CloudStrife1992's Dream Journal

As I've been unable to keep motivation up with writing a dream journal either on paper or with a word processor, I decided to give it a try here. :) I haven't had any LDs yet as of typing this, but I've only been trying for 2-3 weeks (WILD attempts every night. I haven't been able to remember to do reality checks during the day :? ).

Feel free to comment or ask questions.

Lucid Dreams will be in green.


Other Stuff:

People I know in my dreams:
For this journal I use the first letter (or something similar) of my friends' names when they appear in my dreams. Here's a bit of a summary:

C - Appears in about 1/4 - 1/2 of my dreams. I tend to have romantic feelings toward him in my dreams, even though I don't in waking life.

J, D, B, H1, and H2 - Occasionally appear in my dreams.


Major Lucid Accomplishments:

Nothing yet!

Yesterday's dream:

2/20-21/09

As I'm recording this at 8:45 PM, Many of the details have left me. I couldn't make myself sit down and write it before now.

1) A friend of the family (someone I know in my waking life) had cancer of some sort. It had spread all over her body and she was dieing from it, so I went over to help her. I think someone warned that I could die if I tried to help her, but I did it anyway. I could see the tumors as colored balls of light, so I somehow (using my mind?) pulled out several of them. I was near-death when I finished, so I wandered out of the room feeling like I was going to faint. I then returned to the room she was in (which happened to be my bedroom in waking life), had a conversation with the people there in which I said something much wittier than I normally would be able to come up with, then left the room again.

It was quite an inspiring dream actually. Though the sad thing is, my grandma died of cancer today. I wonder if I had the dream because of that.



Three dreams (sort of) today and pretty good recall. Still no lucids though. They were separate, but almost like parts of the same dream.


2/21-22/09

I remembered the beginning of the first one when i got up, but in the 10 minutes since then, I've forgotten it. :?

1) My mom and I were at a meeting with her old work colleagues that took place in a mixture of a house and a conference building. The house part belonged to a friend of mine (who I know in waking life. I'll call him C) and his family. (Oddly enough, I generally have a crush on this friend of mine in dreams, when I don't in waking life. This is made even more annoying by how often he appears in my dreams.) I spent the first part of the dream wandering around talking to various people, C, and his friends. Somewhere in here I gave some stuffed animals to C (which is odd, because I this he'd never like a stuffed animal, but he loved them in the dream). Next thing I remember is me in a room with C who was acting quite sad. I think it was my fault the play wasn't going to go well, but he didn't seem to be blaming me for anything. Then we were performing the play, or what was left of it. It was mainly all of us just standing there, staring at the crowd. Afterward I remember someone saying something about my dress (that I had worn during the play) being overly formal if it hadn't been used for the play. Sometime after, I was going to stay in the building with C and his friends, but Mom's colleagues said they wanted me to join them for pictures. So I went to find C and told him where I was going, then asked him if he'd be up when I got back. He said maybe, then said good night. I think I said good night too, then I stood there awkwardly for a minute, then left. So we all walked down the hall toward an elevator, where I met up with C.J. from The West Wing. In fact, all of Mom's colleagues had become characters from The West Wing bu this point. She said something about me having a crush on C, to which I replied with a gigantic smile completely uncharacteristic of me "How did you know?!" She replied that she'd just seen me act in a certain way and had assumed. She and I ended up in parking lot talking ab out various things. She was showing me something with the big green signs (at least that's how they look in the U.S., I'm not sure about other countries) that you see above your head on the highway.

2) (Pretty much a continuation of the previous dream.) We're all back at the conference/house place and we start to settle into bed. I for some reason think it's time to leave, so I pick up all out stuff and start walking out the door, but I see Mom is staying put, so i go back. She takes my sleeping bag out of our duffel-bag thing, while I have hers. I say I want my sleeping bag, so we switch. I then go to sleep with the intention of WILDing (My first dream-related thought in a dream and I completely missed it!). The next day we're all talking in the conference part of the place again, watching something on a large TV, when a bunch of big mean looking people came in. They had us play something on the TV as all of C's family and friends came out of their house-area. C stood on a stairway, so i went up to join him. I said something about it being a good idea to watch the TV from up there, but he didn't respond and walked away. I then huggled one of the stuffed animals I'd given him (which is actually one I have in waking life).

3) I have a feeling this happened after the conference area and I'd left there because I needed a break or something. I was shooting down the car-filled roads of my town, which were under a foot of water. I got to a certain spot, then thought I should head back to the conference place or Mom would get worried, so I turn around and head back. Some male voice starts up explaining how efficient the type of travel I was doing (speeding along in water-filled streets) was. I clearly remember it saying that men can go up to 60mph and women can go up to 45mph. I then have to stop for some reason (I think another swimmer was blocking my path) and I hear another voice saying I'd have to defend the roads. I keep going and at some point I change from swimming to driving a car. I stop on the sidewalk where some people are pulled over. I was part of some misunderstood religion (which is odd, cause I'm not really religious in waking life) and these people were also part of it. Another car stopped, and these people were skeptics. One of them got out and started complaining about our religion. She had curly red hair, was short, could barely speak English and had a very thick accent. Eventually another woman stepped out, this one tall, young, and blond, who could speak better English but had just as much of an accent. We introduced each other. At some point after that, at least two of the people ended up getting shot.

