would like to hear your thoughts
Hi last year I was staying with my nan who had cancer, i cared for her everyday we had a very close relationship. Anyway on a bad day i observed I was having thoughts of killing myself (silly thoughts) and i found myself wanting to know why god was giving us this human experience.
That 'bad' day turned out to be an amazing one, i went and led on my bed at 10pm, as soon as my head hit the pillow i became aware of a beautiful pinkish red swirl unlike any colour ive seen, i could not believe it was there yet i was not afraid because it was such a beautiful colour giving off a glow of warmth and love and i felt like i wanted to get closer and as I did the swirl beamed me up and i could feel its energy pulling me fast through something like a dark tunnel but the pink light was still around me and it thrust me into a vast open space which felt cold although i could see i had no physical body i could still feel i had things to reach and see with and what i saw was this, i was on the outer edges looking in (at great distance) at everything, the planets suns and stars looked like beautiful shimmering lights with light connections going to each one, comparable of dot to dot, this took a while to process I was looking from dot to dot and then realised it all shaped a man on a throne, my thoughts were that this was a majestic entitity in which we all live and i note this thought felt almost transferred from what was in front of me, i felt tremendous love, warmth and respect to this god in front of me and as i did the head turned to me and for some crazy reason my conscience said what if this is an illusion and an alien abduction instantaneously after this thought i knew id made the god angry and i felt huge fear then i was thrust backwards it was not a pleasant sensation so very hard to describe with language but i can say it hurt coming back into my physical body especially in my left chest where i felt myself enter through the pink swirl reaching and as i first slipped into my body the rest of me was still coming through this energy into my chest and it was extremely painful, it left a red mark on my chest that wasnt there before and i was trembling and sweating like i had a fever. Some real changes the next day to my life which lasted a year, now i feel i want to share my experience and more than anything i want to go back there, its almost like i can feel the knowledge from going there is wearing off and i just want to go back, i know it was an obe because i felt myself leave, please give your thoughts as to what i experienced
