Of course everyone's reality is different but how different can it really be?
OK, the other night my friend was over and my bf and I were all talking with her, all of the sudden I got this feeling that he waS attracted to her and she to him, and it sucked.
I asked him about it and told him it wasn't a big deal as long as it never becomes a problem, i mean u can't help your bodies response to a stimuli, but you do have control over where you let it go. He said i was crazy....bla bla...o well, I continued to think about it as it really bothered me, i trust him, we've been together for 3 years, have a 10 mo. baby together, and I'm stepmom to his 6 yr. old son, we are very close, but it still bothered me.
My friend, G, is witty, (i'm a little burnt, and she seems to have more smarts than me, but only in some areas) anyway, it would have been that i was just a little self-conscious but all i kep thinknig about that it was a possibility that they could hook up sometime, even if it's in either of their "heads", that really bothers me. I am so loyal to B, I love him so much.
Then I realized that I've been thinking about it way to much, after I've had a few dreams of me beating her up or wake up screaming, and realize that the more you think about something the more real it becomes...
in all actuality they are both my best friends and we are all sexy as hell, kooky, and sweet people...so next time you feel insecure about something, give yourself back that power, don't let the situation have it, it'll eat you up and spit you back out.
Now, this is obviously diff. than if you really have a feeling someone isn't being honest with you...see I know that my mind is very tricky and loves to mess with me, I've learned there's a difference b/t reality and head thinking
