^^ Though I admire your enthusiasm, d3nd3, I think you might be looking for too much in all this.
Self-awareness is a state of mind, and not a magic bullet. Though, at least in my opinion, self-awareness is equal to lucidity, it is not a commodity that you can get or have that fuels lucid dreams. Nor is it an energy of some sort that you can have with you to induce lucidity. It is simply a sense of your presence in the moment, with an understanding that you have an effect on everything around you, and everything around you has an effect on you. Developing that sense can take years; developing that sense to a point that it stays on constantly can take a lifetime. Please try not to look at it as a shortcut, or a cause of lucidity that can be harnessed. And, again, please don't look at self-awareness as an impediment to sleep, because it isn't.
That said, I'll go around one more time with this, though I hope you'll understand if my responses pretty much match what I've already said:
Originally Posted by d3nd3
I thought that if I'm pracitising increasing my self-awareness during the day then my self-awareness is 'higher' whether I like it or not? Do you think this is true or not?
No, this is not true. Self-awareness will tend to be a state of mind that you must always summon, unless you manage to change your permanent state of consciousness to one of constant self-awareness. The funny thing is that, if after years of practice you reach that state, there will not be a "like it or not" situation, ever, because the permanent presence of your self-awareness will be a good thing, a transcendental improvement, and not something you will not want to have around.
If its true then even if I don't try to maintain awareness, it will still be high. Am I looking at the self-awareness incorrectly? Is it not possible to raise it up that much and will the default state always be low awareness so that you can easily go to sleep without being aware?
Yes, I believe you are looking at the self-awareness incorrectly. Let me try one more time by repeating what I've already said at least twice: Self-awareness does not equal being awake. It also does not equal being alert, or even aware, in the natural sense (i.e., being aware of your surroundings). Even if you one day manage to achieve a high, consistent level of self-awareness, this state will not effect your body's ability to fall asleep. Sleep and self-awareness have nothing to do with each other, and you will be able to go to sleep will self-awareness active. This of course counts for any residual or weak self-awareness you might have from practicing it during the day.
Maybe I'm wanting to know if having strong self-awareness at any given time requires intention? And so then void of intention would equal normal self-awareness(or none). I'm worried that I can't turn it off if i practise too hard... sorry if im dragging this on too much.
For now, and probably for a pretty long time ahead, yes, strong (or weak, for that matter) self-awareness will require intention -- and attention, and focus. If you must worry, and you shouldn't, you should be more concerned about maintaining self-awareness than about whether you can turn it off. And yes, if you lose self-awareness you will return to your normal state.
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Sageous i'm just really interested and eager to know more about what self-awareness is. For so long i have been lost as to what could be the cause of lucidity, without knowing a cause i could not hone in anything in order to increase the liklyhood. Then i found your guide and the task of achieving lucidity feels completely different, I feel like i know what im chasing, abit. Thats why i want to know more about the self-awareness because then i know more about what i am chasing.
That's all fine, but instead of chasing a cause, why not seek a goal? If you can come to understand that self-awareness is lucidity, and also come to understand that self-awareness is a state of mind, and not some sort of lucidity trigger or technique, you might be better able to set a goal of being able to gather your self-awareness as easily as you can.
I urge you to try not to look too deeply into this stuff. Knowing specifically how lucidity works would be a great thing, but spending your time spinning your wheels chasing its absolute cause will only clog your mind. Instead, simply understand that a strong sense of self, an ability to summon self-awareness, is instrumental to successful LD'ing. There really is no more to it. Stop chasing, and do.
Is there a feeling to knowing if you are self-aware enough to be lucid whilst going to sleep, albeit an indescribable one?
None that I've ever been aware of.
But it doesn't matter, because if you are self-aware enough to be lucid while going to sleep, then you will likely be lucid in your dream.
How does practise of self-awareness pay off?
The payoff, again, is that self-awareness equals lucidity. Period.
I sound really obsessed with self-awareness and I think its because i like to be in control... only with this chasing self-awareness thing it feels still like the thing i'm chasing is invisible. Its real, but invisible.. so I'm having trouble giving myself feedback on my progress, you know what I mean? How do i stay committed whilst knowing so little about how self-awareness practise is affecting me and my chances of lucidity?
You probably already know everything you need to know about self-awareness, d3nd3, but want there to be something more. There is no self-awareness "thing," invisible or not, and no reward (like tangible feedback) for your progress. You are fully capable of being self-aware right now; the only feedback you will need are the moments of "presence" that you allow yourself to have, and your commitment should be focused on achieving your goals (i.e., becoming lucid in your dreams), and not on knowing about the bits along the way to those goals.
I think this remains unanswered btw, when i type normal sleep, I actually meant 'sleep without enough self-awareness'. So i rephrase the question now : Would practising self-awareness during the day affect your chances of being able to fall off to sleep at night time in a non-aware fashion? (My prediction is that it might, depending on if practising of self-awareness builds up an inner strength which is always on, or whether self-awareness always requires intent/thought and can be controlled easily at will)
You can rephrase this question as many times as you like, d3nd3, and my answer will still be the same: No.
Self-awareness is not the same as being awake, and has nothing to do with the falling asleep process. You can be fully self-aware and totally sleepy at the same time... if you couldn't then WILD would not work, and you would wake up every time you become lucid. This is true whether you've summoned self-awareness or have managed to maintain it constantly. I hope that you'll take a moment to try to understand this.
I hope all this made sense to you, this time. I'm not sure if I can explain it all any other way.
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