I'm bored. Really bored. I could go to sleep but I'd rather do something. What that "something" is, I have no idea. I just wanna do something. Like go for a jog. It's 3 AM and as dark as Eric (xD) outside though, so I can't do that. I can't jog inside either or I'll wake everyone up. Fuck. How the hell is one to handle a situation like that?
I have to leave the house early to help a friend move her things tomorrow morning in a few hours but if I don't get any sleep before that, I'll be to exhausted to be of much use. I'm not tired though. Well, I am tired but I can't fall asleep. And I really need to get some sleep, especially since I haven't slept much in the past few days.
My left eye's twitching...
And now it's stopped.
I spent the last 3 hours mindlessly surfing the web so could find something to keep myself entertained. Still looking. Well, actually, I'm taking a break from that to type out this rant but once I've clicked submit (and maybe edit?) I'll get back to my search. Or I'll try to go back to bed. Or something. >_>
3:12 AM
3:13 AM
Shaving. I hate shaving. I need to shave though; I usually keep a bit of stubble and keep a nice trim (it makes me feel mature :3) but I haven't trimmed my trim in like 3 days. Maybe 4. That doesn't look very presentable, not at all. I'd trim it now but I dropped my trimmer and broke it the day before yesterday. It was a good trimmer. I'll miss that trimmer. So, I think I'll opt for a clean shave using a dull razor for really short stubble. Ya, that's what I'll do.
3:16 AM. 3:17 AM* Time changed while I was typing that last bit.
Ugh................... adsfasdfasf sdffdsaf
Maybe I could... something. Lost my train of thought.
3:18 AM
The tip of my nose itches. Will I scratch it?!
Fuck. Writer's ranter's block.
3:26 AM
I need a job. And then I need to apply for college. Ever since elementary school, my teachers have told me I need to apply myself or that I lack motivation. I "show plenty of ability," they said, "but no motivation." hwo to use motivate, ??
My Dad's still stuck abroad btw. He went to attend his mothers funeral earlier this month but they never let him get back on the plane to come back to Canada because the date on his passport doesn't match his Visa or something. It's been like that for over 20 years and no one noticed his passport had the wrong birth date down. He's made about 5 trips back and forth over the years and no one noticed until now. Pretty funny story, really. And expensive; very, very, expensive. Which is why a job would come in handy right about now. The paperwork should be dealt with soon enough though so he'll be fine and back eventually so no worries. He's probably bored of his mind I'll bet.
That reminds me, I'm still bored out of my mind.
3:34 AM
Did you know that drinking apple juice before going to bed can cause some really fucked up dreams? trufax bro.
Maybe I should start seeing this girl again. Ya, a girl. Bet you didn't know I have a life off the interwebz, did you? Well I do, you judgmental little shit, you. Anyways, this girl. Not the one I'm helping move, that one's a close friend. This one's someone I saw? No, not saw. Met up with a few times. Kind of. Long story and not entertaining at all. She's an alright girl. Really upbeat, smart enough to hold up an intelligible conversation, a six-cylinder engine, front-wheel drive, cute, and has Venetian drapes. Anyways, I "don't do enough" and, for the most part, prefer a quiet day on the couch rather than going out. That's probably why I haven't been able to get a real relationship going yet. I'm not creepy recluse who's afraid to leave the house or anything, I just don't like being out and about without a reason. That being said though, give me a morning and/or afternoon to "rest up" (sleep in, watch tv, sit on the computer, etc) and I'll give you an evening full of... a step down from excitement. Huh, I must be pretty boring. Maybe that's why I haven't had anything work out for too long. That and the fact that I always end up sitting there listening to them rant about how shitty life is or how much of an asshole some other guy I've never met is. And then I end up being "really sweet" and a "great listener" (which is true, I'm like a top tier shoulder-to-lean-on-er and I give great advice to boot) and POW! I'm in the friend zone. Always the fucking friend zone.
It isn't too bad in the friend zone though, I can always ask for favors and mooch some free coffee from Tim Horton's (not Starbucks, that just nasty and so not Canadian, eh). Sometimes even a bit of bud if I'm lucky but truth be told, I'm not much of a pot head. Only a bit here and there when I'm with certain cousins or friends.
Wonder if I'm still in her friend zone... Probably am. It sucks to not be an alpha-male. I bet Jrh's an alpha-male. He probably takes control of the situation and has his women (he cycles through a handful of about 9, you see) on their toes at all times. That is of course, when he's not answering calls for IT support or building and taking apart computers or whatever it is computer tech's do in there line of work. He's exciting. Me? I'm just "sweet" and "sensitive" and a total prissy pushover.
*sigh*
It's good to get that off my chest. Maybe I should start blogging like those people on blogspot.com or thoughts.com... Or not, I've been told blogging's pretty lame. Not sure why, but who am I to question social taboos? Besides, that would mean having to type out large walls of text and I hate doing that.
3:59 AM
I think I'm tired now. Might go to bed soon. Ehh... Gonna drink a glass or two of apple juice and then a WILD (wake-induced-lucid-dream; google it, peasant). Who needs hallucinogenics when you've got decent knowledge of sleep/dream phenomena and a gallon of apple juice? Not me.
4:06 AM
That there's some serious introspective, soul searching shit, man. Real heavy, dude. If you actually read all that, you deserve my respect. You won't get it, just know that you deserve it. Find all my typos and Jrh will send you $20 through Paypal. Seriously, he still hasn't paid me back since... January of 2009 I think it was? You guys remember.
@ Jrh: =D
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A rant I posted on another forum I frequent (hence the references to certain individuals unknown to you). I posted it in the wrong section, copied it, deleted it, then pasted and posted it in the correct one later. Now I'm posting it hear. Because it's on my copy-and-paste clipboard thingy. And that's how we handle things round these parts.
Hurray for sleep deprivation! =D
@ Alleesa: Mine's bigger.
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