What is wrong with me?

Okay, I’ve been trying to wild for the past 2 weeks. I had one night when I first started with a few very low level dilds, but since then, have been totally unsuccessful dilding.

So every night, I get up like 5 or so hours after going to sleep, move in bed a little, maybe even sit up, to get myself alert but not too awake so I can’t get back to sleep, then I lay on my back, arms at my sides, and start the breathing and counting. I usually lose count, but I shake it off and don’t focus on it too much and keep going from where I think I left off.

After a little while, I get vibrations in my neck, and sometimes shoulders, and in very rare cases the whole upper part of my body. These last for about 5-10 seconds, then stop, and then… nothing. I’m there lying in bed having to start over. I try pushing my tongue through my teeth, but it doesn’t work.

What am I doing wrong? One night I felt really strange, I guess like people describe, having butterflies like riding a rollercoaster. That only lasted a short time too, then I was back to square one again. I even did an rc to check if it was a fa.

Please help me, I’m pitiful.

your whole concept about yourself, dreaming, reality check, ld techniques, "requirements" to suceed in ld is wrong.. Thats only my opinion..

Don't put too much pressure on yourself and remember patience is the key (lying down
forcing yourself is not patience though). There's nothing wrong with you, I believe it's
just that you're trying too hard.
Don't lie down waiting for things to happen, just focus - not too much nor too little - on
whatever technique you're using. You can always try another technique if the current
one isn't comfortable for you.

I'm not an experienced WILDer, I've been trying for five days but just recently I found
a technique where I was very close to success.

I wish you good luck and I know that you'll succeed in time whether it is a WILD or not.

Best regards,
DreamerRoss