Finally! My first WILD!!!!
It happened last night... I fell asleep around 12:30 while I was watching T.V. I was completely dressed and outside the covers. This made me wake up at 6am, and since I didn't have to go to work untill 3, I decided to stay up for half an hour and try a WILD. I stay up watching the movie "Hook"(which I like, BTW) on TNT, and at 6:30 they went to commercials, so I decided it was as good as time as any. I turned off the t.v. and began breathing deeply and concentrating on my breathing. This went on for a while, all the time I was thinking "I am awake"(as in my mind is awake) so I would not loose my consciousness.
After a while I felt like I was zooming in to inside my head, the darkness grew deeper and my body was paralized. Sound grew more distant, and I was aware of this whole proces and embraced it. Every now and then I had a thought about waking up, going back to reality, but I quickly dissuaded it. The problem I had is I kept focusing in my breathing, and I felt at times that I should just let go, but when I did I felt this state become more fragile, so I had to continue. This made me go back into the waking world.
This went on for quite some time, in fact it took me at least an hour to actually depart from the waking world. I am not really sure how it happened, I remember my mind creating many situations, dream situations in which I was a spectator. But they were not really shapes and figures, like you are supposed to see when you WILD. They were happenings and I kept trying to stop them. I was more in control of my mind than I remember ever being. At times I heard the song "Creep" from Radiohead, which distracted me. As soon as I thought stop, I stopped, which I generally am unable to do.
During this whole time my body was once again asleep, but I was very aware of it. Then, for a moment I don't remember anything, just that I kept focusing on the darkness. During an underdefined period of time I lost awareness of the waking world completely, and was nowhere and thought nothing. Then it happened....
I suddenly found myself opening my eyes, knowing I was in a dream. I was very aware of it, too aware if you ask me, and it just seemed so vivid. This was painfull for some reason...I can't really explain it.... all I know is that I knew I was asleep but at the same time I was there. I felt every little thing, I never thought dreams could be so real. It was like if I was plugged to a program(like in the matrix).
It all was happening in a very slow-motion. I couldn't really see much in the right side, it was very blurry. The left side was clear, so I decided to concentrate on that side. I remembered that somebody(not from the forum) had once told me that if you look at the palms of your hands in a dream, then you would gain control of it. I raised my hands...It all felt so real!! I started waving them in front of my face and focus on them, which did make things a bit clearer.
When I got the right side straightened out I realized that in this white house, were two friends back from high school. One I didn't recognize, the other I did. He spoke to me but I couldn't understand what he was saying to me. I asked him to repeat himself, but that didn't work. I was too amazed by the whole thing and the whole slo-mo thing threw me off. I wanted to fly, but rather decided to explore the place. I then made some gravity-defying jump to the kitchen and decided I would fly to the house of this girl I like. Then I remembered the "dream sex" thread in this forum and that there were many things I would rather do(as I stated in my post in this thread). I decided to look for a mirror....
I turned my head and "coincidentally" found a mirror in the living room. I went to it, without being able to see my reflection, at first. I decided to put my hand through it. I started at first and it felt really weird, like when your arm is asleep but more electrical, so I pulled my hand out. I saw my reflection in the mirror, but it looked like a reflection made by tin foil. I then attempted to put my whole arm in the mirror, and this feeling was what made me go back into the waking world. Everything faded and I felt myself in my body again.
I never opened my eyes, I kept breathing and fell asleep again, this time I lost my consciousness.....Funny thing I remember that in one of my dreams I was telling a friend of mine about this whole experience...
Anyway, thanks for reading, I know it is a pretty long post, but I couldn't write any less. It was one of the most vivid and realistic happening I have ever experienced, and after this I will double my efforts on waking up after 6 hours sleep and WILDing.
