Cogito Ergo Sum

Cogito Ergo Sum
Tyrel Newlin

So I'm driving down the road like a regular 22 year old living in a small town with nothing to do. And suddenly it hits me.I know what it is to be. I wasn't really afraid to die before and had come to accept death's inevitability and despite the state of things found out what it means to live. I no longer have to be afraid to die, because I will be back. Because I exist now, I will always exist and have existed. I will always be real. I found out that it doesn't matter if you live or you die because if you choose to continue living, you will always exist (and have existed). Because this happens at least once this way, it will happen at least once another way. Even if different versions of this life exists, it does not matter because others will as well, versions where I may be another person, another animal, another thing, another nothing. There will always be more ways to live. Even if one of those lives you do not exist, you will exist again. As who or what you are now, and not. So we no longer have to fight eachother, we can all stop being afraid. We can all stop fearing the possibility that we do not exist, or will not exist for some point in time. Everything is like a ripple, you are a ripple moving through time. If you choose to exist by your decisions, things will always go how *you* want them. They also some other time will not exist this way, but some other time it will also exist almost exactly the same way, but only different just by one minute detail. This is what it means to be: I think, therefore I am. Cogito Ergo Sum. So let there be no more wars, let us not hurt eachother anyway we would not wished to be hurt if we were to exist as another person. Let's just love life, and keep on living.

The End.

Whoops this thread should probably be in philosophy.

Sorry to triple post but:
Well, I thought a little more tonight. I came to another conclusion on how to conduct myself with other people as well. I usually come to these conclusions of thinking of what I would do in various situations, I set up scenarios for myself and ask what I would do. So I thought, in the event that a masked gunman entered my home at night, if I were a husband with a wife and 3 children, and that man had killed all of them, and I were given the opportunity to safely end his life or just shoot his knee caps and make it so he can never walk again, but get a second chance on life, what would I do? I used to hate people and the things they did. I hated everything. Somewhere along the line as a child I decided being bad would get me what I want more than good ever could. I decided to take a hiatus from being a good person, to see what being a bad person was like. I decided to be a good person who made bad decisions. I decided to act differently than I would normally in any given situation. I decided to see what being bad was like, but just not too bad. I was prepared to kill someone if need be, just to know what it was like. I thought experiencing all the different experiences possible that were available in life was the way to live the best like. Sometimes choose to be good, sometimes choose to be bad as well. I have not yet come to kill somebody though, and hell I even haven't had sex yet because I want to wait until marriage, but I decided to throw my morality out the window, to live life without a conscious just to see the otherside.

I always liked to come to conlcusions for myself. I had been raised to be a good person all my life, but I was just too curious. This curiosity led me to do terrible things in my life, but the only rule I truly placed on myself was not to kill a person even though I really wanted to. I always had anger issues growing up, everybody irritated me, so the natural thing for me to want to do was to hurt people, to inflict violence. But since my upbringing totally opposed that line of thought, I decided to take a test, play the game of life, roll the dice sometimes... and to live a life of excitement. That has been how my life has gone so far, but I finally found the reason for myself to be kind to my fellow man, to do good like my parents always told me. Now, I am proud that I waited out the feelings of violent rage that I felt inside, my instinct and almost every urge just to kill somebody because I could. Now, I want to leave that all behind, and it's because I have lived enough of this retarded joke of a life we have created for ourselves, knowing it was stupid all along. However, I digress.

Back to the scenario, I just needed to give some background so you could understand the type of person I am. In the event this intruder in my home killed my wife and children, would I kill him, or shoot him in the knee caps? Until just now, my answer was to kill him. Today, I have decided I would shoot him in the knee caps, so that he should never walk again. I despise torture, but what I decided to do is not what I think qualifies. This man chose to take his life into his own hands and commit the most evil acts he could think possible, to kill my family. I would shoot him in the knee caps, so that he would always think about the reason he could never walk again. Why had this happened to him? It's because what I did was kill the man he used to be. I have chosen to give this man a second chance on life because he decided to commit an act I believe is tantamount to suicide. He has willingly taken his life in his hands and handed it to me. I still see potential in this man's eyes. Is he not just a confused brother of mine? Would a person who is in his right mind really do this to other people? The answer is no. I lived that life, I know what it's like. I hate it, I hate every fucking bit of it. So I took his life from him, and gave it back. I want him to be able to choose one more time if he wants to die in peace with others, or die truly alone. That is what I thought would always happen to me. I was born alone, I would die alone. But now now. I want to accept others into my life, and to treat them as they were me. We are the same, you and I. It doesn't matter if we look different, we all want the same thing. This is my second chance, I just killed the person I was all my life about 3 hours ago, and I'm never going back.