I've started taking more active steps in achieving lucidity, journal reality checks the works, and now somethings seriously disturbing me.
Anyways, the past few nights I've been LDing have been very alien than my previous natural ones... like I don't even remember if there was a dream like all I remember is total darkness and then coming to the realization I'm dreaming but, a forceful voice always says something along the lines of no you aren't or no and like my previous times everything fades to black but, those times after a few seconds of waiting everything would come back. Not now.
Then one time after this I remember total blackness and then seeing my wall but, I started hearing a angry fearful voice babbling. Then I gained consciousness and realize I'm doing it and couldn't stop doing it for 3 secs after the realization.
What the hell is going on here.