Being tired wakes me up.
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I'm type 2 bipolar, which means I get depressed more then I get manic. When I get depressed, I get sleepy and just kinda naturally gravitate towards the bed. I fight it the majority of the time because if I completely listened to it, I'd hardly ever get out of bed. When I do go to bed, I'm usually asleep in minutes.
Now, you'd think that by how tired I am, I'd stay asleep for hours, but it works the other way around. I also have major difficulty in STAYING asleep. I've literally slept for one minute before when going to bed because of this. I still remember what I dreamed, and have it in my DJ. It's not just that though, there's this weird thing that happens in my dreams now.
Last one I had like this, I was asleep two hours, I owned an amusement park and was going around inside this building where the park was and seeing how people liked the rides and things. Part way through, my whole head got fuzzy, and I fell to the floor. I started somehow gliding across it, I asked one guy "How's the ride Frank?" trying to stay with the theme of the dream, and trying to stay in it but my head just kept going towards the floor. Finally, I woke up. It does this almost every single time I go to bed because of depression tiredness. Another one was me and a guy falling into this blue/ green Lifestream (Final Fantasy 7) lake, my head dipped like I'd taken too many sleeping pills and I woke up. One really bad one was only a few seconds long, I was at my computer and my head got heavy, and lowered, and I just eventually slipped off the chair because I couldn't stay up and woke up.
Back before I fully became bipolar, I was sometimes aware that the dream was ending, and I was waking up. Things would get darker, my perception would dim, and I'd feel this pull, then suddenly feel myself go back into my body, fully awake, staring at the back of my eyelids, thinking "Oh c'mon now" But it's not like that anymore.
Now, I know what it's like to take a sleeping pill before you're ready to go to bed, because of my doctors brilliant idea that I take one in the morning and one at night (I still stayed awake another hour, even though I could barely talk, and my body was incredibly heavy. My mind was still fine. I immediately stopped doing that since). It feels like that, but I have no idea why it feels like that in my dreams when I'm waking up. I doubt my body's just like "Well, what new thing can I put here to signify he's waking up now that he's bipolar? I know, I'll use that terrible experience he had with the sleeping pills!" Well, at least there's an upside to this, when I do do it, it's an instant lucid. I always have lucid dreams when doing this, I just hate the horrible way I wake up.
Anyway, just wanted to share that. Being bipolar definitely has it's ups and downs (no pun intended). Does anyone else do this that's not mentally ill, like when you're physically sick or something or anything? I never even hear anyone else who's bipolar having this problem, and I know a good ten people with it.
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