Indifference to change or feeling the need for change are just different ways of functioning and has nothing to do with the quality of ones "aliveness." You can feel just as lively regardless.

Anyways i was thinking much about freedom a few months ago since this whole virus and lockdown thing. Though i didn't feel much of a desire to express it during those times. Whether its possible to be free in an unfree society? The thought of being an escapist appeared in my mind often. Its hard to put into words.

I wanted to say this earlier but had others things i wanted to do so i replied in a rush.