Hi,
I've had sleep epilepsy for 15 years (I'm 28 now).
Whenever I have a seizure, I lucid dream.
I think it's my brain's way of coping with the fact that I'm having a seizure.
So, this is how it goes:
-wake up, think: "I'm about to have a seizure"
-can't breathe
-start losing consciousness
-feel myself jerking
Then...
-I am comforted by my mum, who actually talks to me - specific to the seizure I'm having, saying things like "It's okay, you're having a big seizure this time but it will be over in a minute"
-I can't talk during this time but I KNOW I'm having a seizure, somewhere in the background - it's like I've left the seizure to the side and I'm just with my mum
-Once, when I was having a really bad seizure just after I was diagnosed, my Mum and I synched on this one idea - She said to me that she's my guardian for when I have seizures and I acknowledged that.
Okay, now for the weid bit (not asking you to believe this part):
-When I told mum about this, we went to a psychic
-She told mum and me that we were mother and daughter in a previous life
-She said I was born deformed/was very sick and died quite young
-There used to be a ghost in our dining room that Mum and I saw when I was little
-The psychic described him to us and said that in the previous life, he was the doctor who treated me/tried to save me
-The psychic also said that he was my father in the previous life (I'm NOT asking you to believe any of this)
-This "doctor" has appeared in my seizure "dreams" a few times - but ONLY when I have started having a seizure lying on my back (not good - think choking on vomit)
-I remember once I was having a seizure somewhere out of home, but in the "dream", I was lying on the couch next to our dining room, where the "doctor" used to appear
-He turned my head to the side, and said "Are you alright, dear?" I woke up with my head tilted to the side - something I couldn't have done consciously
-Whenever he has visited me.. I have started a seizure lying on my back.. and woken up in the recovery position
Three questions:
1. Am I imagining him as a catalyst to actually move myself during the seizure? Is he doing it? Your thoughts?
2. Does anyone else lucid dream during seizures?
3. Does any of this mean something?!?
I would love to hear your thoughts, comments and suggestions on this vivid part of my day-to-day life.
Nat
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