FLDILD (F = failure)

It seems as though LDing two nights in a row is out of reach for me. I'm not "primed" for a lucid until I've had a few nights of failing to lucid (hence Failure to Lucid Dream Induced Lucid Dream). It's not as though I would be short on regular dreams if I did lucid every night, I have an average of 3 hard to remember ones in the first 5-6 hours, about 2 vivid ones in the next 3-4.

I think it might be a matter of motivation. After LDing, I'm pretty happy with myself, maybe I'll get lazy and not record some of the less interesting dreams, or not stay up as long after the 5-6 hours. When a few days pass without a lucid, I start to get frustrated and worried if I still have the ability, thus try harder. Obtaining resolve is still not enough, the first couple of days weren't considered failures since I didn't try; a couple more days of really failing, then I have a chance.

When I try and fail, my theory is it seeps deeper into the subconcious. Like how it's easy to dream about things that cause stress, the stress of not luciding can trigger lucids. Stress as in worrying about what you're doing wrong and if you'll lucid again.

FLDILD isn't exactly a technique I'd like to rely on. :roll:

heh this topic gave me a good laugh. i know EXACTLY what you're talking about. Its frustrating only being able to LD on random unconnected nights/mornings...

I wouldn't say they occur at random since they happen at regular intervals, but yeah, the way they're occuring makes it hard to figure out what works and what doesn't.

Last night continued this pattern (I wrote this when it had been three days since the last lucid, so I expected to have follow up material soon). I entered a lucid when somebody killed me with a brain suffocating ray gun. Except I didn't die. It makes sense, being dead sort of frees you from any current obligations you have with the dream, but this is the first time it has happened. I achieved a modest control feat of having an ocean appear around the next building I walked by, before flying cockroaches of a species that can't fly distracted and awoke me. I plan to go into an ocean eventually. They've appeared on their own quite a bit.

I'm a bit puzzled why I woke up, usually it's because it's already past 1 pm where I would wake up anyway, but this lucid occured mid morning. Another problem is I think my mind is keeping pace with all the things I expect to see in dreams now. I mentally went through a long list of potential dream signs, none of which appeared or happened in the series of dreams this morning. Other than being in class again, but I forgot to remind myself of that dream sign lately. Slippery.

My slacking has already started, I didn't write in my journal about any of the other dreams (actually I will now, since I remember one about number theory). Four days seems like a long time, especially since it's summer break and I have loads of time to focus on this, and moreover since the lucids are usually brief.

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Originally posted by grayegg
they happen at regular intervals

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You're lucky, I wish I could say the same. Sometimes they are far apart for me (dryspell now, I can't even remember any dreams.)

lol. i'm really annoyed because i can only Ld on random/accidental occaidsions and i don't think i have ever had a deliberate ld, with the exeption of the occaisional DILD