Self-Awareness is what i lack in my WILD Attempts?
Hi Guys.
I've been attempting getting myself a stable routine of WILDs since a long time
I had lots, lots and lots of failures aswell as some fancy lds :D
Back in weeks, months i was able to WILD from various anchors: Counting, Visualizing, Keeping Mind Empty, Pain etc.
Yet i never was able to master using of any of them for longer amounts of time (Weeks, Months)
Once ago there was a week in which i had four times a WILD from counting anchor (0.1.2.0.1.2)
I've tried to replicate that week's attempts
Yet with no results
Same counting technique put me to sleep
Extending my WBTB up to 20 - 45 minutes did not help at all
And i was wondering for a long time what's keeping me from getting those nice WILDs
And therefore today i've gotten my motivation back to try once more WILDing and so i had readed once more some material and gotten to conclusion
It might be the Self-Awareness which i lacked during most of my attempts
My attempts were if i recall correctly were plain & dull
I was just lying still while performing the anchor without even considering my existence or what, why i'm doing this and where i am i guess?
Maybe during those successful WILDs i somewhat kept Self-Awareness yet without planning to do so
So after this idea which poped up in my head i've wrote new plan to WILDs:
1. Wake Up After 6 - 7 hours of sleep
2. WBTB For 10 minutes
3. Anchor: Repetitive Counting From 0 to 2
4. Awareness: Knowing all the time who i am, what i'm doing and why i'm doing it what i'm doing currently
5. Keep Awareness & Anchor above the random stream of thoughts which tends to happen yet don't make them vanish (This might help me to know if i'm putting too much mindpower on anchor or not)
Hopefully i'm not putting too much expectation on Self-Awareness
Advices, suggestions & help would be really awesome
- Thanks For Reading :D