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I was recently prescribed a new medicine "Topamax" (Topiramate) for my migraines. I have read several different things about this, and nothing real specific about dreams. I read some people saying it causes weird and vivid dreams, while others say it completely gets rid of your dream recall. One of the nearly universal side-effects are memory loss, and trouble recalling certain words. So it seems like it would make lucid dreaming harder if it hurts your memory... I start on the lowest dose 25mg, which causes the least side effects, so thats not so bad.

I went to go pick up my prescription at the local pharmacy, and I decided to get some supplements while I was there. I picked up melatonin with B6 and B6 by itself. At home I have B12 and these daily vitamins with extra vitamins for energy. I think these are generic brand of "One-A-Day Energy" Anyways, they have the B vitamins, and some other stuff but also extended-release caffeine, which I think really helps with lucid dreaming. I also have vitamin B2 and Magnesium, but I take these daily anyways for my migraines. I decided to take all of these last night, not sure why, I guess I'm kind of scared of losing my recall, but I can't rely on supplements forever. Maybe I always wanted to try this, not sure.

Anyways, I swallow
9mg of melatonin
100mg of B6
100mcg of B12
100mg of magnesium (unrelated?)
100 mg of Riboflavin (B2)
200 mg of caffeine (ER)
+whatever else was in the vitamin

Unfortunately I do not remember any of these dreams, and I did not record them, ha.. But I do Know I had dreams, vivid dreams too. I actually woke up several times throughout the night feeling really empathetic and warm. I kept waking up being extremely in awe of my dreams but going back to sleep to soon... :C I wonder if this could be because of too much melatonin? maybe I shouldn't have used the caffeine? I also woke up about every hour, and I had mini dreams throughout the entire night, even outside of REM sleep, these were more like daydreams and were observable outside of SP, Maybe I was just delusional, I definitely felt like my new medicine could be making me feel a little bit foggy as well. I'm going to repeat This next night to see if I can record this time. Is there anything I can do different?

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Dream 1 (GAH, SO SHORT AND NONVIVD)

I am on my porch, which is rotting and has holes. There is a largeish black garden spider. Mr. Martin tells me this is tricking (to kill them) because they are to big to overfeed, but too small to underfeed. I am in my house now, and my grandmother is here, she says the reason the spiders are so large is because of their blood vessels, she tells me how ipod chargers work, then I say I already know and it gets awkward.

FIN

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So, I haven't had any recallable dreams for the past few days, this might be due to stress and being over-tired, and finals week... I don't want to stop recording dreams though, so I decided to record my favorite dream that was in one of my old hand-written dream journals. Also one of my first lucid segments. This is a short dream, but is the most vivid I remember.

[Dream 1]
I am in a hall, in a huge mansion-looking building. The halls look rich, and decorative but abandoned. I am with a tall african-american man and his son, I think these people are my friends, and I am walking down the halls with them. The son, is about 8 years old, and they are both dressed in rags and are very poor looking. We walk up to a large window with a balcony outside. There are seven full moons in the sky in the shape of an arch. We walk away and the man falls to the ground and starts having convulsions. His stomach is thrashing in and out. Me and the boy are stunned and the boy starts having the convulsions as well. They are both on the ground and I am standing above them.
The feeling of relief you get when you realize your nightmare isn't reality swept over me. However the dream did not stop, and fell to the ground as well and started having the same spasms in my stomach. I wake up and I am sweating and my heart is racing. I am still a little delirious from the dream and I have to take a walk to wear it off. This dream was bizarre to me because the nightmare did not end, even when I realized it was a dream, and also the 7 moons still haunt me and I still wonder what they are symbols for. Joseph's dreams in the bible, the number 7 is repeated multiple times, and represents 7 years. Dreammoods.com says "A full moon signifies completion and wholeness, while a new moon symbolizes new beginnings." But this contradicts the general mood of my dream.

So, these are a collection of dreams I had last night, this morning. I didn't wake up at all last night, don't even remember my alarm. I woke up kind of early, planned to stay up then went back to bed and had a lucid dream.
These are kind of in order of vividness/lucidity.

