Reoccurring Dreams Should Be Nightmares
I have many different reoccurring "nightmares" but for some reason they don't bother me during the dream or when I'm awake.
And these aren't lucid dreams, when I'm dreaming them I have no idea they're dreams. They don't necessarily bother me when I wake up, I just think to myself "wow why did I dream that?" and then that's the last of it.
Some facts about me:
-I never had nightmares even when I was a toddler.
-I've seen all the "scariest" movies and not one of them bothers me.
-I do go through a lot of stress from real world problems, but I never dream about them, at least not directly.
-I usually have these "nightmares" right BEFORE something stressful happens to me in real life.
-I've had full lucid dreams less than 5 times in my life, all of them happened after I was 12 years old.
-I've only had one dream that I was ever genuinely frightened, and that was when I woke up in sleep paralysis and a demon was sitting on my chest and there were multiple screams in my ears. I knew I was in sleep paralysis because out of the corner of my eye I saw my mom open the door and whisper if I'm awake and then silently leave and close it, and the next morning I asked her if she had done that and she said yes, and confirmed that I was laying on my back with my face towards the ceiling, but she said it was too dark to tell if my eyes were open. I think the reason I was scared during this is because I was actually awake while I dreamt it.
*There's one reoccurring dream I have where I'm being chased but instead of feeling fear, I either let myself get caught or I run and then stop and wait for whoever's chasing me to catch up. I'll even sometimes try to run and feel like I'm not going anywhere, but it doesn't really bother me. This is exactly how my dream last night went: I was at my house in my driveway(I have a pretty long driveway) and I knew these people were after me (I think it was the government or something along those lines). I didn't know what they were going to do to me, but I figured something really terrible, and at this point I am not scared but I decide to run. They tried to keep up but I managed to make it to the backyard and I had lost them. I was behind a grill and kept seeing them frantically search for me, (and I hope this next part makes sense) I did not consciously think in my head "I'm bored of this I'll let them catch me" but, my dream self NOT controlled by me thought it and suddenly they've all surrounded me. So I take off towards the chainlink fence that separates my backyard from the woods and the rest of the neighborhood. And as I jump on to the fence I'm about halfway over it, and I suddenly can't move anymore. I see them coming after me but I'm absolutely frozen on the fence and I don't know why(and I'm still not frightened at all, even though they're about to catch me and I can't move.) I suddenly find myself over the fence and dash through the woods, into my neighbors yard where I begin walking. I walk up their driveway and onto the street(and my neighborhood has only 1 exit) and I make a conscious decision to go the opposite way of the exit and towards a dead end. As I'm walking down the street casually I hear them in cars behind me. I know they have not seen me yet so I dip off the road and into another neighbors yard where I'm well hidden. And for some reason I walk back out onto the road and they spot me, so I take off again and find myself trapped in mud and not able to move(and I'm not consciously controlling myself at this point) I for some reason start covering myself with mud and I realize they can see me, so I CONSCIOUSLY hide behind a tree, and they pass me and all is clear. Then I feel content that I've lost them forsure but the next second I'm totally taken by surprise and they've got me. They put me in the car and I know something bad is gonna happen but I'm not worried at all. I've had this dream many times, but each in a different setting, with different people, and sometimes I successfully escape, sometimes I am caught, and sometimes I let them catch me. And in every dream I only control myself for a couple seconds consciously, and then it's back to me having no control at all, my dream body just moves on it's own. IF this were real, I would be terrified. But neither in my dream nor after I wake up do I feel any sort of negative emotion.
*I've had dreams where I go to school naked and everyone is making fun of me but I don't care one bit, when in reality I'd be very sad and upset.
*I've had many dreams that are bloody, violent, absolute gorefests that include people of all ages, colors, and genders. Sometimes I'm the one killing people, sometimes it's me vs a person or multiple people, sometimes I'm just watching them kill other people. SOmetimes nobody is killing anybody, I'll just stumble on to an extremely mangled dead body, or something will show me to one. Last night before I had the chase dream, I had a dream I was with a random person that I knew was friendly, we appeared at the entrance to a large house, and he hands me a knife and says i'm to do this alone. I hear his voice and he says(not the exact words because I can't remember any of them, only what they meant) but i have two options, i can either fight everyone in the house, or I can sneak through it and avoid everyone. I decide to fight, so I run in and stab someone in the throat, blood shoots out everywere including in my eyes and all over me. I keep running and stabbing people in the faces, throats, and even cut some heads off while I don't stop running. (During this dream I did not feel any anger, sadness, fear, or shock at the amount of blood that spilled.) As I kill the last person, I noticed one has survived and is hiding in a fridge against the wall, but for some unknown reason I walk by and forgot about the person hiding in there(and i consciously thought to myself "wow theres a person in there what am I doing?") and the person pops out and slits my throat and I watch myself fall to the floor and die, and that's when I pop into a different dream that was just an ordinary dream not meant to be scary at all. But another dream i had that was gory like this was I walked outside and there was an owl(I know they can either represent death, or peace depending on the scenario) this owl I could not tell if it was good or bad, but it said it was going to show me my dead baby and it did. The body was brutally torn apart, but after I saw it I immediately woke up(not frightened at all, just curious as to why I would dream something such as that). I never knew if the owl had done it or not.
*If I ever have a dream about falling I usually hit the ground and die, and I'll see my dead body for a little bit and I'll either wake up, or go straight to another dream. and rarely, but sometimes, I'll wake up before I hit the ground like a normal person would, except I won't wake up with a racing heart or night sweats. I just calmly open my eyes, adjust myself and fall back asleep. The same goes for drowning or suffocation dreams.
All of these dreams would make an average person scared to sleep, or cause psychological problems considering I'll have them for up to 5 nights in a row, and I'll have these reoccurring dreams for (this is a totall guesstimate) 5 nights in a row every two months. This has been happening since I was VERY little. My mom said I would toss and turn in the bed all night, but if I ever woke up, I'd wake up and be smiling and go right back to sleep. I still toss and turn every night, sometimes I'll wake up multiple times during the night, sometimes I'll sleep until the morning peacefully. No matter if I wake up a lot during the night or not, I ALWAYS feel well rested in the morning. It'd be awesome if someone could help me figure out why this happens to me! Feel free to ask any questions.
