Mastaz
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09.09.2010

9/9/10 - Lucid Dream while Dreaming. (A dream in a Dream) (WBTB)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed at around 6-8PM. I was feeling VERY sleepy from school so I went to bed, set my alarm for about 9:50ish.

Eventually I woke up about 30 minutes before the alarm went off. And so I turned it off and went back to bed.

Thus initiating (Wake Back to Bed) WBTB.

This was more of a lucid dream within a dream type deal. I was dreaming like normally, But it had that feeling that I was lucid dreaming with a dream. Kinda like having a false awakening? Falling back to sleep in that and then having a lucid dream in your lucid dream? Some shit.

But It was just me and my friend Jenn in my house, It was one of the random rooms near my kitchen. We're both just sitting around talking about my birthday, which is coming up soon. Eventually we get on the topic about sex because I used to think she was SUPER hot until she got her boyfriend >_>. Then she agreed to have consensual sex just for my birthday and that I'd travel down to california to visit her during all this.

Eventually I had semi-grasped the fact that I was dreaming and I ended up laying down on the floor where I proceeded to drag my body against the floor while looking at my chest thinking I'd instantly grow out breasts or something. Apparently my aim was to transform into a girl. (Er....Yeah). Of course this was all semi-aware. I was tripping balls for the most part as I wasn't fully aware this was a dream yet I knew that it was. It was really mind fuckish.

Eventually I woke up, Played a game of League of Legends then came back to the Dream Journal to post this. Trippy eh?

It seems that the WBTB sequence was the best bet I had, WILD'ing didn't yeld any results except for an hour of sleep paralysis. Of course this is safe to assume that the last few days i've only been able to remember my dreams because I been sleeping early/normal times. The days that I go to sleep when I'm really tired from the day (Almost stayed up for 24 hours) I just instantly crash and wake up the next day with no memory of any dreams. However, If I take a nap when I'm a bit sleepy, Wake up and decide to fall back to sleep then I start to remember dreams a lot better. Either that or I'm eating a bit more different foods. I need more bananas. And peanut butter. I hear that works a lot.

31.08.2010

Results of WBTB Attempt 1 - 8/31/10 (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alright, So currently it's about 7PM. I just woke up about an hour ago, Which means that I most likely slept for a total of anywhere from 10-14 hours. I lost track of what time I fell asleep, so it should be somewhere within that range. Anyway...

Yesterday didn't go as well as I thought. I decided to try going to bed in the hopes that my alarm would wake me up and that I could then go back to sleep while being aware I'm awake to see if I'd drift off into a Lucid Dream. Next thing you know I see the darkness, ???? Afternoon. There was no dream at all, Not that I was able to remember any in general. (I'm assuming we all dream regardless of if we are aware of how/when/what it was.) So now I'm at a standstill with my self.

I've had no success with last night, And this would mark one week so far that I've tried Lucid Dreaming! Of course, I can't rush results but I can't help but feel frustrated that I have had NO progress in the least.

But I feel as if I have more time to keep going with this. I begin school in about a week and a half. College will be a bit new too me, regardless of the fact I couldn't graduate high school. At least this way I can get my high school degree and still feel good about my self. (Insert Cry Emote here T_T)

To think about my progress, I have been able to sleep more often and sleep longer hours while feeling good in the morning. So I guess something went right, even if I couldn't accomplish the goal of Lucid Dreaming. It normally takes about what? A month? Worth of practice to get into the feel for it? So I guess I'll have time to keep practicing.

It has been a bit nerve racking lately becuase I feel as if I'm being rushed, not about Lucid Dreaming. But I feel as if I have to know more about my self, confront my fears and be honest with my self in the shortest time possible. I'm trying to resist the rush, and currently trying to keep it at a nice and steady pace. Hopefully things work out in the end.

30.08.2010

8/31/10 - WBTB Method Attept 1 (Before the Attempt) (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alright, so this is.....The first time I'm doing this Dream Journal? I don't know how exactly I'm supposed to use it, But I'll figure out in a bit, Or eventually for that matter.

I guess it's been a pain in the ass lately, I've tried a lot of methods of trying to Lucid Dream a bit. WILD does not yield any results except for the non stop feeling of body spasms. I do see colors and waves of things, but I can't see any solid objects or some sort. Longest I've tried was an hour, but then again I don't know if I was focusing long enough. WBTB had a result, I was able to dream a lot more vivid then ever before, However I was not able to take control nor was I aware that this was a dream. I was merely playing along with the dream.

I'm scared to find out some things, Mainly about my self. The whole reason I want to Lucid Dream right now is to have a talk with my inner self. Whatever or whoever it may be, Or what it may look like. I want to have a talk and ask it the things that I can't normally answer because I don't concsiously know it or something of the varation. I feel happy because it's a chance to overcome fears and also live out some memories that I wish would have gone better then what it initially did when it happened in the waking world. And at the most, I can find out more about my self. I feel more confused by the minute about who i am as a person. What my fears are and what I feel inside. Some people say that it's a bit stupid and that I can't really do anything of the sort, It at the same time I feel as if they don't know what they are talking about.

We all have different mindsets, If he can't control his Lucid Dreams enough to have stuff like that, Or is not open to the idea of. Then I don't think he can tell me what I think otherwise.....

The time is 4:51AM. And I plan to sleep for 5-6 hours, And wake back up at around 12 to attempt a WBTB method. It may be a bit hard for me at first, But I'll give it all I got. It's the only method I've had "ANY" progress so far.

I hope everything goes alright, Otherwise I fear I'll sleep straight through the alarm. Time to put the computer speakers on max.