Hey guys,
In general, upon returning home from work, I take a nap for approximately 1.5 hours. During this time I believe that I dream relatively little, due to having almost no recall except for tiny fragments; I feel these fragments are just thoughts I am having as I slowly become more aware.
Recently, however, while I have been still taking the nap, I am now not losing consciousness. Instead, I lie down and breathe until a spasm hits my body. Sometimes it is powerful and rocks my entire body; other times it is weaker and jerks my face or an extremity. After this, my body becomes very heavy and it is difficult to move. My thoughts are also a lot less active overall, and when I do get carried away by a thought, it is something weird with no real relation to anything in WL (one from today was just some police officers arresting a person). During this time I am not losing conscious awareness. I am aware of what is happening in the room (I had to get up today to answer the door, for instance) and can choose to get up if I want. Furthermore, I am awaking relatively refreshed.
My first question: am I asleep? Am I awake?
I also, while lying like this, sometimes begin to feel a sensation of falling. I have tried to just "go with it," but every time it approaches I have this instinct to pull myself back. I would like to fall, but my body/mind seems not to want this at all. My body also does not jerk when this happens--it occurs entirely in my mind. Is the falling sensation an approaching transition? If so, any way to just fall?