NMs every night 1 year or more

This is the place to just vent, get support, advice, encouragement to make it one more night.

I have been there. I actually still am there. Same deal. 6 years now.My only escape is to actually pass out drunk and I have no dreams. Lucid dreaming is easy but being in control never changes the content of the dreams. Don't waste time trying to relax or any other mess. I have tried it all. Doctors can't help either. If you're like me- disturbing sick dreams every night for years- my best advice is when it becomes too much....and you just want it to stop for one single night. Grab a bottle of strong alcohol and swallow 2 big gulps and as the drunk settles in you will sleep a full night like a normal person. I say only do this as a last resort when it gets to be too much and you want to die because alcoholism is a slippery slope and we have been having this problem for too long to not be stronger after all the years. You know what I mean. One single week in our dreams is enough to drive the normies insane. You are strong. Your dreams don't define your thoughts or personality and you aren't in control of it. You aren't causing it. And if you could cure it with happy thoughts you wouldn't be here in this forum desperate for help or someone who knows what you're going through. I understand how hard it is to talk about it out loud. I know the stupid advice the doctors give . I know the guilt you feel for having the dreams. I am right there with you. Its scares me to sleep. But its has to happen. Happy thought therapy doesnt work. 2 swigs of gin is the only way to avoid the dreams but you can't do it except when it becomes too damn much and you need a one night break. Don't listen to the people here who can't relate to us- they can't even frickin smell the crap they spew out. Don't take advice from people who can't have a nightmare even when they try. I know what you're going through and trust me, it has been the end of weaker minds. If were not in the asylum or the grave by now we can make it one more night. But on the days you just can't do it for even one more night. . . use the booze. It works. You will sleep. No terror. Just sleep . Remember what it was like to just sleep? Just sleep without violence, hate, terror, and guilt. Like a baby. You can do this. Hang in there. You're not the only one. All of us - We can do this one night at a time.

My way works for me. For me its that or a bullet in the head. No matter how much you think you know about sleep, dreaming, or nightmares- you aren't me. I am terrified of my dreams. For a long time- longer than you've probably been studying or researching dreams- I wanted to die. The doctors put me on medinces. It just made me feel like I was abnormal and gave me another reason to want to die. I felt guilt every day for what I dreamed at night. I felt dread every night of what sick terror is waiting in my dreams. Until I learned it was out of my control and no one can help, I wanted to just die. But my terrifying dreams made me strong in a way. After years of dream torture I learned that no what heppen in my dream tonight- it won't be the worst and I am not a bad person. My dreams don't define me and I can't control them. This is happening for a reason. It is beyond control and not able to be cured with science and studies. I have been there. I have been studied... Scanned... Diagnosed....medicated...abused and exploited by normal people who can't relate and want to prove I'm suffering from some disorder- to put a label on it and classify it for science- and of course, put their name on it so it can be published in some journal. God only burdens us with what we can handle. These fucked up dreams made me strong and made realize it takes a hell of a lot more than war, terror, trauma, and demons to kill me. I won't give up. I can make it one more night. I still want to die rather than have another dream sometimes.... Its less often than years ago but I do want to die because of the guilt and terror my dreams put in me. But on those nights I just pound a shot of gin and pass out- and I have no dreams. Fuck you if you think its unhealthy. I wouldn't wish my life on my worst enemies. No one should be afraid of their dreams. If you're here having regular nightmares for longer than a year. You are strong. You can make it through the night. Don't give up. You aren't abnormal. Fuck the ones who want to explain it or treat it with drugs and therapy. You are strong. And when one more night sounds worse than a bullet- have a shot and sleep like a normal person for once. You deserve it.