Severed Proof

Background - I used to be able to LD on my own when I was in middle school, but I've kinda fallen off the dreaming stuff since. This will hopefully be the story of how I got my groove back.

9-9-2008 / Weird Stuff
Good signs right off the bat. I recalled two dreams the first night (neither lucid or especially vivid), but I got the old WBTB pattern of waking up once in the middle of the night, and then again at around 6 and some change. Encouraging!

In my first dream I was in my old high school in present day, talking to Emily, some goth kid I used to know. She is not her usual sardonic self - she's almost bubbly! We catch up on old times and she introduces me to her friend Drew (her name was Drew Bennett in the dream, but it was something else in real life).

My journal says "An african teacher. I go to classes and learn." but the meaning is lost on me now.

Second dream :

I was at an arcade with my younger cousin (looking back, the arcade was clearly a Dave and Busters) playing some sort of Street Fighter style game, And I was playing Liu Kang, doing the Shang Tsung style triple fireballs, beating up on people from some OTHER game who I didn't recognize, winning again and again. What was odd about this game is that it was a light gun game as well - between fights, you had to pick up the little laser guns and work together.

Eventually, he picked Jill Valentine and beat me. We went home with my mom, and a guy from the Arcade followed us home, met us in the kitchen, and demanded photographic evidence that we played the game.

:?

9-10-2008 - Lucid Aids

1130 PM 5mg Melatonin/Apple Juice/BrainSync "Deep Sleep"
- Nothing. I'd slept so soundly that I was discouraged - I understood the REM rebound intellectually, but I was inexplicably worried. The prospect of apple juice and ice cream got me out of bed, though.

3:15AM Hot Dog/Ice Cream/Apple Juice/300 mg B-6

I'm in some sort of improve drama session, me and someone else go outside, we're given characters, then we come back and take questions from the audience as the character. The girl I'm doing it with is some sort of Jane Austen character (they said the character was from Sense and Sensibility, but I've never read it, so how would I know?) and I was some sort of blaxploitation era sitcom/action star. I got the first question, something about whether I'd let my movies show up on BET Classic. I turned to the teacher, who was on the phone and occupied, then mouthed the f sound to the crowd.

Somebody yelled what I was trying to say, and everyone laughed.

I then say, "BET Classic? What the hell would they show on BET Classic, [Jibberish Movie] on a loop?"

Everyone laughed, and I woke up.

I remember having 2 or 3 very vivid, very short dreams, but I was so tired I didn't mention it in my journal. :'(

9-11-08 - First Lucid
10:00 PM - Hot Dog, Chips, Ice Cream, 200mg B6, 5mg Melatonin, both induction Mp3's


Didn't really expect to get any sleep tonight at all, let alone get a lucid, music from down the hall, which I tried to ignore or drown out, but that didn't really do the job. I eventually got it knocked off, but there were still lights on for a while. I pretty much resigned myself to losing tonight, got online, looked at Ninja's journal for about 4 pages, then went to sleep at around 1.

2:00 AM
I vaguely remember jumping really high in my neighboorhood, with a lot of dogs on leashes, and it seemed like everywhere I'd land, there'd be a long within leash range running towards me. I bounced away from that, and next thing I know, I'm imagining myself bouncing around my house, off the walls the cilings, stuff like that. I go outside and the thought hits me that hey, I don't normally do this in everyday life - OHSHI. I can't expect the DS to be that obvious all the time, of course - subconscious pretty much screaming at me there.

This is sort've a bad draw though -it's sorta fuzzy/muddy. The first thing I think of is flying, becuase I've done it before, so I should know that I can do it. But when I did it before as a kid, I kinda hop/floated, hop/floated, and then took off very slowly. A straight liftoff might have been too much for me. I got a foot off the ground and hung there for a moment before coming back down. My second idea was to summon "S", a DC from back in the day who taught me a lot of stuff. I figured that if I could do the summon, I could ask her to fly, and I could grab her hand - that might be easier for me to disgest. Sneaky. I saw a very dim whirlwind in front of me, but Sdoesn't jump out of it or anything. The thought hits me that I'm still being way too ambitious for my first LD in maybe 8-9 years. I look away, try to see if I can conjure without looking directly at anything, but that doesn't work either, and I can feel myself starting to fade.

No no no not yet!

I remember a DV post about "spinning", so I spin clockwise and redraw the scene. I get a beach at sunset -things are more solid now, but it looks cartoony, like A Scanner Darkly or Waking Life, except with duller colorsI think of clearing my mind, taking a deep breath and enjoying it(because I expected this to take a couple months, not the third try). Then I hear a very friendly kinda tune, like something from a kids TV show, but it has the air of the the Final Jeopardy song, and it leaves no doubt in my mind that once it's over, it's over, know what I mean?I just decide to embrace that I'm not "ready" for anything deeper yet and don't get greedy. I sit down, take a deep breath and relax.

I did good.

9-12-2008
11:45 - 100mg B6, 5mg Melatonin, Hot Dog, Apple Juice, Induction #1-2.

3:30 AM -More Juice. I like Juice, OK? Induction #2.

Nada. I might have been trying too hard last night.

filler.

9-13 - Off Night.

You cause damage to your body if you take that Melatonin every night, so I'm chillin on it for the weekend, letting my mind rest from LD work.

9-17-08 - Babysitting

Pretty boring last night. I had a dream I was babysitting my little cousins. It must have been set a while back - the older girl was 4 or 5, the younger boy was a baby. The girl tried to wrestle him down every once in a while and I had to break them up. Yawns.