Interesting dream ^^ reminds me of a dream I had a few weeks ago! :P

XxX keep dreaming XxX

Weird last night I had about 3-4 dreams to all non lucid but induced by WBTB

Yay, comments. :) Thanks, glad you found them interesting.

Not that much for today, didn't remember my dreams very well.

2/22-23/09

1) The dream was video-game styled. For the first parts, it looked like some of the older Final Fantasy games, then the rest of it was sort of anime-styled. The game included one of my original races from my novels, and one of the characters was a member of that race. I remember having to find that person. Then we were in a house or some sort of building. There was a sequence of the 7 or so members of the group I was in each discovering their 'wolf side', then there was a fight in front of the building.

Very interesting, maybe that shows you are assertive!?

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Very interesting, maybe that shows you are assertive!?

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I actually am very assertive on occasion. Sometimes too much so. Which dream were you referring to though?


Journaling quite late today... Don't remember much.

2/23-24/09

1) Something about an evil chef. My mom was in this one. I think it was taking place in an IKEA kitchen, which is odd, because I really like IKEA. Why did I dream of an evil chef in IKEA? There were several scenes of driving around the parking lot and getting food from a buffet.

2) Something about a whole bunch of guys, some of which were discovering they were brothers. I was one of them... :? I'm a guy in my dreams quite often.

Better recall today... Still no lucids though. :?

2/24-25/09

1) In some kind of public building. I saw a sign or something that had different options to pic when you wanted to do something with a dog. The top one was 'kill' and I pressed on it. I got a rock out of a vending-machine sort of thing and threw it at a random dog passing by. The dog, of course, died. Next thing I remember is me and a friend standing somewhere (both of us were running from police) and a couple of people searching for us came by and said we didn't match the suspects. Then there was something about the 'twins', a pair of kids that had been with a group of runaways I'd joined by then. They were missing for a while, then they were found. Then we were all walking down a beach-like area talking.

2) This dream was really long originally, but I only remember this part, which I believe was a flashback of some sort. The other part of the dream ended with the guy in this part dieing. I had been spending a lot of time with him and his girlfriend, then I think he died in a car crash or similar accident. So this part starts with me and this guy in the front row of chairs. I think it was a seminar of some sort. So the teacher comes up a flight of stairs and starts throwing eggs into the crowd. This was a way of testing something I believe. So the guy next to I was with catches one, but it breaks in his hands. Not knowing what to do with it, he decides to eat it. After catching and eating a few more of them, I ask with what they're like. He says something like "they're just as good as -----". He explains to me a bit about his culture and eating raw eggs (I believe he was Arab, at least he looked like it) I decide to try a bit and I actually liked it.

3) I was watching the 'ending' of Kingdom Hearts video game series. (Not the real ending, and I don't know which game in the series it was meant to be. I think it was the first one.) The first part of the ending was Sora, Kairi, and Riku flying around through different worlds, then the second part was the Halloween Town song and clips from the movie/game clips from the games. So was singing along to that quite loudly. I think my mom was standing next to me for that part. The ending then started over and one of my cousins who is in a wheel chair rolls in. I go turn off Kingdom Hearts and ask her if she wants to watch West Wing (which is odd, cause she and her family don't like West Wing). I remember this after a moment, when she asks "West Wing?". Sometime during the more forgotten parts of this dream, I had a False Awakening where I woke up in my living room. Second time something LD related came up in a dream and I missed it.

Ok, so I forgot to post for almost two days. :?

I didn't remember my dreams from last night, so I'll type up what I remember of my dreams from the night before last. Also, I'm sorry for the big-wall-of-text I tend to write my dreams down in. I would love to break them up into paragraphs, but I'm honestly not sure where to split them, as my dreams don't really lend to being broken up very well.


2/25-26/09

1) Either I was someone who lived in a sewer-house, or I had a close friend who did. Might have been both, as I tend to change perspectives quite often in my dreams. This dream actually spanned a year, though I'm not sure how much of that was actually in the dream. At one point, me and my family, or who every they were, were having a sale of some sort. We were living in a town that reminds me of Anakin's (is that his name?) in Star Wars. About a year later, we had a sale on the same day of the year. Sometime after that, me and a bunch of people who suddenly morphed into most of the characters from the West Wing found a giant octopus who I was completely convinced was going to eat us all. We had fought and defeated another one sometime in the dream before this. I pulled Josh (West Wing character) away, while leaving the others to stare at it, though I was still very concerned for them. Instead of eating us (though it was expressing it's desire to) it crawled over and sketched a rectangle on some stone with a marker. This apparently meant something to us, since we continued to communicate with it. After a few minutes we apparently decided the octopuses (yes now there were two of them) had to be killed. My mom and I split off from the West Wing characters and led one of the octopuses to a table near by. It laid down, as it was now something between a human, a dragon, and a whale. My mom and I searched through some drawers and found some quite creepy stuff, then told the octopus-human-dragon-whale thing to go into another room. It got up with it's head bowed and walked out. Luckily, I woke up around here. I was feeling guilty for trying to kill that thing, since it had become very innocent and cute by the end of the dream.

