Inner Turmoil

My dream starts off I am walking down a siidewalk at night. There are people walking around me. I am wearing a black over coat and am wearing a white dress shirt with black slacks. I am walking down the sidewalk, and I see a face that looks just like me only with shorter hair and thinner. The girl says to me you think you look good you are a fat and ugly b----. Yeah the cussword. I was so hurt I yelled at her(myself) and said why would you say something like that to me.

:(What did I ever do to you to say that? At that point I just lost it I was fighting my smaller self. I saw myself punching her and rolling around fighting. I had got the last punch in, and someone, I cant remember who I think an older woman intervened. All I remember is she was gone and both of my arms were covered with bruises. I was sitting down on the ground looking at my arms and saying to the woman, I am not sure what just happened, and I am sorry for what happened.

I was still dreaming when I was in a theatre all of a sudden. I was on stage singing in a microphone. I heard my old teacher say that was very nice. I felt in my heart I wanted to just let go and sing from my heart with no one judging me. All I could think about was being embarassed but I still did my best although in my heart I felt that I was dreaming and knew this was what I wanted. I wanted to freely express myself and I just ccouldnt.

These are all the same dream. The last thing I remember is I get a flash back to where I am where I used to live as a kid and I see a dog trapped in a barb wire. The dog is being abused and has a controller on it. I was worried about what would happen if I took the dog, but I did anyways no animal deserved that. I ran away with the dog and the police and owner were looking for me. They had tracked me down to a home near a lake and I woke up. I am not sure what to think honestly. I did wake up crying though.:(