well I havent faced all of my fears, but I sooorta faced my fear of the dark. I never liked total darkness.
total darkness kept showing up in my dreams as nightmares, until I found a way to beat the darkness. a lot of times I was so scared, I lost lucidity, lost control and it was like the dream ate me. its a real bummer when your fear of something gets in the way of a lucid dream! so the next time my dream was being attacked my darkness, I did my best to keep my cool, reminding myself its just a dream. but I let the dream turn off the lights.
this time, since I didnt freak out though, something strange happened. the dream characters in my dream, who were supposed to be friends and family lit some candles. it was genius really becuase in all of my darkness-nightmares, the demon could only control electrical appliances, namely my light switches. brilliant!
a couple of months ago, I was at the house alone, taking a shower. the power goes out on the entire complex. I had shampoo in my hair and all! it was surreal, since the bathroom has no window, it just went pitch black. it was so sudden I had to grasp some sense of reality with the water still running, I thought maybe I was alseep. Instead of running out the bathroom screaming *which my whole family still thinks I did! they dont believe me that I kept my cool!* I turned off the water, felt my way around for the towel, and made my way to the next bathroom with a window for some light to condition my hair.
the funny thing was later that day me and my sisters went to see a horror me. it was really the most horrific movie anyone in my family has seen, I wasnt phased the least!!! I watched the whole movie without closing my eyes or anything *I coudlnt see the entire ending half of grudge prior!!!* My sisters thought there was something wrong with me. I was like, ah, when you have a demon constantly trying to turn off your lights - this is nothing
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