2) For most of this dream I either was Toby from the West Wing, or I was someone very similar to him. More likely someone similar to him, as Toby is Jewish, and I was a Roman Catholic for some reason in this dream. So, first thing I remember is traveling down a long very straight street that I think was lined with trees or a wall of some sort. This whole place reminds me of Italy. I don't remember what type of transportation/if I was walking, running, flying, swimming, or something else. There was a large (maybe 10 Ft. tall) long-furred creature with long curved horns that I think was still a child of it's race. I was very good friends with this creature, though I think either I was trying to apologize for something either I or someone else did, I was trying to comfort it, or I was running away with it. I'm not sure if it was physically injured or not. At some point I leave it and turn down another road. This one I think had train tracks either under it or on both sides. It had stone walls. I get a ways down and I suddenly hear someone's voice (who I think was a friend of mine in the dream, or at least a team member of some sort) saying something like (they hate Roman Catholics! Run or she'll kill you!). So what do I do? I stare at the person with the machine gun up on something like those irrigation canals that were built in the air somewhere in the world, and of course get hit by the little red lights she's shooting at me. I barely felt them, and in the dream I'm pretty sure I was wondering why my friend was so concerned about it. Oh well, listen to the dream characters! They know best! :bowdown: Like a game, I'm able to restart this part of my dream. Each time it starts with the friend yelling that same line. For a few attempts I simply jump off the main part of the road onto the train tracks and of course, still get hit. So on the fifth or so try, I turn and run, or ride rather, as I'm now peddling my heart out on something with wheels (bicycle, tricycle, unicycle, etc.). Until I get to the street, this part feels like I'm riding over very large stones, though I didn't feel the little red lights at all. I soon get to an inn or tavern and meet up with who I assume is the friend who was yelling for me to run before. We go inside, I see someone and I think this is where I switched to her point of view. This person was pretty much my normal self. *sigh* I've been a guy way too much in my dreams lately. I guess it's better than falling in love with a friend I really don't want to fall in love with though. :? Anyway, so as myself now, I go out the back, apparently running from either the person I just was or some other people. My mom appears at some point and we go hide under a table as we're being chased. I pull on a lever, not having any idea what it does. I pull on it several more times, hoping to figure it out. After a while I look behind us and see a cow drinking from a very full tub of water and I realize that the lever controls how much water the cow gets. So somehow the cow drinking way to much water makes us both very relieved and we know it will get rid of the people looking for us. The cow walks around to the direction we came from, then comes back in our direction walking toward the people looking for us. I woke up soon after this and realized it was a dream about halfway back to reality. I tired to re-enter a dream, but no luck. :(

Nothing the night before last (hence no post yesterday), but OMG! First Lucid last night! :D I'm pretty sure it was lucid anyway. :? It felt very much like how people describe lucid dreams, but some things weren't right about it, like how long it was, how I didn't really get excited at all, that I remember, how easily I stayed in it, how I wasn't sure if one part was reality or not, even though the spot was a mix of two places I've lived in, and how many things I missed. If it wasn't actually lucid, I congratulate my brain on a dream well created.


2/28 - 3/1/09

1) This one I only remember bits and pieces of, but it was a sleepover at my friend's house (the one who I'm calling C in my DJ) and another friend of mine, who I'll call J, was there too. I was once again, as I usually am when he appears in my dreams, in love with C. Thing is, he had a girlfriend (which he has in real life) and I was being extremely sneaking about trying to get him to like me. I think he was getting the idea by the end. It was odd, and I get really annoyed when I have dreams involving him.

