Hi, I'm new here. 15. Name's Fabio.
So I have this sleeping problem... it's hard to explain, and I'm not all too good at explaining anything either, but I'll try.
I never feel tired anymore. I don't mean I never sleep, I mean I literally never FEEL tired. Ever. I go to bed FEELING wide awake while I know my body is tired. It's like I shut off for 6-7 hours and turn back on... like I just close my eyes and suddenly, it's morning. I HATE IT. I've dealt with it for almost a full year now. I miss just passing out on the bed at 2:00 in the morning with the clothes I wore to school on a friday night, totally drowsy. I miss waking up feeling tired (as weird as it sounds). I miss waking up feeling totally refreshed! Now I just kind of close my eyes, sometimes wake up feeling hot AND ALWAYS WIDE AWAKE, close my eyes again, then open them because it's morning.
That's another thing, I would wake up hot frequently. I'd go to bed feeling normal (not so cold, not so hot. A bit under "warm") and just wake up feeling hot. I can't sleep without the AC being on and set to 72 or under... and even THEN I still sometimes wake up feeling hot.
There are some small advantages I could say. Since I never actually feel tired, I could sleep short hours and make it through the day wide awake. So I could do a rush a project at night till like 3 or 4 and sleep till 6:40. I'd feel totally awake, just with a "dry" feeling, mostly on my face.
Also, I guess I'd be lieing if I said I NEVER feel tired anymore. There are rare occasions where I actually would. Like if I sleep for 2 hours as stated above. It's only a small awkward amount of sleepyness. So to boost it, I take a good warm bath. I don't know why, but then I'm in there, I started yawning like crazy. I actually start feeling really tired and sometimes almost fall asleep! But, when I finally get out, I'm feeling as tired/awake as I was before I even jumped in the bath. Just a little bit more tired. Think of it like:
"DROWSYNESS LEVEL 1-10" (7 being the normal feeling of drowsyness)
Normal = 1 - 2
Deprived = 3 - 4
Bath = +4
End of Bath = -3
So if I deprived myself of sleep and my "drowsyness level" was 4 AND I took a bath, it would be to 8. Above normal, totally fine. But as soon as I get out, it drops to 5 and I feel more awake. How's that for some math?
But even if I do all that, when I wake up in the middle of the night/morning, I STILL feel wide awake like I got no sleep at all. No feeling refreshed, no feeling like I just slept, just feeling like lump of crap. So I guess you could say the 'never' part is feeling like I just got a good rest, feeling refreshed and ready to start the next day. Man do I miss it so much.
Theres a bit more to tell, but I'll save it since there's so much in here already. Oh, I guess lastly I should say that it started during the end or so of 2007 summer. I killed my sleep schedule and ruined my internal clock pretty bad I'm sure. Anyways...
Any suggestions on how to deal with it/classifying what disorder it is, is GREATLY appreciated!
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