Btw, from now on:
Italic=Notes
[Brackets]=Name substitutes will be in here
RED=Lucid Dreams

Dream 1
I wake up pretty early, 6:00ish, and walk around a bit, for 15 minutes. I decided to go back to sleep, I didn't feel like I had just waken from REM sleep, although looking back, it kind of does seem like it. I lie down in bed and close my eyes. I get sleepy really fast and enjoy the comfort of my bed. I roll over my bed in go into sleep paralysis(?) This is strange because I never had SP happen in any other position but my back. It was in my head this time, a familiar buzzing noise and intense vibrations. I roll over and come out of my SP. I go back into SP on accident again, but on my back. I'm the calmest I have ever been during SP, and I peacefully watch my Hypnogogic Imagery. I don't remember what I originally saw, but I tried to visualize a grassy, sunny field. My eyelids turned into the blue sky, this was very enjoyable and peaceful. I began walking in my field I created and I saw this window-type thing. It had a dream inside of it, and I had no choice but to enter the non-lucid dream.

Dream 2 occurred earlier in the morning
We are a the bus stop, me and [my brother] We are drinking some illegal drug in liquid form, may be opium tea. The Bus driver knew what we were drinking, and had a talk with us, we try to escape the police. I am at my uncles, in his room. There is a jar on his desk labeled, "Poison" I think it is a very strong alcoholic drink, and there are what appears to be ghosts swimming inside the jar. He says he needs it for his pain. I am back with my drink again, it is deep brown and is in my tan pitcher. I add some nestle hot cocoa mix to it to make it last longer. lol? I boil it down in a pan until it is brown and caked, this resembles opium even more. It also resembles half cooked brownies stuck to the bottom of the pan. I eat it all and I realize I am out of my drink and need to buy more. Although I think it is relatively cheap and has many servings. IRL I buy this instant peach iced tea mix, that is also brown, has many servings and is cheap, probably what the drink was based off of.

Dream 3

[Friend 1] Gave me his hang glider. He said he bought it with his own money, and nobody knows about it. wait, wtf? He says he uses it to fly all over Brunswick and Topsham. Topsham is my town I live in, Brunswick is the neighboring town. I was playing around with it and wrinkled it a little bit. I thought to myself it would unwrinkle itself, but then also thought that humans also wrinkle, but never unwrinkle themselves.

Dream 4
I was on my front porch, when I spotted a prescription bottle through a hole in my porch. I picked it up and the medicine had a weird, but simple name (sodium or calcium something) My father walks over and tells me that the bottle is his, and the medicine feels like a painful orgy. I have already stuffed the pills into my mouth, and I'm now spitting them out onto the ground in big white chunks. The pills were round and represented percocets, sorta. My father was trying to explain that they weren't abusable, and he just needed them for his pain, he said he was in a lot of unbearable pain. Although he says they aren't narcotics, he seems like he's trying to justify the use of narcotics.
Really weirded out by this dream, "painful orgy", is such a weird analogy, but it seems like it almost fits for a narcotic drug, I'm not sure why, haha. This also adds to my reoccurring dreams about drugs.

Dream 5
My mother was telling me my father couldn't see me anymore, he may come up to see me for one of my appointments though, because it required shorter time.
Not sure what this dream is about, it is separate from the last one though.

Dream 6
Me and [GF] were cuddling on her hammock, she was laying next to me, and we could have been making out. She tells me someone is watching us, and I feel like we're doing something bad all of a sudden, and then she tells me she was just joking.

Dream 7
I am with my brother at an E3 show or something, and these people are talking about video games, and different types of video games. They show us the group called the "Elder Scrolls", and it has all five games together. My brother reminds me to watch this trailer of a game coming out, which combines Morrowind with Skyrim's Graphics. I tell him I will, but I secretly planned not to, I told him I wasn't a fan of video games.

This is strange because I really don't play video games that often, but I have been playing the elder scrolls series a lot recently, especially Skyrim and Morrowind. The dream may represent my guilt for playing so many video games recently, I try to stay away from them and do other things.

Well, I'm going to try to do these once a day, once per nap, idk. But I kind of want to put my favorite dreams from this month that are written down in my notebook here, not sure what compels me to do this, but w/e. A disadvantage of my journals are the fact that I cannot read my handwriting most of the time, it may also be easier to re-read my dreams in order here. I also do not remember the circumstances behind these dreams, I forget if I was trying to lucid dream, or if I attempted a WILD that morning, etc. The following are all none-lucid dreams btw. I also will not use names of my friends or family, instead I will use codes like "[Friend 1]" But "friend 1" might not be "friend 1" in separate dreams unless I say so.

Dream 1.