2) During all of this dream, especially the part I'm pretty sure was lucid, I had an utter lack of emotion. :? Good for staying lucid, but it makes me wonder if I really was lucid. I was in a room that was fairly empty with someone else. We went into another room and stole a circular object, and I was expecting an alarm to start blaring, but it didn't. We went back into the other room, hearing robot voices following us, and I set the object that had now become a box on a stand near the wall. As I open it, I start thinking "Alright, now for those dream superpowers" That's when I remember that I do have superpowers. I was in a dream! Strangely enough, I thought this more as if it was fact and only got a little excited, as far as I can remember. I never did any reality checks either. I unfortunately realized this just as the evil robots came in the room and started shooting little white balls at us. I dropped to the floor, then was trying to get my bearings as they continued to fire at us. I then lifted my hand and willed the balls to stop, thinking or saying something like "stop time!". They stopped, sort of matrix-style and just hung in the air. I don't exactly remember what I did next, but I think I was trying to fix an itch or something in the corner of my right eye, but instead of fixing it in the dream world, I actually opened my physical eyes for a moment. The dream of course, vanished, but I was still very aware of my dream body. I dropped to the floor, which I could still feel, and started feeling the hardwood floor, then rubbing my hands together, and switching between the two for a while. Eventually, a new dream materialized. I rubbed the carpet, then rubbed my hands together for a couple minutes, then set off down the street that happened to be in the house I'd materialized in. I went over to a window in my living room (this part actually looked a lot like my current living room) I thought I'd try walking through glass. I put my fingers against it, but it remained solid. I tried a few more times, but it still didn't work. I put my head against the glass and it broke a little bit. I backed away and decided to break it, so I punched it with my palm facing it. It shattered. I then decided to try to fix it, so I moved my hands up and toward me. All the pieces of glass jumped up and filled in the hole, but it didn't look repaired. I tried a few more arm movements and got it fairly well fixed. I then moved it to the side, on accident, and a bunch of people came through. I tried to close it again, but I didn't. I think it had suddenly become winter, but I don't remember feeling cold. The glass had become ice, but I didn't notice this. I turned to a bunch of boxes that also had ice in them. I tried fixing them, and the DC's seemed impressed. Then another one came in, and started lecturing me on how this was the last thing we needed and something about a flood. I listened to him, then left and walked back up the street. I then remembered my idea to find Cloud Strife from the Final Fantasy VII game, so I willed him to appear behind me. I turned around and he was right there, though it was actually a female version of him with red hair and a ponytale. I jumped on him anyway and changed him into the male version as I did. I remember C and J being somewhere nearby. C handed me a carved circle of wood or stone about 8 inches wide. It had letters of the alphabet on it. So I left Cloud and walked somewhere else. I spun, trying to create a scene in my novels. It sort of worked, but the place appeared in the distance. I tried again, but nothing changed. I walked forward and saw that there was a stadium in the middle of the circular valley. I don't remember teleporting there, though I'm pretty sure I tried to, so I might have been successful. I was now in a vine-covered area and decided to changed my clothes into Lightning's from Final Fantasy XIII. This almost worked perfectly, but I think some parts were flipped (right leg instead of left). I then followed someone else down the side of the stadium I was standing next to. There were handle bars every couple of feet, but some of them were coming out as I grabbed onto them. Neither me or the person I was with now with fell though. We got to the floor in a book-store sort of place and I heard DC's muttering about people not escaping from that performance. I then continued to follow the girl I was with. She was kind of evil, but not really. (Looking for the bad guys but being really vicious about it.) We entered a room while she was muttering various things. I saw me, C, and J standing there. This a was scene from my previous dream. I spun, trying to create the Forgotten City from Final Fantasy VII. It sort of worked, but ended up being a scene from a dream I had a few days ago and had forgotten about, with a few dozen short glowing trees. I think I lost lucidity somewhere around here, I think when one of the glowing trees walked up. It looked like a purple/blue carrot at one point with a whole bunch of faces on it. I tried to plant it, but woke up before I did.

Don't remember dreams from the night before last, so no post again. Here are last night's:


3/2-3/09

1) Started out in a large building, from what I remember. I was with another friend of mine, who I'll call B, and we were looking for C. We eventually found him in a room with another friend of mine, D. Next thing I remember we and a couple other people were walking on a beach near a house that resembled tall, sharp, dark rocks. I'm not sure if this was the same building from the beginning of the dream. At some point we all decided to make an AMV MEP (Anime Music Video Multi-Editor Project). I remember being on the computer several times looking at posts on a forum about the MEP. I think it had the number 4 in it's title.

2) I had to leave the house to go get something. I think my mom was going to do it, but I assured her I could drive. I couldn't (although I was in the back seat of the car for some unknown reason) and I nearly hit some guy walking his dog, who I avoided by making the car turn left by leaning to the left. I was able to crawl into the front seat, and then was able to drive fairly well. I kept switching between riding a bike and driving for the rest of the dream. I was in a park at one point and rode my bike by the guy I'd nearly hit, who was talking about the incident. He didn't recognize me though. Then I was in a parking lot sort of area, which led to the entrance to my old school's library. The librarian wouldn't let me into the rest of the school, so i turned around and got in the car. My mom had now appeared and was driving now.

3) Possibly a continuation of the previous dream, but I'm keeping them separate anyway. I was in a tropical school (palm trees everywhere and thatched roofs) that was my friends' new school. I was visiting them for lunch, like I tend to do in waking life. I mainly remember seeing two friends, H1 and H2. I was with H1 for a while, then I got thirsty and found the cafeteria. I found some water bottles next to a 5-10 gallon jug. These bottles were orange, 4-5 feet tall, 1-2 feet wide, and 5 or so inches thick. I filled it up with the intention of taking it home with me. I had also picked up some tortillas and a couple other food items. I found another water container that I think was a little smaller and filled it too. For the rest of the dream, I was talking with H2 and carrying around all this stuff, and dropping a lot of it.

Yay! Second lucid! Though I feel a little better now, since this one was more like what you'd expect from a first lucid. I was feeling like I was being unfair or something, considering how long my first lucid was. Though I'm still not 100% sure the other one was a lucid... :?

I've noticed while keeping my dream journal the past week or two that I almost always subconsciously know I'm dreaming, like throughout this entire dream, I knew I'd seen it all before. I need to learn to take advantage of this every time it happens. I also wake myself up from a dream once in a while, when it starts to get to where I don't like it. I almost never remember the dream when I do this, though, just the fact that I'd had enough and woke myself up, but had never been lucid.


