A Hopefully Quite Unusual Challenge to Christians
When I ask Christians what I should do to know God, they tell me to read the Bible, pray and have faith.
Now, I grew up a Christian and gave it up in favour of following where my dreams were taking me after a lengthy period of soul searching and more than one bizarre event.
Every so often, I do want to go back. I pray, I read the Bible. I study, and I ask for some kind of sign. I rarely go to church because of these feelings because I live in a small town and going to church means I end up intruding on Christians I meet every day and don't want to get the wrong idea about me.
If my feelings are especially sincere; they often culminate in a very vivid dream that reaffirms my optimism about the world while telling me not to go with Christianity in no uncertain terms. The same is true for converting to Baha'i and Atenism. Thus far I haven't tried the other major monotheistic branches of thought. It seems like a weird exercise to get stuck into.
My conclusion is that if God exists, he hasn't contacted me while I've tried to contact him. Thus he must either be happy with me not being a Christian or some being with more power than God over my life has other plans. I'm interested in seeing what any Christians who post here think. I'm also open to suggestions, and I'm hoping this won't be taken as an attack on your relationship with God.