So Confused?

i keep have these dreams where after a while i figure out im dreaming and am trying to wake myself up but i was wondering if anyone could explain to me why its almost as if im flying in my dream im virtually weightless but its like im detached from my body and i have no control over myself its comparable to smoking a huge joint or being so drunk your falling down everywhere except im totally aware and trying to control myself and im so aware of everything around me and i try to wake myself up and i cant is that even a lucid dream?

why are you trying to wake yourself up? dont you want to enjoy the dreamscape around you? fight some battles? fly a bit? sink Titanic over and over and over again?