3/3-4/09

1) This is a recurring dream, and I didn't remember it until now, but it's actually what got me lucid. I was with someone in a field that had two parallel rows of trees in it and a white fence (I think) around it. This someone was I think either a friend of mine or a relative I almost never saw. She was teaching me how to fly using 4 ft. by 2.5 ft. boards that were made of either stone or wood. I flew around for a while, loving it, then I landed for a while and my mom came out. I tried to show her that I could fly, distantly remembering a time when I'd been able to do something for someone, but not my mom. I couldn't fly knowing my mom was there. Mom left and I was able to fly again. At some point I flew into the trees and spotted my mom watching me. I was then able to fly with her around. Next thing I remember is me talking with someone (an uncle?) about being very careful doing something I don't remember. We then took his rusty old over-sized car, lit a back section of it on fire, and went around the field picking up trash. We put out the fire before it reached a part of the car that would make it explode, then storm clouds started gathering quite fast. The rest of my family (many of which aren't family in waking life) come out of the house and get ready for the storm. (We apparently party in storms in that world. :?) At some point someone claps their hands or something and the storm starts. It starts raining fairly hard, lighting, all that stuff. I have a lit match for some reason, which I then drop in the wet grass and it goes out. I take my shoes off, and I remember they were really tight. Then I remember thinking ...recurring dream... this is a dream. And I was lucid. I get up on my knees, but my breath catches (I don't remember why) and the dream starts to fade. I rub my hands together and feel a sort of tingling through my body for a minute. I think I also felt a little numb. I opened my eyes to a false awakening once those feelings had dissipated, and did the nose-pinch reality check. I could breath, but the dream started to fade again. I remember doing the reality check again, then I suddenly opened my physical eyes. I did the reality check and I couldn't breath, so I thought about my dream for a while, then got up to write it down.

2) This one seems like it took place in the middle of the other dream, but I've never had this part of it before, so I'm writing it down separately. I was with some guy and and a few other people in a bed-room and we were talking about West Wing. The guy I was talking to was the director of West Wing, and in the dream he was just starting to work on the fifth series. At some point I asked him if he had any spaces left for a video editor. I explained how I loved video editing and how the second to last episode of the fourth season had really inspired me. I also asked him how they found their songs, since I'd also loved the song in the end of season 4. He asks me something about how good of an editor I am, and I say I can make it look really good. My cat was in this dream somewhere too. I also remember I was constantly trying to get comfortable.

Third Lucid! This is way too easy for me. ;) Now I just have to learn to control them better. Though I am remembering some of what other people and I say.


3/4-5/09

1) I only remember bits and pieces of this dream. I don't really know what parts came first, so I'll just go with what seems sort of logical. My mom and I somehow moved a building (which I remember was yellow or gold-ish) onto another building, which I knew was the Square Enix headquarters building (which is actually in Tokyo). As we moved, the building tipped from side to side. I nearly fell off, but was able to pull myself back up. Then my mom fell off, but she couldn't get back up and just fell. We both had parachutes (though I didn't know this until she used her's) and I jumped down after her. We both landed safely and got back into our truck. Second part I remember is me an mom in a store or something that had a recreation of us lifting the building. It looked quite cartoonish and had a sign pointing out the concrete at the bottom of the building. Some people try to rob the store, or some other criminally thing. Most of the people in the store were now characters from the West Wing, including me. I was Toby again. Four other people jump into an elevator, then I jump in and the doors close. I played this part over several times. Third part was the five of us doing something near a building. I believe we were trying to take down an evil company of some sort and rescue the president. At one point I was flying around the outside of the building searching for Lightning (from FFXIII), but I didn't find her. There were around 5 other girls climbing up the building though.

2) I don't remember how I first became lucid, and I almost completely forgot the whole thing. :( I was in the middle of trying to get to sleep again to have a lucid when I remembered I'd already had one. But I did remember it! :D I was also worrying that it wasn't a dream most of the time, which is probably why all the things I tried didn't work. So I was in my bed. I do a reality check and I can breath. I think I then immediately had another false awakening, so I reality checked again and could still breath. It took me quite a long time to stabilize the dream, but once I did I tried to make Cloud Strife appear. Didn't work, but I remembered my goal to find my Dream Guide. I got up and went into the kitchen and found my mom (and a couple friends of ours, K and R). I remember the kitchen table was gone. I asked, "Mom, where's my dream guide?". She went into her bedroom, then said as she waked back, "He's in here.". I went in and... there was no one there. I do remember that the room was completely different than it is in waking life. There were clothes hanging on the wall as if they were decoration and the bed was in a different place. I check the room a bit more, then go out and tell my mom that he wasn't there. She doesn't respond (as far as I remember) so I then remember the Task of the Month. I ask her if she has any green eggs and ham. I think she just kinda looked at me funny and laughed. I talked to her for a minute, then walked back toward my room. In my room, I said aloud, "I have green eggs and ham in my hand!", remembering that it had worked for someone else. It didn't work, though my hand started to look like a plate. I went out and thought I'd try to do a shared-dream type thing and enter my mom's dream. I said something like "take me to mom's dream" asking it of the dream/my subconscious. It didn't work, but the ceiling caved in again. I asked again, and this time the ceiling started to look like it was melting. The third time I asked, everything short forward, leaving me in blackness. Nothing happened, then I think my house bounced back into view. I assume my mom had woken up by then, so my mind wasn't able to find her dream. At some point I decide to try to fly. I sort of jumped, then slid on my stomach across the floor and nearly hit a desk. This fully brought back my house and R, K, and my mom all seemed a little surprised. I went back into my room and tried to summon Cloud a few more times. Still didn't work. I'm not sure if I tried to go to the Forgotten City (from FFVII) or if I only thought about it. I was still in my room though, so if I did try, it didn't work. I found a picture of my old house (though it was actually a picture of a room with my parents, my current cat that I hadn't had there, and my dog, who had webbed spines down her back). I tried to go there, but then I either lost lucidity, or woke up. If I had more dream after that, I forgot it.

