRL.)

2. Dangerous homework

I've just arrived home after what feels like a long day and I'm very tired but have to do some homework, the weather is grey and I think it's raining or atleast starting too, it's also slowly starting to become dark outside.
I make my way to my bedroom where I sit at a desk placed against the wall with the two windows to become unloading my books. (IRL there aren't any desks in my bedroom, only in my sister's, but looking at my room now a desk might not be so bad actually...)
I notice there's a couple of strange, small plants in little pots placed infront of my windows, when I try to touch them they act aggressive and try to bite me, like flesh eating plants. For my homework I have to somehow study these plants but I'm wondering how I'll even begin without losing a finger!

3. Dark film

I'm in a cinema of some sorts and the film I'm watching is very dark, blurry and I can't remember any details but I know it was horror-like and played itself in a weird dirty city.

4. City of the future

While I know New York city has some large sky-scrapers the city I was driving around in this dream had some mindblowingly large and tall structures. I spend the majority of the dream just driving around and looking up in complete awe as one building is even higher than the one before, and worst of all is the architecture. A lot of buildings have parts that stick out from the main tower and hang there in mid air, the size of those parts were impossible for the main tower to support and I had this sick feeling in my gut as if you're standing on a really high place but instead it was because I expected everything to collaps at any moment. The whole city had this sci-fi steampunk feeling to it, very Industrial yet most of the buildings had offices I guess.

5. Pawn shop

Me and a girl that I seem to know in the dream but one that I've never seen IRL enter a shop going down some stairs, it's a murky and rather suspicious looking place but I'm not too worried about it. It's very small, considering the shop is located in the basement of the building it doesn't have any windows and the only way out is the one we used to enter the shop. We wait at the cash register and I notice a small man the size of a dwarf who seems to be walking on his feet but doesn't have any legs, his feet seem glued directly to his torso. Then like an accordeon the man grows and his legs fold out between his feet and torso, the girl I'm with tells me it's a magic trick. After she says that and I take a better look at the man he has a tophat and a black cloak and looks like a magician. Eventually a man shows up at the register and asks us what we need, the girl responds that I need something to relieve myself, notice how she said this in a very sensual tone, I couldn' help but feel slightly attracted to her. In an attempt to play the smooth guy and get her attention I saw some dildo's back in the corner I told if she need anything to be 'relieved', she didn't understand and I acted like it was nothing.