Lucid problem,lose control every time and wake up
For my first time, i think i might have had a lucid dream. I had listened to self LD inducing binaural beats before falling asleep, and before i went to bed i asked myself "am i dreaming? " and pinched myself. One dream i was having was very obviously a dream but i did not notice, just "played the game" as i have come to call it. The second portion of the dream was more realistic and had to deal with someone giving me a large amount of money. I then asked myself if i was dreaming and pinched myself, i realized it didnt hurt and realized i was lucid. BUT as soon as i realized i was in a dream everything turned red and started vibrating. I felt myself waking up and tried to fight it but I was basically ejected and woke up.
my questions are:
Was this a lucid dream?
What did i do wrong, to lose control and wake up?
What can I do to relax myself once i realize it is a dream, and dont feel the urge to open my eyes or "snap out of it"?