Well, no entry for two days (almost three). First night I didn't remember any dreams, second I only got 4 1/2 hours of sleep, so didn't remember my dreams, but last night I had a few very long dreams. As I'm recording this very late, I don't remember much, but I did have my fourth lucid and a dream where I dreamed I became lucid.


3/7-8/09

1) I was in a very large place that I think was orange colored and a stone/crystal/glass stairway. I have a feeling this place was inspired by a game I've been playing. At one point I was going up a set of stairs and suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I don't remember what happened after that, so I think I lost lucidity soon after. At one point Tina/Terra from FFVI came in and blew a hole in the floor with some tornadoes.

2) I was running from someone/something along with a couple other people. That's all I remember.

3) I was in a neighborhood that was similar to one I used to live in. I had a table and my laptop in the forest and was using the laptop for a while. Then I hear flames and I run to tell someone. At some point I fall asleep in the dream and dream that I was lucid for a minute. I then woke up in the dream and never actually became lucid. Soon after that I ran back to my laptop and got it out of the fire.

Didn't get myself to write down my dreams till now... I'm getting out of habit. :? Both of the dreams I had last night may have been the same dream, but I'm separating them anyway.


3/8-9/09

1) First thing I remember is I became lucid. I really have no idea if I was actually lucid, but I think not, so I'm not counting it. I was with C again and I think J too. I was with them for a while, then I was in a wooded area covered in snow. Someone else was there with me and C. We went through a door into my old house. I went into my mom's room and then 'woke up'. I followed my mom around for a while after that.

2) My mom and I were on a road trip and we'd stopped at a party of some sort. I think C was here for a while. I remember a little Indian boy dancing, then me and a bunch of other people put away a ton of Japanese food. After that my mom and I left and went to a hostel where someone had about a hundred emus.

*hits head on desk* you need to write down your dreams whenever you remember them, Nira! (that's my online name/what I call myself/con-name, by the way) *hits head on desk again*. My recall is getting worse. Hopefully this is just a short-term lapse. :(

I'm going to start writing down my WILD attempts starting now. This will give me something to do everyday, so there's never a day where I don't have to record something. It will also make me think of what I did and how I might be able to improve.


3/11-12/09

Dreams:

1) I may have been partially lucid during this, but if I was, it was such a low level that I'm not counting it. I was a witch or sorceress of some sort and at one point I summoned my staff (I think I was most lucid during this part). I then remember some dude came over with a paper bag filled with chocolaty desert balls he called Sweet Balls. I took one, then he told me to take five because no one wanted them. I only took one more though. They tasted really good, but the dream was fading here and I tried to regain it, but failed.

2) I was in a car with a bag full of candy, which I was eating. That's all I remember.


WILD Attempts:

As always I tried to make my body fall asleep and stay conscious using various mantras and relaxation methods. Some time later I remember waking from a state between sleeping and awake to very numb fingers (and maybe legs/feet/toes). Unfortunately the numbness only gradually went away, no matter how much I tried to ignore my physical body. I was never in SP that I remember.

Don't remember my dreams *sigh*


3/12-13/09

WILD Attempts:

Same as usual. Got slightly numb, then fell asleep.

Remembered something today...


3/13-14/09

1) I was in an area that sort of reminds me of a garden, except it had a lot of ruins in it. A train or something similar occasionally went through. I was going to see someone and me and the other people I was with weren't happy about it. At some point we got into an area that was a giant multi-level parking lot on one side of the road and a giant apartment complex on the other side. The apartment complex was all black glass with red lights at every window. It looked very creepy. We turned into a building. Next thing I remember was we were trying to get to this person's room, but we weren't residents of the apartments so we couldn't. My mom was here now, as well as someone else. We found someone who was a resident and was going to the same floor we needed to go to, so he agreed to help us get up. We went to an elevator and opened the door manual into a long white hall. I remember talking about how I hopped this was a "horror one", then realized it was and wasn't too happy about it. Apparently we were playing some kind of a game now. We started walking down the hall and I remember asking my mom if we could go home, saying I wanted to go to bed. She agreed, but then we noticed one of the guy we were with was growing another head. Then the other guy and my mom started getting disfigured too. I dropped to the floor and started licking the linoleum, thinking it would make whatever was happening stop. It worked, and I remember one of the guys saying something about it working just before I woke up.

