Godspark - dream or memory?
I'm not sure how I remember this, whether it was something I dreamt about or visualised during meditation I really don't know.
I remember being a spark of energy amongst an infinite field of energy, like a particle of light in a sea of light. I felt connected to every other particle in the field. Each particle was stationary but also vibrating within it's own space. I was resonating in a state of perpetual contentment like feeling at peace with everything just existing as humble particle of light. I had the sense that I knew everything there was to know, but then it hit me - although I knew everything I didn't have any direct personal experience of anything. There was this needing to know about everything from a personal perspective. Just as I started having these individualised thoughts, I was booted out from the field and into existence, I realise now that this was because the individualised thoughts created seperateness from the field. Like you can't have someone thinking for themselves if everything else is in unity.
I often wonder if this is what it would be like to be unified with God, and if the whole purpose of reality is just to experience everything from a personal perspective. That eventually, once everything has been experienced will once again become a particle in unity with God. But how I even recall this as happening I don't even know, was it from a dream, did I experience it during meditation, did I just wake up one day knowing it? I've had this memory for so long now that I can't accurately pinpoint when it happened, whether it appeared instantly one day or has slowly surfaced over time. It's very interesting and perculiar, would like to know if anyone has experienced something similar or can share some insights?