Recurring pregnancy nightmare

About me: I consider dreams really important, they tell us information about our daily lives and our problems and how to solve them, even sometimes predicting the future(I had a scarily accurate dream meaning where the meaning was either I or someone else I liked was going to die and they did within a year, I've taken dreams serious ever since, and I was like.. 12 yrs old). When I have recurring dreams, usually nightmares, it's something I haven't resolved or figured out. As soon as I figure them out and resolve them they go away. But this time I can't figure it out, the others were way easy.

I'm 20 yrs old. I have the Mirena, an IUD, for contraception, had it for half a year no problems. I'm engaged and been together for 3 years. No plans for a baby, though I would love to have kids of my own when I'm ready. No rush at all. The dream has zero connection with my real life, no pregnancy scares, no one I know is pregnant, not thinking about kids or anything, just nothing out of the ordinary.



Dream: I always have dreams where out of no where I have a baby. I never experience the pregnancy, I never experience the birth, just 'bam' a baby in my arms. It's almost like amnesia where I slowly think back and was "oh yeah, I didn't look pregnant though" but the memories are totally vague and hazy. the latest one I prematurely had the child, though I never showed signs of being pregnant(I don't even have the breast milk or anything to feed it) and I just know for some reason that I was only 6 months somehow. Anyways, I always feel confused and not ready. In all the dreams I always find myself being irresponsible and not taking care of my new baby(in real life I even overly take over of all my animals, lol so this is a terrible feeling for me). One time the baby had died because I left it somewhere in a previous dream. It's uncontrollable I just find myself doing something else and forgetting I have a baby. I try to fight the dream and get the baby back to take care of it. Also, I don't know why but in waking life I know I'm destined to have a baby boy, but in every dream I end up having a baby girl and I think 'this isn't the baby I was meant to have, something went wrong.' Every dream. So I try to tell the father(my fiance in waking life) about the baby. He never wants it and doesn't want anything to do with it and tells me why I didn't just get an abortion. It makes me feel devastated that it's all my fault and I had no clue myself that I was having a baby. It's all very confusing and hurtful.
Another thing I'd like to add is that I've done a few drugs and drink occaisonally, and I remember this in my dreams. So it makes the baby even more unwanted because I've done some stuff while I was pregnant, and even though it doesn't look unhealthy or that I've even been told that it's unhealthy, in my head it is because of that previous knowledge.

Can someone help me with this?