WILD Attempts:

Still the same, slight numbness. Nothing else.

Another lucid, finally! :) Gave me enough reason to post an entry again.


3/16-17/09

Dreams:

1) Very long dream about being in a city with mu mom and some other people I knew. There was something about a bicycle. At some point I was walking/gliding around a field and I realized I was dreaming. I walked/glided around a bit, stabilizing the dream, then asked some girl what the meaning of life was. She mumbled something about colors, then something else that I don't remember. I don't remember if I did anything else, but I do remember the dream fading out.

WILD Attempts:

1) Same as usual still, some numbness, tingling. Though I did start to see shapes a little bit.

Looks like I only every have the initiative to post something when I have an interesting dream, or something interesting happens while attempting to WILD. :? Don't remember Last night's dreams, so here's from the night before that.


3/17-18/09

Dreams:

1) This dream was... odd. Won't be writing it here. :D

2) Nightmare-ish dream. Me and another person were talking to a couple other people about how one of them looking like some other person had caused them a lot of trouble. I'm not sure if we were interrogating them or friends trying to help them or what. The person that looked like someone else was I think called 'Dee' or something that sounded like a letter (I don't know this person in waking life, though she did look a bit like someone I'd just heard about) and the person who was with her was my friend B (who I do know in waking life). There were more than just the four of us for most of the dream, but it started with four. So the conversation turned to how Dee was being hunted and she was terrified. At some point she had to go inside her house (which was all white and we were talking on her porch) to use the bathroom. After a few minutes B followed her to make sure nothing happened to her. Something made us rush into the house soon after, but I don't remember what. We went into a back room (there were maybe six people now) and I thought I spotted a large black creature flying away. People where muttering about what it was, until some large dude came in. He was mostly red-skinned and very muscular, but had icicle-like things all over him. He told us what it was. It was some long name, one word of which started with a T and the last word was bird. He also said something about no one surviving when they are in the same room as one. He asked if we wanted to see what it looked like up close. One guy said yes and the red dude put two drops of water on his forehead, then did some telepathic thing. He never got to me though. I left the room and B waked out after me a couple minutes later. She went on to the bathroom stalls that were nearby and talked to Dee. I started thinking about what the red dude had said, and realized that Dee must be dead. I didn't have the courage to tell B though, so I watched B talk some more, then she asked if Dee understood. She didn't get an answer, so she knocked. Still no answer so she looked in. I heard her saying something in disbelief, then she screamed and ran back in past me. I remember calling out "What?" as if I hadn't figured it out, spinning and looking after her feeling very sorry for her, though through this whole dream I wasn't more than a little scared. I followed her in after a minute, then followed everyone out again as we went to look. I woke up before we got to the stall though.

WILD Attempts:

Pretty sure the same as always.


3/18-19/09

Dreams: Don't remember any.

WILD Attempts:

First experience with SP! I woke up to SP, dreaming that my mom was trying to get me up. I tried to move, but found I couldn't. I realized that I was in SP, but still thought my mom really was trying to wake me up, so I started panicking. I eventually got out of SP, only to realize that my mom wasn't in the room and my door was still closed. I got annoyed at myself for panicking, then tired to get back into SP. I did, but this time I was so interested in it that I kept testing if I could move. So of course, I eventually got out of SP and wasn't able to get back in it. :? I was hearing my mom saying things and walking around the second time.

Another LD! ^_^ 6th LD and I finally think of trying to fly.


3/19-20/09

Dreams:

1) First thing I remember is my mom and I were in some sort of meeting or lecture, and my tooth starts being out of place. The more I try to fix it, the worse it gets, and eventually the tooth falls out. It's this huge gray thing with black-brown lines on it. I started panicking and tuged my mom out of the room. I show it to her, and she started panicking. At some point I was going to change my clothes. I walked to the bathroom, walked back to I think my mom, picked up a couple more things, and on the way back to the bathroom I realized I was dreaming. I dropped the things in the bathroom, then went to the window and rubbed my hands on the curtains to stabilize. Anabeth from the West Wing was there and she talked to me until I left the room. I went outside and jumped up to try to fly. I flew, though it wasn't completely natural to me. I practiced going up and down for a while, then landed roughly and went down the hill. I think I may not have been lucid for this part. At some point I think my Mom and R were there. R was talking about how cool the 'modern' (in fact we were in the future) technology was, then complimented our current technology. A house roof then appeared and I jumped on it, and the roof popped off the house. I got off, then followed R and Mom to a small wood-balcony in the forest. This black guy came over to me after a minute and started praising me for everything. I then started wondering if the dream was going to end soon. I tried to stabilize, but the black guy was holding my hands so I couldn't, and me panicking about it made the dream fade.

WILD Attempts:

Same as usual

Really cool lucid today. At least I think it was lucid. I don't remember how I became lucid or if the dream faded or I lost lucidity or what. :?


