Tabasco's Journal

11/28/05
Last night was my first attempt to induce lucid dreaming, Nadda, although Iwas waking several times last night and each time Iwoke I did a RC and I was really awake. To make matters worse, i only remembered fragments of my dreams (pretty sure there were 3 in total that I "Knew" I had.) But on a lighter side the fragments Ido remember, everything was super clear and the colors were so rich! wich is odd for me, cuz i usually don't take note of such things such as in one dream fragment i remeber tripping on a lawn and noting how green the grass looked and complaining about being soaked due to an unseen puddle i managed to trip into.. I woke feeling "Normal" meaning I didnt have a nightmare or bad dream, nor did i have a fantastic dream. Thats it, not much to tell.

11/29/05

Sadly, I have no drea to report for this day. I tried to have a lucid dream with no avail. Although i am awareI had dreams for this night, I cannot recall them. :(

11/30/05

No lucid dream for this night, but i do vaguely what the dream was about. It was a great dream about being a super hero(wich is always a great dream to have! :D ) Although I do remember waking temporarily to do a RC and I was truly awake. I did this several time when i was leaving REM state. It's not much but it is a start, because I am automatically doing RCs, without much thought. Meaning I am now making it a habit of it. I must be getting close. To be honest, good dreams like the one I had I usually just like to sit back and enjoy it, because I wake up feeling happy and empowered. :D

The dream? I was a super hero capable of leaping tall building in a single bound! This is almost as fun as flying! It also elicits the same feeling that flying does. My hubby is in my dream, although he does not look like himeself. Strangely he is not the hubby I know in my waking life, but all the things I love about him were represented in his character.(At the moment hubby and I are fighting like cats and dogs and could possibly on the brink of divorce.) In my dreams I only indentify the people are who they are by the emotions I feel for them. Hubby was a superhero as well. Thats all I remember about the dream.

12/1/05

First let me apologize about posting 3x, i hadn't posted for 2 days and i had to update my journal

I am happy to report I came sooooo close last night to having a lucid dream! how close? very close! I had a dream about My hubby's deceased father(he passed away when hubby was 18 and i never met him but heard tons about him.) and Hubby's mom (who isn't deceased and is married to my father.LMAO don't ask its a looooong story! and not significant to this dream....I think.)
Anyways I was dreaming about my hubby's parents and i was watching them intensly as I was curious how they interacted with each other, when father-in-law was alive. Anyways both were deceased and had crossed over into this plane, and I was asking them what the "after life" was like. Curiously enough it looked simular to earth with some slight differences.(style of buildings and castles i have never seen before.) They were "just visiting" for a little while., wich is actually typical for my mother-in-law. She's in the states(NewHampshire) and well me and the kids are here in Canada.

Just as i was leaving my dream state I did it!! I did the "pinch you nose" RC and it worked! I iwas still dreaming! i was so stunned that i woke myself! But hey! it's a start! :D

Funny thing was, I told myself "I'm not even gonna try tonight." and Wham! it happened :D

12/2/03

Didn't try lucid dreams tonight, went to a Christmas party and was drinking, didn't remember a single dream, wich is typical for me when I had a drink or two. I didn't go down for sleep til 1am.

12/3/05

No lucidity tonight but a very interesting dream. I only remeber one and its a brief section of it.

Spike, the blonde haired vampire from "Buffy" is there. His are glowing and his fangs are bared. Curious as to why hes behaving this way, I approach him but as I do his fangs and his eyes return to normal. In a voice that makes him sound like he's sulking, he tells me that he's afraid of me. I feel the need to console him, as I am about to explain why he should'nt be afraid of me, I notice that although he has all these muscles, there is no definition no lines no contors. I think to myself if i drew them in, spike would have more confidence, and wouldn't be afraid anymore. So I offer him my finger to bite, as I was going to use my blood to "draw" back his muscular features. He bites me but leaves an imprint mark.I stared at the imprint puzzled. I think to myself that it will hurt, so I hesitate to offer my finger again. Soon my dream begins to end, and somehow i find some to "draw" with and before i know it i and drawing muscle contors and shading......and then I wake up.

12/4/05

I had a few dreams but couldn't remember any of them. I set my alarm to wake me up at 2:15am to start the lucid mp3, but the voice woke me up, and then i couldn't fall back to sleep. So I turned it off and went back to sleep having only fragments of dream, and not being able to remember any of them. :( I will try again tonight.

12/5/05


Had brief dream that I was suspicious of my husband cheating. I was outside sitting on grass lawn(where I don't know.) when i find a peice a paper with a bunch of writing on it.(Since my hubbys mis spells alot it did not alert me to the fact that I was dreaming.) Then I realize I am stepping on something. I was stepping on symbols I regconize them as sybols from a game i play called "Alchemy".

12/7/05

I drempt that a neighbor(from another neighborhood I onced lived in) came to my house to visit. My house was a mess so I was a tad uncofortable. I said to her"Don't mind the mess."[/b]

12/11/05

Last night Idreampt my sonwon achance to meet the " Mighty Morphing Power Rangers"

Go figure! That night I took my Kids to Mcdonalds andmy daughter got a happymeal and a power ranger was her prize.lmao!!!

So the power ranger were skating all around this room but when they removed their helmets, they are just little kids!(no older than 5 years!) After hanging around the kids for a bit Theperson responcible(Their talent agent I assume) tells me that we also won a prize of ten thousand dollars. I was so excitedas I knewthat I could get the kids anything they wanted for christmas!

August 3rd 2006


Well, its been about 8 months since my last post. But I have a darn good reason, I seperated from my husband, because well things were on the verge of becoming violent and me and the kids had to leave.

anyways, will start this update with saying. I tried the mp3 2x so far. First time I must've played it too soft, cuz I slept straight through it. second night, I couldnt sleep at all I was awake the hole time the thing played so I turned the mp3 off. The thing I do like about listening to the mp3, is that it causes my dreams to be rich in color!

I also start with a dream I had about 3 days ago.

I was dropping my 2 yearold daughter off to her father's house for a visit. As I walk away from the house with my back turned, I hear my daughter crying for me. I turn around and notice dark clouds forming above the house. There several neighbors staring up at the clouds as well. I know what the clouds mean(It means a tornado is gonna touch down.) and once again I am out in the wide open, an easy target for it. So i rush back into my husbands apartment, and realize no one is actually home. So sneak down the basement to gather some of my things that i know hes still storing.(In real life, there really are a bit of my personally belongings stored in boxes in the basement.) but as I go downstairs I catch site of my husband and realize he would have caught me looking around for my stuff. I head upstairs to the main floor and I am looking around. Nothing has changed and it looks as it does in real life. I think to my self, how it hasn't changed everything was as I had left it.(oooh yeah i knew exactly what that was trying to tell me.) It was then my husband was trying to hit on me in the most crudest way and I was repulsed and told him that I wasnt interested.

END.

Well, tonight I try the mp3 again. For the life of me I just cant seem to remember to do RC and I dont know why.