Originally Posted by
Zhaylin
I have severe anxiety with a little OCD mixed in for good measure :)
I have an avoidant personality.
I talk to myself out loud and silently. I have running dialogues through my head all hours of the day when I'm not engaged in some activity (I'm a gaming addict, listen to the radio or watch TV a lot to distract myself from my thoughts).
I obsess over scenarios. Let's say I'm going to go to church and I expect I'll have to talk to someone. I'll replay every possible conversation through my head, talking for myself and the other person until I'm happy with the results. I obsess over upsetting people, so I want to make sure I don't say something that can be misunderstood or hurtful.
I see a psychiatrist every 2-4 weeks and before I see him, I do the same thing.
I do it to such an extent that sometimes people think I'm eerie for my "ability" to know what they're going to say or do before they do.
I take Ambien or Melatonin to go to sleep. My brain never shuts up and the conversations keep me awake (I've been known to fall asleep sitting up in front of a computer or TV but once I go to bed I can't sleep. The computer etc quiets my thoughts so I can sleep but once I'm away from it, my brain starts yammering away again :roll: )