A Lucid Nightmare

I just had the oddest nightmare. I was not trying to lucid dream, but I just fell into one.

Basically, in my lucid nightmare, I woke up in my bed, went to the bathroom then realized I couldn't for some reason.

Then I looked at my hands, all 10 fingers, looked in the mirror and my reflection was fine.
I went to get a glass of water, but the tap wasn't working. I kept looking at the clock over and over again and time was the same, and electricity was working fine.

I tried looking outside, there was none. The windows merely reflected my face, the door would not open no matter how hard I tried. The friend spending the night was gone.

I was completely 100% conscious, like sometimes in a lucid dream I think I'm fully conscious while in it, but upon waking up realize I did things I normally wouldn't. Yet, in this dream I was 100% myself, and totally there.

Without trying to attain lucidity, smells were there, textures, colors, sounds everything worked as it should in the world.

There's this drawer that I hide things that scare me IRL, I put them in there and lock it. In my nightmare, the lock was sheared off so I opened it. All that was there, was a notebook, a pen, and a handgun.

I tried going into my grandmothers room the door wouldn't budge.

I tried to go into the closet, and when I opened it there was a trap door on the floor. I know if I opened it something would scare me so I waited in the room until curiosity got my better interest and I opened the book, to which it had the words written "Hello"

I started talking to it by writing in it, the next page would have a response. After a while, I asked it how I could leave this dream, it told me there are two ways. One way, is if I use the gun to shoot myself, the other was to go down the trap door.

It said that if I use the trap door the gun would be useless on myself, if I shot myself obviously I couldn't use the trap door.

So of course, not being on for scares I shot myself. And rather than jolt awake, I felt the same exact sensations of sleep paralysis, growing as it normally does. Until where I normally would be asleep, it simply stopped, then I heard a voice IRL say "You're awake now"

And have been awake ever since.

Just wanted to state, I know the voice was definitely due to sleep paralysis, I'm not in any way insinuating that the voice was spiritual or ghostly in any way shape or form.

Wow. Hearing experiences like this make me really want to not dream lucidly. I kind of wish I didn't read that.
Anyway, do you mind me asking what's in your drawer?

I put things that scare me, and I'm easily timid. So I put Grudge 2, Ring Virus, Ju-on. Silent Hill 3, 4 and Homecoming. Pulse the movie.

Had a satanist bible there (Not mine a friend left it here)

And the memory card which has my silent hill saves on it.

Mostly game related crap, it's a ritual I've done since I was 8 years old to hide scary things in a lockable location.

i totally know what this is like. in the thread i just posted a couple of days ago (constant nightmares and false awakenings) i vaugely mention the sort of false awakening nightmares i've been having, and they are things a lot like what you just described, where i am totally aware and totally present.

i went through another phase of false awakening type dreams a couple of years ago while i was on the nicotine patch. those dreams were so vivid that i almost never knew if i was awake or not, sometimes for days at a time. i had to keep asking my boyfriend, which i think was really annoying. Those were different, though, in that i'd dream about waking up and find myself somewhere totally bizzare, but i was so lucid (yet so confused) that i'd have no idea i was dreaming. i had one where i woke up, went and opened my bedroom door and found myself at a train station in my pajamas. it was raining, and the rain felt so real. i tried doing reality checks, but everything was totally in place. i ended up just standing there, soaking in my pajamas with people looking at me like i was an escaped psych patient until a vague acquaintance came up to me and asked me if i was okay, to which i replied "i don't know if i'm awake or not".
i had to go off the patch, because i would miss things because i'd be so certain i had woken up and gone to school or whatever, but i'd still be in bed.

i stopped reading.
im about to go to bed ;)

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the other was to go down the trap door.

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But... now you're forever going to wonder what was under the trap door! I think that's the part of the dream that would bother me most.

As you get more experienced in lucid dreaming, you'll be better equipped to deal with your fears within the dreamworld. It's all about facing them and realizing that they can't hurt you. They can be scary as hell, sure, but you'll start to realize - even in non-lucids - that everything around you is a sort of game.

Good luck!