*sigh* Okay. So, I'm not arrogant, I don't think I'm better than anyone, I don't think I'm superior, and I don't even use the terms "superiority" and "inferiority". I wasn't stating that I'm special, nor was I implying it in any way.
My post didn't mean to shout that I'm better than everyone else because I think this way. It just meant to state some of my doubts and questions on this world. I guess I was mistaken when I thought that people would concentrate more on the questions and the points I set instead of search for hints that make me seem like an arrogant, "special" bully.
And, Black Eagle, no. I didn't mean that at all in my post. I said that because the way I wrote what I wrote was confusing, and it seemed confusing to myself, mostly because I couldn't explain my thoughts well enough. I wasn't indicating that the rest of you are not intelligent enough to read it. Meh.
Well, I'm sorry. I thought I'd start a discussion on the philosophical questions that had been bothering me, and listen to other's thoughts on them, -because I'm positive that's what this board was created for-, but instead I get criticized on my character. It was my fault coming back after all. I'm not looking for someone to praise me. If I wanted to get that, I assure you I would look for a place elsewhere. I cannot simply talk about the way I think outside the internet, because I'm insecure when it comes to this kind of thoughts and questions, so I thought internet was a better place. But well, I guess not.
I'm sorry, I should have posted with more constructive criticism rather than simply snapping at you. it just irked me that the IP was all about "this is me and how I think" and a heap of questions and observations that have been asked/made countless times in many different ways. it came off self-centered to me, maybe you just don't realize it?
maybe you didn't specifically say anywhere in the post "I'm special," but essentially, in so many words, you pretty much said "I'm special because I question everything while so many others take it all for granted." instead of posing any real philosophical questions, you've basically invited everyone to pat you and each other on the back.
I mean, look at bodhisattva's reply. if you'll notice, he's contradicted himself, by first saying that (basically) "plenty of people think this way" and then "you're special". but, certainly he'd like to think that he's special too? (also, how did I imply that you are alone in having these thoughts, as he said? I think I implied the opposite.)
look, I'm just trying to give you a fair warning. you're on the right road, you obviously have potential...I'm trying to say that you shouldn't get lost in a bunch of shallow opinions and fluff, and focus on actually learning something, because there is a lot to learn. maybe I was wrong, maybe you're just young and I'm old and jaded and a little pessimistic...maybe you just feel like you're alone (I can relate, I live in the south and I often feel like I'm surrounded by idiots... ) all I'm trying to say is, I hope you realize, that these are very basic questions, and you're only barely beginning to break the surface. and of course, as I'm sure you realize now, you're not alone at all.
I guess that is what you were trying to establish...I re-read your post and I can see that now. I'm sorry for snapping at you.
you know what, I think I just mistook you for one of those pretentious people who think they're so "deep" because they "like philosophy" and "question reality." it's a pet peeve of mine, and I've just been so irritated at fake people like that lately. I hope you can forgive me?
First off, I never said I'm the only one who thinks that way. I know that a lot of people think this way, and that almost any human to have walked on Earth has once questioned themselves on their existence and its purpose. It's a natural thing to do. I was just stating that, even though, it's much easier to let go of a lot of these questions and focus on life the way it is, without trying to doubt every single thing and lose so much energy while doing so, I've found out that I just can't seem to be able to let life flow easily without being bothered by these constant questions. It might not be obvious that I wanted to say that, so I'm sorry.
And really, losing a lot of your energy on these questions isn't healthy, and isn't always good. Therefore, it doesn't even give me a reason to "brag about being special", but that's not what I was trying to do in the first place. I was trying to be open about my views on the world, something I can only do on the internet, but I've regretted doing so now. I thought that maybe I could discuss with people on this matter, and the questions that keep on appearing, because in all honesty, I couldn't dream of discussing that with any family member, friend, or anything. Not because I think they're less intelligent than me, not in any way, but because I'm sure that they'll either think I'm on drugs and exaggerating, or that they'll just talk a bit and then say "Whatever". It has happened before, so, it isn't impossible for it to happen agan. I know I'm not special, anyway. I'm not looking for someone to tell me that I am. If I were "special", then I wouldn't have failed at so many things already.
My life isn't dependant on philosophy. I love philosophy, and I read philosophical books simply because I'm interested on the subject, not because I want to make myself feel smart and superior to others. It's like a hobby, you could say. I'm not "deep", or anything, I just like to look deeper into things, not meaning that I'll call anyone who doesn't an idiot. I have other interests other than philosophy, I just focused upon it now because that's what the board is for, to discuss philosophy. Yes, I question reality, but I never said that others don't, and that that makes me better than them. Actually, like I said, I'm almost sure 99% of humans have once asked themselves at least one of these questions, once in their lives. I'm just letting the whole thing get to me way too much, and that is why I made this post. And well, sure. ^ ^
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