I am with [my GF] We were making out in her garage, but we had to move because people could see us through the window of the house through the window of the garage. We are leaving and [female friend 1] says something like "Oh My", I say hi, and she walks off. We head towards [GF]'s backyard and we see [Female friend 2], and she walks past us. [Female Friend 1] Sees her family near the bank in our town, she gets a ride with her family and leaves. We are back in [GF]'s backyard and we see a variety of mushrooms, they appear to be the psychoactive Liberty Caps, Morels, and False Morels. [GF]'s Friends are picking up the false morels put them into their mouths, I tell them they are poisonous and the other mushrooms were the real mushrooms. [Male Friend 1] Messaged me later that evening and asked me if I was doing drugs again, if those mushrooms I was looking at earlier were psychoactive or not.
(Note: I used to study mushrooms, It's interesting to me that the Morel and False Morel were in my dream, the Morel is a very desirable mushroom that is often hunted and sold for quite a bit of money. The false morel is poisonous however, and can even cause death. I wonder what this is a symbol for.)

Dream 2.

I am with a few older women, none of which I know. Some of the mothers of these older women are also here. I tell them I want to try heroin. (Note: I don't) They look at each other for a few moments and then say to me, "Oh, you want to shoot?" They take me into this room, which resembles my aunt's bedroom, and eventually into her bathroom. They pull out this massive bong and tell me to take a hit of codeine. (Odd, codeine isn't smokeable, although opium is)

[My sister] is remembering a party she had with a couple of her friends, there is a flashback and it shows her friends partying. I know her house has changed, because the flashback had different carpets. There is a hipster man with a beard sitting on the couch, with a bracelet on the floor near him. The bracelet looks likes its made from string from an old wool blanket and is yellow and red. [sister]'s female friends are over again and resemble those from earlier in the dream with the codeine. We are watching some movie. I feel like they are all contestants to be my date, and its really weird. I keep wanting them to do things with me, (Note:If you know what I mean ) But they don't seem interested in that. I am now in a bathroom, which feels like a private and a public bathroom combined, kind of like a dorm restroom. There is a woman showering in the stall next to me, and a man walks past my stall, and I think he can see me through the crack of the stall door.

(Another odd dream, with a lot of symbols, it seems like. I don't know whats up with the opiates and single women, the dream seems to be about harmful self-indulgence, not sure. The dream has mostly females, and has multiple relatives houses in the different scenes)

Dream 3

I was trying to buy a pill from someone at my school. I talked to [Male Friend 1], but he said he didn't have anything. I talked to his twin brother, but he also did not have any drugs. I talked to [Friend 2] Who finally said he had something, I forget the name of the drug he said. He wanted 20$ for the single pill, I haggled and he sold it to me for 5$ instead. I felt bad because I was using my girlfriend's money for some reason. My dealer changed into a woman, and was someone I knew, not sure who though. She handed over the pill and was a capsule, orange and white. She said it was an Adderall. I immediately put the pill in my mouth and began to suck on it so it would kick in faster. The capsule burst and I tasted sugar. (First time I had ever tasted anything in my dreams) I started yelling at the girl and asked for my money back, because I knew she had replaced the contents with sugar. An older adult, a tall woman, (an authority figure) walked up to us and asked if everything was ok. I, for some reason, told her the truth and I was worried if I'd get in trouble. She resembled me therapist, although my therapist is a man, not a woman. She said everything was confidential and I would not be in trouble.

Later in the dream I was complaining to my friends what had happened, when the girl who dealt to me over heard and looked at me, she was making faces at me like she was making fun of me. I made a face at her and she looked away.

Conclusion

All of these dreams are within a week, and they all have a common theme, drugs. I have some experience with these drugs. I have taken shrooms once, and adderall once as well. I took the adderall a week ago actually. I never used codeine or heroin though, although I have used hydrocodone and oxycodone, with a prescription. I smoke weed somewhat often, to be honest, and I will try something new like a pill or something every 2 months or so. I wasn't feeling too guilty about the adderall last week, and its been years since I had done shrooms, and a while since I had done any opiates.
Anyways, I found it odd that every drug was different and each represented the 3 large groups of drugs.

Adderall-The Stimulant
Heroin and Codeine-The Downers
Shrooms-The Psychedelic

Strange, right? I'm not sure if this represents something or not, or even if these dreams are part of a trilogy. There are also a lot of women in my dreams lately, including my girlfriend, which is normal. Anyways, I will link back to this Entry when other dreams follow the pattern.