3/22-23/09

Dreams:

1) I was on a highway of some sort in a futuristic city and a few members from Organization XIII (From Kingdom Hearts 2) were following me. We were flying really fast, and I was having fun using my dream powers to keep the Org. away, cause they all wanted to kill me. The rest of the members soon arrived and I did a little arm-movement thing and said something like "die". So, all the Org. members died. I thinking something like, I'm in complete control. I go down to where they all fell in a circle and try to bring Axel back to life. It works, but he suddenly looks like he's totally insane and wants to kill me with the combined will of all 13 members. I say something like "Oh, shhh!" and he dies again. I went to wake someone else up, but I don't remember who.

WILD Attempts:

Same as usual.... again....

Another LD last night. ^_^


3/23-24/09

Dreams:

1) I was walking down a hall when I suddenly realized I was dreaming. I turned right, then went into a room, trying to get Cloud Strife to appear again. Didn't work. Called his name, didn't work. I then remembered I hadn't stabilized yet, so I went over to the wall, which had fabric on it, and concentrated on the weave of the fabric. After a minute I saw something out of the corner of my eye. My cat (one I have in waking life) had just appeared. I asked her something, and she responded in English. She told me there was a list of things you couldn't do in lucid and handed me a little book. I think the first page was a can of tomatoes and the second was a can of mushrooms. I then asked her if they (DCs, what ever other being may be out there) if they minded us (as in LDers in general) knowing we are dreaming in our dreams. I don't think I ever got a direct answer, but I'm sure she didn't say an outright no. I think she at least was a little annoyed about it, but didn't have any reason to object. I went to write down all the things she was telling me, but I must have lost lucidity soon after, cause writing things down in a dream to remember them in waking life isn't all that logical, unless writing things down helps you remember them. I don't remember what happened after that.

2) Partly nightmare-ish. I was wandering around a warehouse-type place. I find my mom and some other dude, then see a huge TV with a PSP attached to it. I decide I want to watch the most recent FFXIII trailer. I try to find it, but instead a trailer for Advent Children Complete starts playing. It was a very creepy, almost nightmarish version of the movie, instead of the even-more-action-packed movie it will be. So then we went somewhere else and were about to leave. I was calling for my cat to follow us, but she didn't. I went to pic her up, but I couldn't catch her. I chased her around the parking lot for a while, then got somewhere. I found her (though she'd become a small white dog) somewhere, though she looked sick. My mom got injured somehow too, and I carried them both back to our car.

3) My mom and I were at a friend's huge and very fluffy/girlie/colorful house.

Well, haven't updated in a really long time....


A couple weeks ago I had a dream about visiting my dad and I became lucid while washing my hands. I think I lost lucidity soon after that though.


4/16-17/09

Dreams: For most of this dream I was doing something with a dragon and wandering around Sakura-Con. At some point I remembered I'd just been to Sakura-Con. I spent a minute figuring out how I'd got there, but I was distracted by how odd the world felt. I did the nose-pinch reality check and realized I was dreaming. I was right next to a gourmet-dessert stand, and since I'm on a bit of a weight-loss diet at the moment, decided to spend my dream eating sweets. I went up, looked around and decided what I wanted, then told the guy when he asked me. I was eating something (don't remember what it was or where I got it) so i couldn't tell him both things. He got me the one, then when I was done chewing I told him the other. The first one was some small slice-shaped nutty chewy thing, and the second one was a very large slice of cheesecake with some kind of berry sauce on it. I remembered I had very little money, but then I told myself (or the dream) that since I was 'at Sakura-Con' I should have a bunch of money with me. Sure enough, I had around 50-70 dollars in my wallet. I noticed the $1 I got out was smaller than the $20. But before he could get the cheesecake, some girl came up asking something about her mother (I think). The guy at the counter and someone else started saying how this was very strange, and that they should go tell the authorities. They went and did that, and people were starting to gather in an auditorium a little ways down the hall. I didn't want some DCs with evil intentions ruining my sweet-eating lucid, so I walked over and imagined that I had gotten balloons from around me (since there were hundreds of them). I felt a bunch of balloon-strings in my hand, so I walked in, jumped and let the balloons fly, then fell down very clumsily. There was a minute of silence, then everyone started laughing. I left the room, having accomplished my goal, and went back to the sweets stand. The guy at the counter was sitting and talking with two other people. I stood there for a minute, then he remembered I'd wanted cheesecake. He went and got it, but then realized that the first thing I'd wanted had been stolen. He told me to pick out something else, so I got a very fancy-looking apple-something with a large scoop of chocolate ice cream (that miraculously didn't melt outside of a freezer). He motioned for me to take it, so I did. I took a bite out of it, but I don't remember what it taste like. I then started thinking about how the dream should be ending soon because it had lasted so long. I tried to make myself stop thinking that, but the dream was already fading. The dessert-thing wasn't in my hands anymore, so I started rubbing them together. This started fixing it, but I was getting very sleepy and my eyes wouldn't stay open. At one point I let them close for more than a second and the next time I opened them, I opened my eyes to my room.