This poem might seem really stupid. Wow, your mom got mad at you. Big deal. But my self-esteem is so low that for me, being yelled at or knowing someone is mad at me is like getting slapped in the face. I can't take it. I have to deal with so much crap at school, and just as much at home, and all the emotions just build up becuase I don't have any good way to get rid of them. (And don't say "Oh, you can lucid dream, that's a perfect way," because I hardly ever have lucids, and when I do, I usually can't do anything at all.) So any little thing has the possibility of upsetting the balance and sending me over the edge. I'll have a complete breakdown, feel a bit better, and then there's more room for the feelings to build up again. Riding my bike was one of my only ways to escape. Having the privilege of riding it taken away, coupled with the fact that I was already in a pretty crappy mood, made yesterday one of the worst days ever. Yes, I know it's a miniscule problem compared to what other people have to deal with, but I'm not other people. Enjoy my blowing-off-steam-poem now.