Me VS Subconscious- Confusing dreams
Hello;)
I need some help to interpret my two related dreams, which came in an interval of 3 months.
Here some information which helps to interpret the two dreams: I'm 20, male and a student. Last year, I wanted to start a relationship with a girl named N. She was very disappointed about her current relationship in such a way, that she ended up completely drunk at a party, where I was also invited.
I began to have feelings for her and I felt really attracted by her. But she didn't want a relationship with me. She even told everybody I knew that I was in love with her, although I wanted it to be a secret, because I'm a introverted person.
Since the day I told her I was in love with her, she provoked me at each occasion by saying for example:" You will ever have a special place in my heart"; by dancing close to me at parties; by bumping into me "by chance", so that I come in contact with her body; etc.
Well, to sum up, she broke my heart and I started to hate her. I forgot all my feelings for her. Only problem that remained was, that I see her a lot at school (we are in the same class) and at parties.
At least I thought that there remained nothing between us. But I had two confusing dreams about her. Apparently, there remains something in my subconscious... but what? I need some help to analyse both dreams, because I really want to know what my actual feelings are or what my subconscious wants.
Here my first dream:
I'm in class. I'm sitting in the third row and in front of me sits a girl named N. She's smiling and very happy. She has a new hairstyle, very different from the style she used to have. Next to me is good friend named L. I explained something to him (but I don't know what was the subject). He is listening to me. Suddenly, during my conservation, she leaned over my desk and kissed me on the cheek. I knew it was some kind of provocation. She starts laughing and she gives me a challenging look. I get angry, really angry and started shouting at here. I even wanted to beat her up, but I couldn't, because I knew, that she wanted that I overreact.
Second dream:
I'm at a really great party, music was great and I really had fun. Next to me stands my good friend L. and in front of me N. She was smiling and seemed to be really happy. I wonder why and ask her, why she's so happy. She tells me that she's in a relationship with me. My first thought was: "what a bitch! Just another provocation"
I look at her and suddenly I had the feeling that she told the truth. I whispered to my friend L., although the music was very loud. I asked him: "Am I really in a relationship with her?" Instantly I looked at N. who nodded. But L. said to me: " I don't think so" and he started smiling. I wasn't sure if he was right so I tried something: I went close to her and wanted to kiss her on the mouth to feel if she's really in love with me. She refused and only turned her cheek to get the kiss on her cheek. So I was convinced that she lied. But suddenly, our lips touched and we had a really long kiss about ten seconds or so. I really felt her feelings for me, but suddenly I got afraid that I made a huge mistake and I got kicked out of my dream.
Thanks to everyone who read this very long post and thanks in advance to your replies.:cheeky: