Nav1179
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I will try, and it may make for some LONG reads lol but....

This will take a bit of thought and looking through some old dream journals (which are probably packed away in the attic somewhere lol), but I will try to summarize. Not ALL of my LDs are part of this, but many of them are.

The earliest I can remember being able to realize I was dreaming and then act on my own within those dreams, is probably around age 7 or so. I just thought it was a normal part of dreaming. When I was about 17, I kept having a recurring dream about a place my little brother and I used to hang out, he was 12. It was an old abandoned mechanic's garage...very cool place to just hang out in and spend time with my brother, we did this in real life (waking life?), the dreams were just about this place. In the dream I was always being chased, and just before I was caught, I would wake up. The dream wasn't about me, it was a younger boy, but I was seeing everything through his point of view. Once I recognized that it was a dream, I chose not to deviate from the "scenario" or "path" of the dream, but instead i was able to look around and pay much closer attention to what was happening, and then try not to wake up at the point of capture.........this went on for weeks and weeks. LOOONG story short. Because of the dream, I went their one day in real life and looked all around the area that the dream took place. I found a backpack with a notepad and disposable camera in it. I turned this in to the Sheriff's Department; it had belonged to a boy that had been missing for quite some time. I don't know if that ever helped solve anything or not, but it kind of shook me up a little bit

That story doesn't play into the dreams I have been having, but it was a turning point in how I have approached dreams since then. While my dreams might not always have a specific meaning, I often attempt to observe as many details as possible and write them down when I wake up. I remember them much better when they are lucid.

With all of that being said, the next bit I will have to summarize some, as there are many many details over the course of at least 15 years, that go together. They are not always lucid to begin with, sometimes they are recurring until I recognize it is a dream and become lucid and interact in some way:

There are 2 common characters that are in just about every single LD, I only know them by Lucy and Rebecca. They have no ties to anyone or anything outside of dreams, but they sort of have their own personalities and have taught me things.....this probably sounds weird, but this is why I don't talk about it much. I met Rebecca first, probably mid 2000, and Lucy in late 2000 early 2001.

When this specific "set" of dreams started, the era in the dream was around the 1400-1500s. This took place at a castle, somewhere in Europe. I've woke up and drawn some of this a few times. There was a This is a bit foggy as most of this was taking place in 2000 and I don't have all of my notes handy. There was some type of conflict taking place and some guy that was part of it. I just remember him being....dominant, for lack of better terms. When I was able to act on my own within the dream, he became very angry ( I've read others experiencing people getting angry at them when they became lucid and changed something...).

Around 2001 the time frame became somewhere in the late 1800s - early 1900s. There wasn't a whole lot going on, just lucid dreams and nothing overly critical. I would keep notes from time to time. It was a lot of fun, and many small adventures. During this time, Lucy explained to me how to dream like this with out going to sleep. And I was able to... I think the term used on the forums is WILD. I used to have a candle I would watch for about 3-5 minutes. I would then close my eyes and visualize that candle as if my eyes were still open. When I could see the candle lit on the shelf, and I could make the flame flicker in the direction I wanted or change color.... I knew I was dreaming. Once I was dreaming... it was awesome! It was like time stood still and felt like I was dreaming for hours and hours but would only be maybe 45mins to an hourish. During this time, there were a lot more adventures and the guy from the first set of dreams was there. He's dark, and I don't really know the word for it but even though he was humanish, he feels like a giant black wolf. He is the kind of thing or person you would avoid at all cost. I can remember clashing head to head with him a few times here and he eventually left everyone alone. I am not typically the kind of person to glorify myself....but I will be honest, it was pretty awesome when I would go into these dreams because I was seen as a protector or guardian by the people in the dreams. WILDs lasted about 8 months, and I decided to stop. Between WILD and DILD, it was almost exhausting at times.

The next few years would be an LD every couple of months or so.

About 2009 it jumped again to current time. In 2010 I had a dream, both Lucy & Rebecca were there, along with the guy from the very first sets of dreams, my wife and my children as well. This dream was teetering on lucid and just a dream I guess.... maybe some sleep paralysis or something, I really don't know because these terms are all new to me. Basically a guy and his buddies came into the apartment we were living in. I resisted, my wife and kids hid behind the bed. I was shoved down on the bed and this is when I couldn't move. I can remember being shot in the head. I didn't die, but to this day, as morbid or odd as it may sound I can still remember the sensation of the bullet entering my head and lodging in my brain. I had headaches for days afterward. In the dream, from when I was pushed down on to the bed, until I was able to wake myself up, I could not move, or talk, but I could see and hear. I have this all written down in a journal, again I will have to dig them out.

The next few years would be somewhat casual again, nothing major, a few LDs here and there but nothing overly significant. It is always current time. Either Lucy or Rebecca are always there or....of the same dream world, if that makes sense. Kind of like family, you know they are there, even if they are not right next to you, you can call them, etc.

About a few months ago, I started having a recurring dream with a girl in it, I think it is Lucy. Like in the beginning, being out of practice, it will take having the same dream a few times before I realize I am dreaming and can turn it into an LD. Once I do, I will observe the first few times before interacting with anything. This recurring dream has been progressing in a very odd way.....

I will let you get through all of this and make any comments before I write the rest lol..... I hope you guys like reading, because I do try to bring as much clarity as I can when I am explaining these things.