Reality - potentially not as real as it seems
The scientific achievements of today are mind-boggling. Scientists are uncovering the nature of the universe, which actually turns out to be quite absurd. Just look into any aspect of particle physics and you will understand what I mean. Electrons, quarks, antimatter, dark matter, the atomic model, string theory, etc. All these things are positively insane, and yet they all have a lot of merit and some are even basically proven. But when I think of this, a question comes to mind. What actually is reality itself? What are molecules, what is energy, and why do they exist? Whether it is god, coincidence, or any other thing, there has to be somewhere "outside" of reality. With positive, there must also be negative. Just a great nothingness where there is no space, time, energy, or matter. Just pure nothingness. In fact, it doesn't even exist in the sense that you could go there because it is not a part of reality, as in it is not real. But it is still there. In this nothingness, there is no order of any sort, meaning that anything and everything is always happening, and at the same time it isn't. And when I think about it, it seems to me like our reality is nothing more than a reflection on the nothingness.
I know this theory sounds like total rambling with little to no evidence to back it up, but I understand that, so please don't criticize me about it. I wasn't able to really put my thoughts into words, but I tried. Maybe if I think of a more accurate description of my thoughts, I will edit this post.